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Sunday, February 28, 2010

): i think im being too sensitive these few days.
i get that lump on my throat feeling easily especially if someone or anyone talks abt sensitive issue or abt my family.also,i hate reminiscing cos it leaves u with that nyek feeling after that and cos it makes u realise that people change and life still has to go on.but i dont know why this stupid brain of mine keeps reminiscing the good old days.maybe i'd rather live in denial.oh wells..
and sometimes, i think im being too defensive. i always blurt out the things i didnt mean whenever im angry.it sucks cos whatever ive said may be hurtful and there's really no point in regretting what you've said.we just have to learn not to make the same mistake again.but i guess i never really learn.ha.
dont worry,im not suicidal.
i just need to do some soul searching.haha.


And no matter what anybody says about grief and about time healing all wounds,
the truth is, there are certain sorrows that never fade away
until the heart stops beating
and the last breath is taken



Saturday, February 27, 2010

anyone watched titanic??

i watched in the dark, huddled in my smelly blanket.
cried like a soundless baby..

Dawson. Rose Dawson..
)))):


hiiii one and all. oh you knwo everytime i come to the blog i keep watching that katy perry( i almost spelt katy as kt) and timberland's video. i think the other girl is so beeeeaauuuttiifuuul! if i were a man, think i will find a wife who looks life that. and i don't knwo if its cause we've hit the great twenty or something but the issue of marriage keeps recurring in all our conversations. sighh.. good night. half of my essay more to go. wish me luck! then i have another one... SIGHHHH

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Hi, u can call me ria.
or u can call me tonight.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
funnyshit.

we have two numbers in the drafts ayee..
so popular.hahahaha.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

seems like everyone had an emo night last night. haha i didnt go to sch today cos i felt sick. not physically but emotionally. oh please im not heartbroken. it's about my future not bg relationships. ha. yesterday was it. there is no way i'll be able to change course. transfer application ended on the 21st and i didn't know. sucks when i finally decided to change course only to realise that i'd missed the chance. darn!!! i know i might regret in the future for being so foolish and retarded. but what can i do? waste another semester? waste 2 more years?? oh gosh. maybe i should just carry on with this degree and graduate after 3 years. afterwhich i'd just try my luck with sia. and if i do get in, i'd save enough to run a business. it's scary growing up. and yes ria and dian. lets just get married!! ha! like i'd ever entrust my life to someone.

Miss Independent. HAHAHAHAHA!!! JOKE


just for 10 mins.
i wish i can not be myself just so i can view n judge myself from an outsiders point of view
and take the necessary actions to work on my flaws.

i hate not knowing if my decisions are naive or wise.
i hate that i've lived with myself for almost 20 years, and there are times i dun understand why i do things.

not emo..
but this helpless clueless almost bimbotic feeling realli sux.
pfft.


I'm feeling a little sappy and emo nw.
nt emo-emo but ya lah, ya'll noe what i mean.haha.
its not a good thing to feel this way especially at this kind of time.cos why? everyone's sleeping and there's noone to talk to.and its abit stupid to wake ur frens up just to talk abt this right.haha.
so what do you do?
just sleep!
goodnight.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010



katy perry hot arrrr..
klah.that guy also hot,nt timbaland. i mean paulo nutini.
hahaha! (:

Monday, February 22, 2010

poof!

HAHAHA!


Poly kids, Goooood luck k! abit more and u all will be joining the school-ess club with me.hurrryyyy! (:

Uni kids, errrrm..Have fun travelling 1-2hrs to school! dun sleep on ppl's shoulder in the train. HAHAHA!

No school kid(s) (diaaan!), u can keep asking me out till the 5th of march! and thanks for giving me a wake up call almost everytime! i dun have to set my alarm anymore.hahahaha.

seeya'll someday ((:

Sunday, February 21, 2010



i never knew he look like that.
(:

Friday, February 19, 2010

hello laptop.ive been facing u for i dunno how long and im boreddd like shit now.pls entertain me lehh..i wanna watch movies, bt i dun like to watch movies online,so anti climatic.and by the time i wait for the whole movie to buffer, i'll be so tired to even watch the movie alr.haha. even youtube got nothing much nw.i keep watching those funny shows over and over again. -.- i think i can even memorise some of the lines alr.heh. and since i got no mp3 now, ive nt been keeping track of all the new songs or mtvs.ive been listening to alot of old school malay songs.maybe cos i just came back from kampung.

haaaaaaaaaa...i miss my kampung soooo badly. ): idk why,but i just feel so home-home when im there.i cant even explain that feeling. its almost like pure happiness and everything there is so simple.if only u all can follow me back..one day k!? u noe u can see alotttttttttttt of stars from my kampung!? i swear.i saw my first shooting star there.hahaha. and since i kinda celebrated my bdae there,alot of my uncle and auntie has been asking me when i want to get married. -__- errrr..hello,i just turned 20 leh.matair also dunhave.want to get married.dush! hahahahahaha. lets not talk abt that. whatever happens,happens. -.- haha. ehh, shud i go kl this 28th?? my cousin and her frens are gg genting and i just want to kaypoh and tag along.hahaha.but im scared. what if im still there and my results are out! aaaaaahhhhhh...!! shutup.i still want to live in denial.at least till the end of feb! @#$%&^!$! wvr lah.no point in regretting.maybe after my results,if u all cant find me in spore, u all shud noe where i am.. * Dian, i noe i cant keep running away from everything.. butttttt, cannot lah.running away seemed to be my hobby* hahahahahahahaha!

what shall i do tmr aye?
everybody's busy studying or doing their own stuff..
i noe!! i shall cook,rent dvds and have my own movie marathon! hoorrayyy! then if u all are meeting up for dinner or something, just text me k.i'll tryyyy to reply.or use the public fone.HAHA!
sounds like a plan....hahahaha.
ok goodnight.sleep well.
(im bored lo.so i added colours to the words just to make it look colourful.haha!)

bagaikan malam diterangi bintang terang
(:

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

RIA RAZIANY RAZAKKKKK

HAPPY 20TH, I LOVE YOU..
BUT GET UR ASS BACK IN SG LAAAAAAA
WE FULLY UNDERSTAND DET URE NIECES ARE WAYYYY CUTER THAN US HERE IN SG..
BUT WE STILL NEED SOME RIA LOVIN HERE.
SO HURRY LA.
CEPAT BALIK.

hahahahahahahaha.
i'm boredddddddddddddddddddddddddd

Sunday, February 14, 2010

hello.
i'm bored again, so entertain me la hor.
:D

last fridayyyyyy..
while sneaky school n working people were stealing half days..
i had a.....unique day.
**stealing half days cos where got half day on the eve of eve man!?!?**

yesyes. back to me.
i'll make dis snappy.
  • iced the brownie order i had for Friday.
  • late; cab to sch
  • WEATHER BLARDY HOT LIKE CRAZY MAD I FELT LIKE I WAS IN SAHARA
  • ubi? no cab
  • main rd ubi?? No Cab.
  • bedok resvr??? NO CAB!!!
    **at this point, i realised, i might've eventually walked alllll the way to TP and stillll no cab.pfft.**
  • Brownie icing MELTED!!
  • and my customer (who thank God! is also a fren..) had been waitng for over 15 mins.
thankfully, the guy's an awwwwfully sweet one.
((:

OHOH!!
I Went GIANT TOO!!
and i realised the oneeeeeee thing i've always wanted to be since i was young and even till now.

THE GOOD WIFE!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
but reeeali.
aside from my independent working woman dreams..
i wanna be a good wife too!

i was picking out tomatoes.. potatoes.. celery..carrot..
asking the butcher guy for minced beef..
(((:
i cud do it my whole life man.
i wan my house to have food 24/7.
to have a kitchen that is equipped to whip up hot meals at short notice..
to satisfy unforeseen intense cravings..
(:

i wan to be hot like Gabby..
great cook like Bree..
a friend mum friend to daughter like Susan..
and a go-getter, independent superwoman like Lynette
oh and it wont hurt to hv a hothothot husband like det gardener Gabby had.
or the plumber guy that Susan dated ke..

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE

dianloveyouuumanymany(:


i just ran 4k.
hahaha running on the night on Valentine's day. lonely? i like. hahaha

Saturday, February 13, 2010

hahaha!!

I LOVE ME! heh

Happy Valentine's Day June Ria Dian Nessa and Carine. haha and if Diyanah or whoever else sees this, then Happy Vday to you too! wahahaha

and of course... Selamat Tahun Baru Cina!!!!!!

i shall go do last minute clearing of the house again before i can't in the next few days. bleah

Friday, February 12, 2010

O' memory card, where art thou? ):

help! i cant find my memory card.ive searched almost the whole house for it and i still cant find it.i need that memory card for my cousin's wedding tmr.oh no..i cant rmbr where i put it.at first i cant rmbr where i put my camera but i noe where my memory card was.then when i finally found my camera and left the hse,i forgot where i put my memory card.aaaaahhhhh!! what is thiss?!?MY MEMORY is deteriorating and im so tired to find for it already cos it makes me more angry and the more i try to find for it,the sadder i'll get.haaaaaa...u see, its not just about the memory card.i dun care if i lose the memory card or what.the thing is, i have sooooo many pictures inside it.all those memories since the first time i got my camera.and some of the pics i didnt/havent even upload on my comp and now everything's gone.urghhh.heartpain.heartpain. i need to convince myself that it's not lost.its just hiding somewhere.stupid camera.stupid memory.stupid memorycard.

dian, if there's one thing i learn in..the first 2 months of 2010.. (haha)
is that one should never reveal their their weaknesses too much as it can be seen as a strength to some.trustnoone.neh,kidding.i always say the only person i'll trust 100% is my husband! HAHAHAHA.ok,i mean future husband la.eww..hahaha. and maybe another thing i learn is that its so hard to forgive when ure not sincere.so next time,we dun have to say sorry if we dun mean it.alright?hahahahaha.
anw im not talking just abt myself.hoho.

u noe,jz nw someone told me that my results are coming out this feb! i thought it will be this march.sooooo,this means..i have a few more days to live in denial and to live in my own world.@#$%$^!*%#&! im gonna deactivate my fb acct so that i can get rid of all those buggers that will pester me for my results.i need some peace.ha ha.
kklah.im gg off,but before that..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAYYYY!! I LOVE MYSELF.HAHAHA.rann,sounds familiar? oh,wanna watch valentine's day? hahaha. kklaaaaah,
I LOVE YA'LL WITH ALL MY HEART! ((((:

AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, MY AH LIAN FRIENDS.DUN EAT BABI TOO MUCH HORR, LATER I WONT SHARE MY DRINK WITH U ALL.HAHAHAHA!

ANDDDDDD.. i shall wish myself. HAPPY _______ TO MEEEE! HAHAHA.no shame.
(:

Thursday, February 11, 2010

evrytime i fry donuts, i end up frying my fingers as well.
SAKIT LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

)))))):

anyway, if there's one thing i learn in 2009..
(ya la.. i noe its feb redi. but wdv)
is det one shud NEVERRRRRRRR trust or depend entirely on another.
neverr everrrr.
keep a wall up.
and alwaysalways hv that piece of ureself that no one can touch.

if not, ur putting ureself in the risk of becoming a sad sad person one day.
no good.

bullcrap.
aiyah my finger pain la seriously.

dianloveyoumanymany(:

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

one,little two,little three,little monkey.hahaha.

hello.im feeling giddy like shit and im waiting for my suddenly-caring brother to bring me food.haha.in times like this, i really miss my nieces and my little hero ): sry ar, i just had to post their picture here.no matter how irritating and annoying they can be sometimes(or most of the time!) their coolest aunt in the whole wide world will still love them more than anything.i cant wait to see them,this fridayyy! if only one day when they grow up, they are able to read this post.how nice.dream on.hahaha.
to be loved,what more could you ask for?
goodnight.sleep well.

Monday, February 8, 2010

aaaahhhh..at this ungodly hour,i noe this is damn random, but........
i wanna go for paramore!! i dunno what got into me.haha. i should have just bought the ticket that day, even if no one's gg with me.haaaaaaaaa.. anyone noe where to get the tix now? i checked sistic and the standing pen sold out. sigh.this reminds me of THE KILLERS. ):
goodnight.sleep well tunku,hope u'll forget abt paramore tmr.
hahahahahahahahahaha!
Have a GOOOOD WEEK AHEAD, MY SCHOOLING FRIENDS
(:

Friday, February 5, 2010

hahahahahaha
i just love the fact that this space has finally woke up from hibernation.
my presentation today went.........OKAYYYYY.
ahh wdver~!!@

ITS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

i'm an unofficial graduate!!!
oh so happy! so happy! so happy!!

OH YES.
one more thing.
i called my ma to tell her i was staying back tonight, n this was how it went.

"hello ma? i staying back tonight noe.."
" why stayback??"
"cos i wan do work.."
"last night u nvr sleep, morning u leave early..why do so much work?"
"cos i neeeed to do workk... "
(at this point, i was abit aiyo mother ahhh. cos realli, i was jst telling her i'll be back late )
" do so much work den dowan go uni?? uni talks tmr u noe. why u dowan go??"
"huhh.. ma its 19th feb la. bukan besok.."
" den register redi not??"
" yes ma.. yes.. ltr i go for the talks.."
" ok good. dah go do work. dun go home so late. bye"

2 words.
MOTHER AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

hahahahhaha.
nightnight~
volunteering for old folks event tmr!!
wheehoo!!

dianloveyoumanymany(:




"you know why people join their pinkies when making a promise?"

my favourite part (:
ive always felt that when we make a promise, be it pinky(haha) or not, we should never ever break it..

i was searching for dvds to watch when i found this! Windstruck was my first Korean movie that i bought when i was in sec2 and it was my favourite movie for a very very long period of time.haha.but whenever i watch this movie, i wont watch it till the end cos i just hate sad endings.it applies to all movies.hahaha.so i chucked the dvd somewhere in the drawer and tadaaa! i found it back. ((:

anw, this morning arnd 5am i got a shocked of my life.i was in the toilet and when i came out,my heart just dropped cos i thought i saw something sitting at the dining table. skali, it was my father! he was stoning and facing the fridge! wthhhh!! we looked at each other and i stupidly went in back to the toilet.how dumb! i wanted to laugh so badly but since the cold war has not ended and my heart is still as keras as the batu,i controlled my laughter and walked pass him like as if i didnt see him at all.hahahahaha.what a retarded morning! i guess I'm not the only stoner.it runs in the family.HAHA.
(:

Wednesday, February 3, 2010



I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it..

Remember this?

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Monday, February 1, 2010

to the draft dated 30/01... : ) u know we'll be there for you. ALWAYS.
we understand some of us prefer to keep it inside until the hurt no longer pains you as much as it does now.
it takes time and yes we'll wait and be there when u feel that it's okay to tell us.
we won't ask unless we're absolutely sure that you want us to know.

okay having said that,
lets do CIP! hahahaha!!!!! check out Touch Community Service http://www.tcs.org.sg/
:) :) :) need to send in application. reply in tag board if u guys are keen k.