always.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

It's 31st DECEMBER 2008!!

what a surprise,i woke up early today.Yaye!and I'm bored at home, cos my parents went to johor this morning-while I'm still sleeping. -_- of all days, when I'm up early and semangat2 want to have breakfast with them, they left me.haiz.. should have slept longer.but NAH! I'm not a pig.ha! Since i have nothing better to do now......i decided to do something random.heh. Don't bother reading cos its sooo merepek.hahahaha.

1. What is your name
guess yourself.ha!

2. How old are you?
18

3. When is your birthday?
16th Feb(: *hinthint*hahaha.
now you know who i am.

4. Are you looking forward to it?
Duh. OK, maybe..?

5. What makes you happiest?
food!kampung.family.friends.icecream!

6. Are you afraid of something?
ALOT of things.errr.. something scary?
A's!!!

7. Do you live alone, or with someone else?
someone else..cheh!my family luh..

8. Do you have any pets?
you're asking me??! ha! nah..

9. What is your favorite cartoon?
Upin and Ipin can?Popeye.tom and jerry.

10. Do you drink?
giler!?

11. Do you hate it when people call you "dear"?
my brother calls me "dia" hahahaha.

12. To whom have you sent the most text messages?
idk.

13. What did you do for new year's eve?
last year i was with a few happy people at esplanade.(:
this year..today!! marina?

14. What concerts do you want to see in 2009?
PCD?hahaha. Ungu!?if they're coming back.

15. What is your favorite place to chill out?
Parkway and East coast! any nice rooftop will do.

16. What is your favorite memory of the past couple of years?
alot lehh.. i wont tell.haha!

17. Wat is your goal for the year?
Not to be a lazy bumbum and stop procrastinating!

18. What do you think about when you first wake up?
alot of things.

19. Have you ever eaten sushi?
1/4 of it.YUCKS!

20. Did you like it?
NEVER

21. What is your biggest pet peeve?
rude and arrogant people! especially in trains and buses.ha!

22. Who are you in love with?
errrr.. noone.

23. Are you hot?
are you madd?? hahahaha.

24. Your dream vacation?
Mauritius and somewhere..

25. Do you collect anything?
dust.receipts.rubbish.

26. What is your heritage?
hurrr..father-boyan/madura? mother-cina?melayu? -_-

27. Are you rich?
ask Rann. "I'm rich with luvvv.." hahahahaha!

28. What are your plans for tonight?
dunno leh.fireworks!(:

29. What do you want to know about the future?
how my future husband and kids will look like?! cheh! HAHAHAHA.

30. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
RIA RAZIANY RAZAK! LOL!

Comparisons are easily done
Once you’ve had a taste of perfection

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

one more day to 2009. ): (:
oh mann.. I'm so not looking forward to new year.idk.. okay, i know why. but obviously i wont tell anyone.ha! ahshit.why time pass by so fast.I'll be siting for my A's next year. I'm scared.scared of only one thing.i don't want to disappoint my parents. i know they'll be fine with whatever grades i have, but still.u know what i mean.. i cant believe I've gone this far actually.i mean i never thought that I'll continue my studies in mi.now that I've come this far, i really should stop playing and be serious about my studies!i know they're proud of me. but that's not enough isn't it.idk laaa. omg.i wanna say more, but........i got stomach ache! anti climax only.heh! ooohhhh yaa.i need to get a new diary asap! by tmr. oh noo.. anyone free?hahaha.kidding. BORDERS! here i come. hahahaha.

through the monsoon..

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Chillak-a without DIYANAH SHAFIE

mad people love to cycle in 2006..haha.

THREE more days to 2009.A new year, a new beginning, a new me.? idk..heh.
New year's eve is coming real soon...!! its time we look back to the past and reflect what we have done or not.. i always have mixed feelings about new year's eve.heesh..its like I'm looking forward to the new year, but at the same time I'm not really keen to start a brand new year..
We always make fresh resolutions for the coming year with full determination, will and hope. but sometimes, i wonder whats the point of new year resolutions when we hardly look back and reflect what we have done or not.there's really no point in making a new year resolution when you don't put your resolutions into actions. usually, my determination to fulfil my new year resolution will somehow fade away by the end of January/February? so by the month of June/July, i will forget my resolutions completely.don't ask me why. so much for my resolutions and change.ha! and the reason why people make new year resolution is to give them some sort of direction and purpose to lead the coming year.. But, some people make resolutions that are almost impossible. And afterwards, they'll find it difficult to follow such resolutions. Wouldn't that be sad.. sounds like me.?? hahahaha. i learned something after having done so many new year resolution.ha! that is, don't expect too much from yourself and others. The bottom line is, change for the better in the coming year.though they always say be yourself, but how would you know your real self is good enough?it doesn't hurt to change-for the better.huh.ok, nvm. merepek.

Resolutions are set in one day, but accomplished with a hundred tiny steps that happen throughout the year.

tunku(:

What was your New Year's Resolution for this year?:: Can't remember. Needta find that slip of paper I wrote on

Did you take up any new hobbies this year?:: heh.. No.. Too lazy :D

Did you make any new friends?:: yupyup definitely!

Did anything change lifestyle-wise?:: kinda. sleep real early on school nights no matter what others say. HAH! u think I care?!!

Did you lose any friends?:: I don't think so

How many bfs/gfs have you gone through this year?:: Heh

Run into an ex from last year?:: -__-

You favourite moment of 2008?:: too many chilak-a moments leh!

The moment you laughed the hardest of 2008?:: when I was with the bf and chillak-a

The saddest you have ever gotten in all 2008?:: can't remember.. Too many to mention?

Did you find the love of your life (or current life) this year?:: uh.. Heh.. Yeah..

How many new people did you meet this year?:: too many to mention , sey!! Juniors, his friends, new friends from school..

Any old hobbies that you gave up this year?:: nope

What grade are you in this year?:: Haha. I went through 1.2, 2.1, and am currently in 2.2

Make any changes on what you want to be when you grow up this year?:: nah.. still the same route I want to take

How many haircuts have you had?:: oh my.. a lot..

What's your favorite band that you started listening to this year?:: I Am Ghost, A7X

Go to any concerts this year?:: Engine Idol? Hahhaaha! St Pat's concert?

How many days/weeks/months are left of 2008?:: 3 days

Would you say that this year was better than last year?:: I guess so..

Was your 8/8/08 better than your 7/7/07?:: 070707 I was with cedar people, 080808 I was most prolly with Taufiq. So hmm, it was better

What's a food that you tried this year?:: century egg porridge? chicken rice from short circuit?

Where did you go on vacation?:: No where at all

Been dumped this year?:: no

Been with any dead-beat bfs or gfs this year?:: no

Thought about your sexuality or made any changes about it this year?:: hahahha. ok whaat. only T knows

Any changes in your religion?:: nope

How was your birthday this year?:: THE BEST!!

Tell me something grand you have learned this year.:: I am the coolest kid on earth

Tell me something kinda funny, but totally true, that you have learned:: hahaha. I dont really learn much in sch

Get any new pets?:: nopee

Lose a pet?:: no

Lose any family members?:: no

What is the best gift you have recieved this year?:: BRACES!!

Did you get injured this year?:: nope

Or just hurt (physically) in any way?:: just a couple of bruises.

Get told any secrets?:: hehe. Yeah..

Get your secrets blurted all over the place this year?:: I dont think so

What month is it now?:: December

What do you think 2009 will bring?:: world peace.

If you can remember, how was your 2006?: most confusing yet fun time of my life

What do you think you'll be doing in 2010?: Hopefully, graduating, and working somewhere full-time

-SARAH ADNAN!!

lets look forward to the next year man! while u guys study, june and i shall work!! and we've got BALI next year!!!!! ahhh can't wait! while we work, u all must save money hor, orrr else..... it'll be like this year! no trip! lalala

so while june and i await for our A levels results, the rest of u must study hardddd!
ria u better stop playing and don't even think of giving up! we don't allow losers in chillak-a! kahaha
and the poly peeps. errrrr.. since i don't really know what u guys doo... all i've got to say is to not procrastinate and don't do last min assignments!!!!

till we meet again.... (tmr)

i'm in a foullll disposition

late dinner always worry me because of how fast babats form. LIFE SUCKS. ahahahahhhaa right! anyway, i feel like i've met an anticlimactic turn because lewples can't fit her damn collar. that sucks you know! randommmmmm radommmmm randommmm.......... anyway, it doesn't take alot for a lil twist at the end of the day to bring it a notch down. so suckasssss mnanananananannMAN. immmaaaa soooo eegggcited for 2nd december! more than newyear. but it'll be so sad once sch and work resumes respectively for all. then our little holiday interlude would have to come to a slight closure......until bali!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg, we were sooooo suppose to go to bangkok la this dec. but due to unforseen financial constrains on all our part, i guess plans have to be deferred. aiya, i'm just chit chatting w myself because, i enjoy my own company. well, hello june. come january, everyone will be busy n i'll be alone, like this, on lonely nights. this is pretty good pre jan training. misssss independenttt. siao. okay im off, im bored alr and pretty tired. toodlelooooo. till the day after tmr. !@#$^%&*()_

quote of the day "eh, can send me cool songs?"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Saraaaaaah..!! I am NOT looking forward to school too... ):
i think this holiday i played too much.. it sucks going back to books and more books. *in my case papers and more papers laa.* and i just realised this December, I've been to the doctor for three times!! -_- @!#$%$^%&!

*copied from sarah adnan*

Ria Raziany Razak
07A2 -_-
Millennia Institute, A'levels
Bukit Batok

whisper words of wisdom,
let it be
let it be

My butt is still in pain. You all made me walk alot. BOOO!! I complain to my mother my father my grandmother my sister my sister my boyfriend then you know!

Hahahaha!

Stop it sia so lame.

Ok lah BYE.

Not Looking Forward To School At ALL!

-Sarah Bte Adnan
0702800D
Diploma in Biomedical Informatics&Engineering (E0I)
Temasek Polytechnic, School of Engineering

Eee

BBQ Preparations stuff are under draft. Add songlist and whatever else u wanna contribute ah. Btw, $10 to be collected from everyone by erm, before new year's eve. TP kids, I'll collect from you ah. I'll stand personally at the entrance of your schools and wait for u ahahah! :D

Saturday, December 27, 2008

heyloo!!
i love anniversaries!
and today marks our blog's anniversary!whee!(((:

meaning a few days ago.. was a year from our first Hotel Ubi..
when we first coined the term Chillak-a.
awww.. sweet!

i love u girls manymanymanyyyyyyy.
MUACKS!
thx for being there for me without fail whenver my parents are out of country.
somehow always there when i get sick of TP and need a dose of chillak-a.
when i have my 10000000001 cravings to satisfy..
((:
thanks for keeping this blog alive for a year and counting, cos dis space does wonders.
and sorrrryyyyyy..
for so many things.
haha.
lets keep this a happy post and keep negative things farfar away k?

hehh(:

anyhoooo~
more Hotel Ubi to come!
parents are off for either HK or bangkok in jan.
bleaghhh.
i'm sick of them leaving us behind..
but heyho.
i'll nvr get sick of hotel ubi!(((:

lotsa loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sygs!!
and we now have our own cake with our picture onnit!!
it looks preeeeetyyy!!
**not to mention yummmyyy. haha**
if i can have it my way, its gnna be chocolate fudge inside all det gooey icing.syiok.
**omg. throw in some gummy worm surprise too why not?? heee..**

dianloveyoumanymany(:

Well nevertheless, today's a happy occasion, isn't it?

Happy first year anniversay for our blog!! Let's celebrate!!!! We'll paint the town red! (ooh that almost rhymed)

To all readers who aren't of the chillak-a brand, thanks for staying with us through the ups and downs of our daily lives!

che like real!

♥ SARAH ADNAN

One thing I don't get is how people pick at your flaws so easily, and yet I find it so hard to do the same. Maybe because it's of no intention of mine to hurt someone I care for. The whole I'd-rather-get-hurt-than-see-you-hurt concept is always in me. One thing I learn about being in a relationship is that you're bound to hurt and be hurt. More often than not, I feel that you're against me. Because I know no words to speak when I'm angry. I give the silent treatment, because once I open my mouth, I tend to say things I regret, in that particular tone of voice. One that you call "attitude".
At the same time, though, silence gives the other the opportunity to hurt you. So should I just keep silent? Or should I say what I feel? Sighs. No matter how many times this has happened, you never once put down the phone on me. Guess people change, don't they? And some people just don't, do they? Attitude.
This goes nowhere. Seriously, don't bother.

Friday, December 26, 2008

In about an hour, marks the one year anniversary since the launch of

chillak-a blog!!

YAYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yippie yaya yippie yippie yaye!

hahahahahahhahaha.

let's do something to this blog. ((:

Another year over,

And we're still together,

It's not always easy,

But we're here forever...

i love you all this ______ much! haha. kidding!

i loveyouall a hell lot!!!!!!!!

*you know you don't get much of this mushy stuff from me.heh.*

Thanks alot for being there for me when i needed someone to just listen.haha. you guys have seen the ugliest side of me-literally.hahahahahaha. Thanks for pushing me in my studies- for me not to quit school!hahaha. I just wanna thank God for everything(:

sorry if i have ever hurt or cheat your feelings.hee. sorry for ALL the times that i was LATE! i PROMISE I'll get rid of that irritating habit cos I'm irritated with myself for being late. hahahahahaha. and sorry if i always talk alot-since when i don't.heh.

LET's Grow Old Together!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

tunku(:

it's christmas,

and on christmas alike hari raya, you forgive, forget and sorta start anew on a good note. and while the act of forgiveness sounds magnanimous, i never saw forgiving as hard as i do today. when someone seeks forgiveness, the most polite and appropriate thing to do is to return the gesture with the granting of your forgiveness, relieving their burdened guilt. however, how if part of you are still unreconciled with everything, will it be wise to seek time? things don't happen with the sleight of a hand and when things accumulate overtime, sometimes, a simple apology does little to aplease the long standing injustice that burns within. so while i've forgiven even before it was sought, i can't forget and doubt i will for some time. while its a rotten feeling to be unable to let go, its a greater burden to feel pressured at an instant to grant the much sought forgiveness. it's really weirde, because truly from the bottom of my heart, unforgiveness in this respect was never an issue but somehow, the sting from the slap lingers and serve as a recurring reminder.

so if anything this christmas, i pray god give me a heart big enough to truly forgive, to bury the hatchet and live, and let be.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

HellOoooOO lovely friends!!!! hahahahahaha. I'm back! yAYE!!! i have alot of stories to share. ok, since when i don't.heh. they say sharing is caring.haha! i miss you all soooo sooo much. you know i don't say this much. but yeah.. absence makes the heart grow fonder. its true! hahahahaha. and know what, i fell sick in jb! haiyaa..since when I'm not. i had a BAD (as in seriously teruk) rashes and i kept vomiting like some pregnant woman! shitty. hahahaha. my sister was so worried that she brought me to the doctor. -_- and i practically gave her 1001 reasons as to why i DONT need to go to the doctor. eeeeyur!!! i HATE the smell of clinics and DOCTORS! it just makes me more sick. seriously, i vomited in the clinic.hahahahahahahaha. the worst part was.......... i got jabbed! @#%$^%! -__- pain in the ass.. literally.ha! and i saw the needle!!so dumb of me. hahahaha.
kkay laa.i'll continue later. see ya!

*singing*
all i want for Christmas.. is...
idk.hahahahaha.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

hahaha it's funny seeing the kiddos fly their helicopters coz they keep crashing! hahaha and thus the screaming! hahahaha.... zach's the worst la... all the funny noises come out! hahahahaha.
Christmas feels different this year but it's nvr the less Christmas.
FEEL THE LOVE MAN!!!!
I LOVE YA GUYS!!!!!
hahaha

MERREH CHRISTMAS!

they are still figuring out how to land safely. boy ohh boy....

LOVE Yáll!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

ahahahahha i took up the clinic job! so no pay till end of training which could range from days to weeks to months! haha can't be months la. they'll probably fire me if i take months to learn!

anyway, on 29th dec, we go out after 2 k? haha cozzzz i got training! hahahahaha lets just pray tht i learn fast man so tht i can get paid FAST!!! bring in the moneh! haha. heh heh heh.... lalala. it feels good to know tht i have something to do and since i've always somewhat wanted to be a doc but guess my results wouldn't make the mark, clinic assistant would be a good enough substitute, i think. there is a bright side and a not so bright side to everything. the nt so bright side (dark side) is tht i have to wake up darn early!!!!! omg!!!!! im gonna dieeee! i'll probably have to wake up at 7am!! myohhhmyyy

i just took up a tuition assignment and then turned it down! i feel like shit for doing tht. like cheat peoples feelings but really, i have no direct bus there and it'll not only be a hassle to get there but it'll be expensive too. so so what if they pay $15 per hour right? omg or did i totally get it wrong. like i shouldn't have turned it down, should i not? alright nvm. what's done is done. doing such stuff makes me feel like shit. i feel like a cheater. darn!

anyway should i take up the offer at the clinic near my house? it's only $5 per hour. man compare the difference! shucks! and i get no pay during training! ohnoooooooo! well on the bright side, i don't need to reread my pri school stuff and i don't need to spend on transportation cost right? lalala. im not crazy, i'm just a little unwell. i'm feeling all quesy! eeyurrr. i hate this feeling cos i can't do anything abt it.

shit la. i actually typed whole lot of stuff but the com suddenly lost it's connection and so i had to restart . now im lazy to type alll over again. irritating

Monday, December 22, 2008

heyyyyy looooooooooooooo babeeehhhhhhhhssssssss

guess who's back, back again..shady's back...
okay lameee

anyway, i sincerely, wholeheartedly miss you guys like CRAZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and though our dear tunku has just left for a day, her absence, (moment of silence) is greatly felt for i went to parkway and felt in the air, the absence of the minah marine parade. haha merepek! christmas is comign and my creative juices ahve been seeped out. may be the tiem of the month but i am so blah about life that its pretty funny, considering the festive season.

planssss in mind. good to dream
- tipah's birthday celebration
- zoo outing
- east coast waddling in water day
-nice dressy outing day
- new year partayyyyy
- many many many more dinner

if i get the freaking job, come 5 january, i'll be away from 9-5. so till then we have to partyyyy all nightttt. plus dian wanna go clubbing someday so why not today. hahaha no la, i mean sooonn. the wholeee lot! plus laimoon and nessa and DIYANA too if possible. that'll be radical, awesome, fantastic.. everythinggg!

till then. all u poly kids take care. and see u all real soon.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

it's odd how i can feel so at peace with myself but at the same time feel all messy and whirled up. sometimes, i don't understand myself. one moment i think i know what im doing but at the very next minute, i simply lose myself and regret what i have done or not done. how odd.

fucked uppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

i.a.m.b.o.r.e.d.c.o.s.t.h.e.r.e.'s.n.o.o.n.e.a.t.h.o.m.e.
hahahahahahaha. and for a while, i thought it was a good thing cos at least i can watch movies online or youtube! heh. but no. the earpiece that I've been using is now gone!! must be my BELOVED brother who took it. *da la speaker rosak* haiz.. now i can't even do anything eggciting. haha. and so dumb of me, i buffered some movie and i forgot that i have no earpiece. -____- abaaaaaang!!!!!!!!!!! oh man.. tell me what to do now. i don't want to watch tv again.heh. ok, i want to cook, but i doubt there's anything that i can cook now.haha. oh ya! surprisingly...... I'm not that scared at home alone! improvement huh.. hahahahaha. just don't mention anything scary or let my imagination run wild. ok,its running wild nw.stop.stop. okok. hahahaha. yea, I'm talking to myself now.heh. i think I'll pack my bag soon. what should i wear tmr? as in baju kurung. oh no..i don't know where's my baju kurung all. haiyaaa..my passport!!!! O_o! i have to wake up super early tmr cos i have to at least reach jurong east by 9?
hello, if any of you all wake up already, give me a miss call kay. my alarm doesn't really help me sometimes,knowing me.. hahahahaha! kk.I'll continue later.I'm feeling lazy now.heh.

cos im speechless,
over the edge im just breathless..

this has got nothing to do with my life, i just like that song.nt the singer.haha!

Friday, December 19, 2008

HELLO!!!!!! WE ARE HAVING A BBQ PARTEH!!!!
ON 2ND JAN 2009!!!!!

MORE WILL BE UPDATED
JUST A REMINDER: ALL MUST CHIP IN MONEY HOR!!!!
HAHAHAHA

Thursday, December 18, 2008

its okaaaye sarah! there's still next year. oh! im gg kampung again on the 25th cos my sepupu tunang. oh! it's CHRISTMAS! hahaha. oh man.. almost all my cousin in malaysia da tunang or kahwin! some got anak already. so left two of my cousin and me! and they will always ask me "ria biler lagi? sekali kau kahwin dulu.." are you maaadddd?!! -_- matair takde, nak kahwin ape. kahwin dengan ameng! standard line. -_____- giler or what. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. and what for i think about marriage now! maybe in 7, 8, 9, 10 years time! by then I'll be..... "richer!" hahahahahahaha. you know, I've been watching ALOT of AFC, asian food channel luh, and discovery home and health! heh. suddenly i got the idea of adoption..!! idk. i feel like adopting a baby.ok, not nw. just imagine..... wahhh. hahahahahahahahaha. omg. this is so merepek and I'm like dreaming! heh. i got nothing to do now and i don't feel like watching TV-again. I'll go find some food later.
oh oh!! my sister just msged me and she said that this sun, there will be those pondan dancing at my kampung!!!! PONDAN or BAPOK is still the same rightt...? hahahaha. i saw this pondan dancing thingy once. it was seriously funny cos they will be like syiok sendiri with their baju ketat-ketat and make-up tebal-tebal! hahaha. it will be held at night after the wedding. Yaye!!!! actually i was expecting kuda kepang instead, cos my uncle is known for that. but it's okay. pondan pun pondan laa. LOL.

"sorry hor, if you all don't understand.."
eeeyurr. hahahahahahahahahaha.

you began to wonder why you came

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

i haven't got a job, i don't need to study, i'm basically free but not really.

i seem rather busy ya know. like when people ask me to go out, it's either im very busy or i don't know. well with the exception of the chillak-assess of course! hahaha... i think i'm just anti-social and so i refuse to make time for people i don't really know..hahaha im such an ass!

hahahahaha! i need to find a job! i know im becoming very irritating especially when i keep saying i need a job but dont apply for anything. well, i would have done that if circumstances were the same as before. but it's just different now, i can't always leave the kiddos at home cos whenever charm's not in singapore, which is most of the time, i need to make sure they have food and stuff. plus, tipah always complains that she has nothing to do at home, especially when i go out. soooooo, i need to plan, plan, plan. maybe things would be better after sch reopens. hopefully. but sch poses another prob! they're taking their psle next year and tipah isn't much of a independent learner or should i say she gets distracted very easily! my ohh my! sometimes, i don't understand why she can't understand the importance of studying. maybe she does but just don't feel the urgency to do anything about it. everyone is different right?

i don't wanna complain cos i know that there are many others out there who have more problems than me but sometimes, i just can't help it. occasionally, i wonder why people want to create their own problems. like is their life really so smooth sailing that they have to create problems so as to create excitement in their boring life? ohhhh whatever! not my prob, is it? haha anyhow sia...

im actually really bored! i should go create some problems! neh!

one day, i hope to be richer! hahaha not rich but richer! hahahahaha
ria, yes u are rich with love and one day, u'll be richer with love!!! heh

Im hungry...!! ):

what a way to start my post.hahahaha. my mother just called me and she's buying me food. haiz.i feel like a pampered princess.cheh! more of like a pig.HAHA! im so bored.December is ending soon.. oh noo.. means school will be starting soon. -_- im so not prepared for school!!help.help. i was supposed to STUDY this december.yaarrr right!haha.the thought of doing and studying for GeePee, malay lit, business and econs all over again just make me wanna fly to some other country where education is not needed and everyone will still live a happy life with happy family.haizz.. dream on.. hahahahahaha. i've been watching alot of tv nowadays.oh man. i even memorised all those commercials escpecially on MTV. hah! SWAG! hahahahahahaha.lame. and twilight is everywhere!!! Paramore-Decode, is like playing on mtv over and over again. sooner or later, i'll end up liking that song.haha. now i feel like watching twilight. -_- me? since when... right rann? maybe u all shud listen to save you by simple plan.not that bad. But the best is I hate this part by PCD. yaye!!! hahahaha. speaking of that, it reminds me of june's itouch!!!! haaaaaaa!! June! if u find your itouch missing one day, u'll noe where to find it. HAHAHAHAHA! ok, the yellow ipod or my hair? hahahahaha. bimbo! if only i was "RICHER" sounds familiar huh. there's so many things i want.this sucks. eeeeyur.nt that i want-want. but yea.. you all know what i mean.heh. but then again, i dont really know what i want. -_- yadayada. Anw, yesterday i wrote one of my wishes on one of those floating balls at esplanade! yay. hahahahaha. and and there was this guy/boy who played the guitar and sang to his frens.it was like those accoustic performance.so niceeeee.. he sang lucky, im yours, always be my baby, faraway and lalalalalalala. oh, so are we really going karaoke?i bet rann and farveen cant wait! hahahahaha.

list of things to do by DECEMBER 2008 (hopefully)

1. cycling

2. bbq

3. balik kampung

4. karaoke?

5. zoo!

6. watch sunset.haha.

7. do something to my hair?

8. get a new mp3! goodbye ipod.hah

9. satisfy all my cravings

10. clear/throw all(some) my stuff ):

11. empty all those rubbish in my bags

12. get a new set of school uni -_-

13. meet friends and the Chillak-a!!!

14. be a better daughter and sister.hahaha!

10. MAKE A NEW YEAR RESOLUTION LIST (:

(i promise not to procastinate.ok no, i'll try..hahaha)

oh ya, anyone wanna follow me balik kampung this sun? i know i asked this alot of times alr.haha. but i need to confirm la.cos my mother and brother will be gg this sat, so if not, i'll have to go alone luh.okk.. see ya!

Lets meet up!! with kecikk! ((:

We live and we learn to take

one step at a time

Saturday, December 13, 2008

my body clock is officially screwed!!!! i have been freaking awake since yesterday! like freaking awake! and im hungry. OMG! freak la! im freaking irritated with myself coz today is suppose to be a very busy day! i've got to go buy zach's sch books like in the morning which is 1 and a half hours from now and ive got rach bridal fitting thing in the afternoon! shit! darn it la! wth! i need to sleep but can't! and im not even sleepy! the sleepless night is only visible when i look at myself in the mirror and see those dark eyes and heavy eyebags! eeeyurr! gross coz i have to run sooo many errands today! i'm utterly disgusted with myself! ohhman! lets just hope tht i can survive today without sleeping! goss what am i doing to myself???? maybe it's the lack of exercise! darn! i shall start soon! hahahaha!

but somehow, it feels good to be awake at this time when the chirping calls of the birds can be heard

Friday, December 12, 2008

We're driving slow
Through the snow
On fifth avenue
And right now radio's
All that we can hear
Now we ain't talked since we left
It's so overdue
It's cold outside
But between us its worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers
I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once
I tell you what's hurting me

wohooooo.. hahahaha.
no more anyhow singing,cos we know the lyrics yo! lol.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Hey..We'll be going out tmr, to a place where no one knows.hahahaha.kidding!
we're meeting at jurong east control station.
if you all cant make it, you can just join us for dinner,
maybe at simpang or east coast.haha.
okie dokie! Anything just msg us,kay. (:

Good luck for term test!
while we'll still be sleeping. lol.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

there's so much i want to say yet nothing can be put to words. it's just the odd feeling of having to say something and wanting to say it sooo much but being unable to do just that.

they say a picture paints a thousand words, yet what i want to say can never be expressed by just one picture. i'll probably need millions of pictures. my friends, tis the reason for all the agony. im going crazieeeeeeeeeeee!

it's amazing how time passes so quickly. somehow, as we grow older, time seem to pass at a quicker pace. is it because we have more things to do, more responsibilities to uphold to or is it simply because we pounder too much and before we even know it, what's past has past? has our over complicated, over analytical, over pragmatic mind taken control over whatever life is suppose to be like? well i believe it has.

a whole year is about to pass yet my emotions and memories still remains stagnant in the early months of 2008. it's really odd how physical wounds are either gone or all that remains is a scar while emotional wounds still feel very much fresh and bleeding.

i love you and miss you
ohhh i miss and love the chillak-assesss toooo but it's different..
hahahaha

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I've been up for days,
I finally lost my mind,
and then I lost my way,
I'm blistered but I'm better and I'm home

I miss East Coast.Let's go there kay..

Where did I go wrong,
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

I miss chilling at Esplanade. ):

Bang bang your left foot,
I wanna hear your left foot.
Bang bang your right foot,
I wanna hear your right foot.
Moti- Moti- Got a lotta Motivation...
Dedi- Dedi- Got a lotta Dedication...

I miss Camp pin 05' and alittle of 08'

Cuz we lost it all,
Nothing lasts forever.
I'm sorry i cant be
Perfect
Now its just too late,
And we cant go back.
I'm sorry
Icant be
Perfect

I miss NCC days..

why does tonight,
have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes

I miss clt course.weirrdd.

engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk
hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

I miss fasting month days

Mungkinkah bila ku bertanya
Pada bintang-bintang
Dan bila kumulai merasa bahasa kesunyian
Sadarkan aku yang berjalan dalam kehampaan
Terdiam, terpana, terbata semua dalam keraguan

I miss singing under the stars.haha!

No sir,
well I don't wanna be the blame,
not anymore.
It's your turn,
to take a seat we're settling
the final score.
And why do we like to hurt,
so much?

I miss disturbing people with this song(:

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care
if I live or die

I miss 'the gang'...

HELLO PEOPLE! IT'S TERM TEST WEEK ! That means, 2weeks break next week! Come on let's go out yay yay!

Haha! Airport? I've been there too many times the past 2 weeks! And I actually overnight-ed there on Friday night! With my aunts+cousins+boyfriend from my dad's side. Hahaha! Fish&co treat for dinner, and we did not sleep at all! Played CAMP GAMES! and walk2 and talk cock and had free macs breakfast and took the first bus home!

Sunday night, as my cousin just got his driver's license, he drove me, his parents, my other cousin and my boyfriend to Mustafa! Haha! At like, 10plus at night? So cool lah! It really makes me wanna take !But like, $2k++ LEH!

Monday was hari raya, so just stayed there, and came home at around 9+ cos this year, my grandma didnt wanna make besar-besaran . So all's good. Nasi briyani wasnt that bad. Lots of food leftover. :D

hello one n allll

its been a long time since i posted anything public here so hello. lem. okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hahaha idont hv anythign to say except tt zach is a funny piece of shit and that well,

signing off, luvluv

HAHHAHAHAHA

Monday, December 8, 2008

Today is hari raya haji. and what am i doing now?
sitting in front of this comp almost the whole day.
what a great hari raya hurr.haha.
anyways.. finally i get to rest properly at home.
last last week was my kampung week.
the following week was my camp pin week.
and now.. idk. haha.
hopefully it will be a good week.
duh, everyone wants a good week.. who doesn't..
yada yada.

camp pin was way beyond my expectation.. haha.
i thought i wouldnt really enjoy it, but nah!
it was good, though half the time i was cursing in my heart for all those admin stuff!
sick. hahahahaha. da la, I'm like a dodo in IT stuff..eeeyur. lol.
but yea, must learn the hard way first.ha!
and the other half of the time was spent on sleeping and singing. hahaha.
katy perry! paramore! wonderwall! yay..!! (:
now I'll miss those merepek times..
I'll miss making those rubber balls!
thanks friends for teaching me to make those balls. haha.
I'm still trying to make it bigger.don't get me wrong. lol.
oh man.. how i miss ncc camps.
but, its like the passion is slowly fading away.haiz.
Life. hahahahaha.

anw, yesterday morning was the shittiest morning i ever had.
it sucks so badly.idk.
i felt like an idiot sitting alone in front of esplanade.
its not about sitting alone in front of esplanade,
its about other things that i shall not mention here.
at that point of time, i guess i found the meaning of true friendship.OK, not so corny.
but yah, you noe what i mean. i just wanted to run away. -_-
merepek la.ha!
lets not talk about this ever again.
okay, thanks.

i gtg.see ya! (:

Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know I’m leaving

Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Something I rely on to get home
One I can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when I’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Trust, earned or lost
Do you have it from the beginning
Do you earn it
Does it take long?
trust in earned and lost
It must never be questioned
For questioning trust is questioning your friend
If you have to question your friend did you ever really trust them to begin with
If trust is lost, will you ever get it back
How will it ever be the same
Trust was recieved, Then slowly decieved.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Don't u think it's an irony that it's the words of your love one's which can hurt u the most? Well, it makes sense because since u love them, anything they say or do would affect you greatly. So wouldn't this make love hurtful? If you hate everyone, then no one can hurt u? right?

I think i don't know how to hate and that's why it hurts. I don't mean to say i can't hate people who have hurt my loved ones but i just can't put myself to truly hate someone when i had once loved that person, even if that person is extremely hateable. It would just feel wrong.

Afraid to love coz it feels wrong to hate

oh man.. its already 1plus and I'm still awake.
means.. i still have about 5hours plus to make my decision if i want to run or not.
oh shit.help. wait, there's no point in helping me cos I'll still have to go no matter what.
OK, maybe I'll just walk all the way or just dont run/walk at all!
i think I'll be coughing my way to the finishing line.. haiz.
this sucks. and to make matter worst, i dont have my freaking mp3.. aaaaaargh.
oh God.. why must i have throat infection now...?
and why am i so fickle? haiz.
and and and there's other reason why I'm not really looking forward to this run..
u guys should know what..
its okay! everything will be alright.hopefully
omg! there's a freaking huge flying lipas just flew on top of my head!!!
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeyurrr!!!! hahahaha.
thank God mr Razak came to the rescue!
hahahahhahaha.
okkkay.. i better get some sleep.
noe what..the cough syrup the MO gave me really "may cause drowsiness"
i slept like a log last night! hahahahaha. maybe i should take some of that now.
heh.
life's not a game.it's full of choice.
hahahahaha. yadayada. merepek.
see ya!! (:

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

hello!!! haha yes yes dian here i am.
ok grad night. how shall i start?
i spent $14 on cab fare from home to meritus mandarin! like what the shit! haha
well the food was really disappointing. darn it la! i feel so cheated! i think our sec sch luncheon food was better, wayyy better!

went to clark quay after tht BUT NO i didnt go clubbing! haha! the q was darn long la.. like siao! we went to indocine for a drink and when we came out, there were still people queuing! haha then we went party world to sing! i swear i zaosia alot! hahahaha!

there were so many people drunk man! and majority were girls! like haiyoooo! cannot like tht one u know! there were the noisy drunk, super high drunk, talk nonsense drunk, scary drunk, mad drunk and the list goes on and on! haha i shall not comment too much, sekali next time i drunk like them too! haiyooo!

hmmm then i met charm and we went macs and i ate breakfast! the 2 dollars meal thing. reached home around 5 plus, slept and woke up at 3! hahahah

if u wanna see pics, go my facebook la! hahaha

hey i've got a plan! after the dong dongs come back from camp pinn! we can go liang court party world and then go clark quay walk walk! or if u guys want to, go clubbing lor! like back to stoneage! haha sorry for the lameness!