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just for YOUUU somemore..WAHHH, ANNOYINGGG and at the same time its FUNNY LIKE SHIT! HAHAHAHA
irritating,i used to like that song until...SOMEONE HAD to sing it.asdkfjsfsflfhdkjfh.we all need to breathee in deep deep man.hahaha.
........
anw someone at work today (a big botak man) thought i came frm the US.whuuuttttt.. -.-
ok,i was waiting for my banana milk shake order when a big botak man in his blazer stood beside me.so i just smiled and looked away but he started talking.i think he's a malay bt he doesnt sound like one.so i kaypoh and looked at his name tag.still i have no idea if he's a malay or not cos his name is bai something2..hahahaha.k,this is how the convo goes
botak man: hello,how ure doing?
me: erm,fine.thank you. (i noe its just polite to ask him back.bt i just cant be bothered.HAHA)
botak man: so,where are you from?
me: errr,aquamarine? im a part-timer here.
botak man: hmm..where are you from?
me: ....?? (giving the blur face)
botak man: so where are you from? (AGAAAAIN)
me: errr.. (at this point of time,i swear i wanted to just say 'hello,im from home.my home is at mp.u noe where is that place??good. but of course i kept it to myself and just give him the one-side-small-eyes face.hahaha.then i felt that this convo was gg nowhere so the smart me just decide to anwer his stupid question and say SINGAPORE?)
botak man: ohhhh! i thought ure from the US.cos u looked tanned.
me: hehh? :/ oh,no.im from here,singapore.i just came back frm phuket.
botak man: ohh, so do u surf?
me: hurr..oh no,i dont. (wah,nw i can be a surfer girl alr eh.after answering his question i turned my back and was cursing under my breath.askjdfhdkjfhkjd)
botak man: seeyou..
me: *gives a fake smile and walks away*HAHA (OHMYGOD.I SWEAR IF I COULD, I WANTED TO STRANGLE HIM AND HIT HIS BOTAK HEAD WITH MY TRAY.ediottttt..hello abang/pakcik,i may look tanned or dark or hitam but im not a nigger lehhh..saye melayu tau tk.awak pun melayu kan? -.- HAHAHA.klah,it was kinda funny when i think abt it again)
Everday there's stories at work.nvmlah,at least it'll make my day,sometimes.
PS: I should start learning how to forgive and forget.not forgive and remember.as much as i can be angry,merajuk or hurt by people,at the end of it,this tiny heart of mine noes that it'll just give in one fine day.The holy month is coming soon.lets be good ok.no hard feelings (:
no actually i think i have issues getting close to anyone right now. dont care. cant be bothered. no time.dontcareeeeeeee. my friend say i need help. rubbish. i think i'm perfectly normal.ok thank you bye!
i spent 1/2 hr in CS's toilet. u know why??
cos the song all so nice!!
they have Oasis la.. that superman/i'm not perfect song..
NICEEEE
very you all kind of song hahaha.
:D
- People who are ALL THE DAMN TIME emoing.
**i feel bad for them sometimes, i do really. but WAHLAO EH!** - People who are addicted to FB, they act as if they hv to report evrything there.
- People who publish their loveydoveygooey love all over FB
- People who are aware of their beauty, n hv 76375372398 beauty shots popping here there evrywhere.
- People who think profile pics is always 35% CLEAVAGE. tsk.
- People who are hot, and um..i happen to hv a crush on, so blocking them is a preventive measure b4 i start stalking hehh(:
tmr shall be wake up in the morning n bake cookies to top up stock.
frozen cookie dough is AMAZING.
cute eh..haha (:anw this whole post is just abt me being hungry 24/7 eh.heh.thats cos im waiting for the water to boil so i can make my instant maggie goreng (: ok!set,im gonna make myself a BIG BREAKFAST tmr.no,nt the macs kind.hahaha.
im gonna eat nw,
jemput imagine.
look at this cute little girl ((: hahahahaactually just look at the background(top left hand side) who would have guessed thats the place im working nw -.- lame.HAHA
i hate it when i vent my anger at innocent people.
i hate it when my actions are so bloody rude,
especially to the people i keep close to my heart.
i hate it when i deliberately give rude remarks to people,
just to protect myself frm that feeling of,
hurt.
i hate it when my ego is too high to admit or even say something.
i hate it.i hate it.i hate it.
i fcuking hate it.
oh God,
pls help me i need to have more faith.
sometimes i wish i had an imaginary fren that will be by my side 24/7 just so that i can complain and talk to whenever i want without having to worry of anything.haha
love, fatsoil.
Piece by piece, before I’m alone
Air tight, before we break
Keep it in, keep us safe.
i got hold of the english translation and sniffles...truer words have never been spoken. it had to be my fav peterpan song not without reason. anyway, all live, this goes out to the broken hearted. hahaha! still love peterpan though ariel's somewhat a porn star now.
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I noe this is kinda old, but i LOVE this sooo much! ((:
Sometimes i hate watching this kind of movies cos it just makes me live in my own fairytale and that sucks actually.haha.but oh wells,i cant help watching it.at least it makes me feel good.haha
- A Child called it
- The lost boy
- A man named Dave
(:
its defn not those feel good bimbotic ditzy witty books i always read la.
but its so full of depth.
n depressing. very depressing.
but its daaammmnn good!
so good i know i go to Borders a few days in a row just to finish reading all 3 books.
(:
7 Stages of Grief...
1. SHOCK & DENIAL-
You will probably react to learning of the loss with numbed disbelief. You may deny the reality of the loss at some level, in order to avoid the pain. Shock provides emotional protection from being overwhelmed all at once. This may last for weeks.
2. PAIN & GUILT-
As the shock wears off, it is replaced with the suffering of unbelievable pain. Although excruciating and almost unbearable, it is important that you experience the pain fully, and not hide it, avoid it or escape from it with alcohol or drugs.
You may have guilty feelings or remorse over things you did or didn't do with your loved one. Life feels chaotic and scary during this phase.
3. ANGER & BARGAINING-
Frustration gives way to anger, and you may lash out and lay unwarranted blame for the death on someone else. Please try to control this, as permanent damage to your relationships may result. This is a time for the release of bottled up emotion.
You may rail against fate, questioning "Why me?" You may also try to bargain in vain with the powers that be for a way out of your despair ("I will never drink again if you just bring him back")
4. "DEPRESSION", REFLECTION, LONELINESS-
Just when your friends may think you should be getting on with your life, a long period of sad reflection will likely overtake you. This is a normal stage of grief, so do not be "talked out of it" by well-meaning outsiders. Encouragement from others is not helpful to you during this stage of grieving.
During this time, you finally realize the true magnitude of your loss, and it depresses you. You may isolate yourself on purpose, reflect on things you did with your lost one, and focus on memories of the past. You may sense feelings of emptiness or despair.
7 Stages of Grief...
5. THE UPWARD TURN-
As you start to adjust to life without your dear one, your life becomes a little calmer and more organized. Your physical symptoms lessen, and your "depression" begins to lift slightly.
6. RECONSTRUCTION & WORKING THROUGH-
As you become more functional, your mind starts working again, and you will find yourself seeking realistic solutions to problems posed by life without your loved one. You will start to work on practical and financial problems and reconstructing yourself and your life without him or her.
7. ACCEPTANCE & HOPE-
During this, the last of the seven stages in this grief model, you learn to accept and deal with the reality of your situation. Acceptance does not necessarily mean instant happiness. Given the pain and turmoil you have experienced, you can never return to the carefree, untroubled YOU that existed before this tragedy. But you will find a way forward.
7 stages of grief...
You will start to look forward and actually plan things for the future. Eventually, you will be able to think about your lost loved one without pain; sadness, yes, but the wrenching pain will be gone. You will once again anticipate some good times to come, and yes, even find joy again in the experience of living.
one day we will meet again...
hurry hurry recommend me books!!!
MUACKSSSSSSSSSS!!HAHAHAH.
that's what bored people at office do.
anyway, ya'll free tmr?
i feel like taking 1/2 day n i feel like picnicking..
can we hv a picnic?
and i hv potato flakes.
i duno why i bought potato flakes.
i dun even know wad potato flakes can be used for haha.
but if its a yay to picnic tmr, i'll use it to bake something.
mayb cinnamon rolls.
cos potato has strach something abtretaining moisture blablabla.
do u even like cinnamon rolls?
no?
yes?
hahahah.
mad bored.
reply asap k? so i can settle my work all by today n tmr's freeee for me.
lovelove
i saw this and liked it so much. everytime i see smth really cool online i feel the immediate need to log on here to share it with you guys..hahah :)))) well, i wish all things were nice, warm and cosy as i'd like them to be but the truth is that my heart and mind has been very unsettled and until things feel whole again, nice peaceful days seem to be plague with ruptures of heartache...the diagnosis of a heartache is so literal because where your heart sits, there is a literal throb - not one of life, but a giveaway of an ounce of pain that betrays whatever emotion you try to suppress.
i know for certain i overr think everything that crosses my path..but trying to quieten it all just makes me feel more odd than i should...so embrace it!
and when u all are in Phuket happily letting global warming burn u alive hahaha