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Monday, August 30, 2010
have you ever had a certain urge to cry somedays?
when you suddenly feel an aching in your heart
a pinch which seems to appear and reappear
a need to listen to songs to keep you away from reality
not wanting to remember
but not wanting to forget
maybe it's just pms
when you suddenly feel an aching in your heart
a pinch which seems to appear and reappear
a need to listen to songs to keep you away from reality
not wanting to remember
but not wanting to forget
maybe it's just pms
Friday, August 27, 2010
for the shitty art grade we have, my drawings are still nt bad ayee.hahahahahaand i still love you kecikkk! even if u were to meet ur hang jebat one day (((:
YAY RIA LOVE ME!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
Thursday, August 26, 2010
crap.
this is freaking "OOPS i did it again" scenario.
seriously
shitshitshit
this is freaking "OOPS i did it again" scenario.
seriously
shitshitshit
I dont know what did i get myself into,as usual -.-
someone please tell me what.to.do.naaaooooo! naaaaaooo! naaaaooooo!
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..im stuck,but not stuck.confused,but not confused.follow my heart or follow.. i hate having to plan and plan and end up not sticking with any of the plans.can't everything be more spontaneous? like, say if i were to meet my soulmate tmr,get married,travel the world,have kids and live happily ever after.just likeeee shrek! HAHAHA.kidding laaaah.siao.that will never happen man. oh god,i feel so demanding and irritating.haha.k,i mean i kinda noe what im supposed to do, its just that i need someone to tell me that everything will be alrightttt (wth.i just rolled my eyes to myself as i typed that.hahahaha!) now i dont feel like gg tmr.before i posted this post,i thought of being honest and tell them the truth that i cant __. but now, i just feel like lying.
they say, lying is the most fun thing a girl can have without taking her clothes off! :D hahaha.
k,thats just a song.ah whatever lah.if its meant to be,its meant to be.righttttt..haha
oh! listen to this song k.its nicer if u hear the full version.
You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do
((:
he's so adorable aye.hehh
<3
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
i think i have serious trust and intimacy issues.
so serious its actually funny.
u know like being in parents teacher meeting, and your dad gets so serious, you're actually trying quite hard not to laugh?
ya det kind.
so freakin twisted.
so serious its actually funny.
u know like being in parents teacher meeting, and your dad gets so serious, you're actually trying quite hard not to laugh?
ya det kind.
so freakin twisted.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
it's just my way little way of protecting myself
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Someone please knock my head.
cos why? i FORGOT that tmr i my father's birthday! ok,technically its today, like NAAOOO!! ah damn,i feel so bad for forgetting.we were having supper/sahur? like 30mins ago then he asked my mum whats the date today.yea right,rhetorical question.haha.then my mum so smart asked me back. -___-" DUSH! luckyyyyyy on the spot i rmb.now i have a problem.what to get for him?!?my father! if i buy for him a present,i think i'll be too shy to even give it to him and birthday card is obviously a no no.maybe i shud just buy him a cake and quickly put it in the fridge once i get home cos thats what i always do to the rest of my family members for their birthdays.haha. oh nooo! cannottttt..i just realized that we have something on tmr night, means i'll only be home after his bdae! and i have work in the morning tmr.daaamn.nvm.when there's a will, there's a way! (: klah, to make myself feel better,here's a dedication to my bapak! hahahaha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ENCIK RAZAK EDI!
I forgot how old are you and im lazy to count,but i noe u were born in the year 1959.haha.
Eventhough u ALWAYSSSS embarrass me by calling me s___ in front of ppl and forever making fun of my pyjamas collection when i was a kid, ure still my one and only kaPAK! hahahaha.
kbye.
Cos u guys HAVE to listen to this.
trust me on this man.
TRUST. ME.
trust me on this man.
TRUST. ME.
Friday, August 20, 2010
3 iiiiity bittttttty things
- i owe my agency $600 cos i'm terminating my contract
- i've secured a fulltime job WAEHOOOO
- um..i think i should stop getting personal with my customers.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
KBYE.
today's THE DAYY!!
gahhh 3pm.
this will define the next 2 years of my life.
2 YEARS NOE!
that's enough time to fall in love, get a boyfriend n break up!
the whole works!
hahahahahah ok la not funny.
wishme luckkk!
oh btw my eys are MADMAD itchy n i keep sneeezing.
i think i'm allergic to makeup.
my face itchyla!
lovelove to all!
gahhh 3pm.
this will define the next 2 years of my life.
2 YEARS NOE!
that's enough time to fall in love, get a boyfriend n break up!
the whole works!
hahahahahah ok la not funny.
wishme luckkk!
oh btw my eys are MADMAD itchy n i keep sneeezing.
i think i'm allergic to makeup.
my face itchyla!
lovelove to all!
Poof! heh
I talked to my mum just now,about life.about my future.about my friends.about my work.about the things thats been bothering me.almost everything, except for some stuff that i'd rather keep it to myself.and for that, i'll try to be a nicer person and not have a heart of a stone,sometimes.haha.
this blog is getting boring and its like where i dump my complaints -.-
lets put some C.O.L.O.U.R.S to it.
(:
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Hello. Today,
i will rot at home and watch grey's till i puke.haha.its my day off, finally, and i dont feel like going anywhere,doing anything or meeting anyone(nt like i have people to meet.ha)
i've got so many things to do, so many things to think about, but i just choose not to do anything abt it.u noe what i really wanna do? i wanna go on a holiday,alone.ha. and when i grow up,(older i mean and prolly married,HAHA) i wanna
take the gondola ride in Venice,
go to Paris and climb up the Eiffel tower all the way to the top,
go to Mauritius or Hawaii and be black (haha),
go to Japan and see all the cherry blossoms,
go to any country where its snowing and just lie down and let the snow fall on my face,
go to Nepal and bring one of the kids back to Sg (just like the picture of this nepalese baby i keep in my wallet.heh)
bag pack to Europe and prolly get lost there,
travel to Egypt and see all the pyramids and then freak myself out,
go to DISNEYLAND in the USA ((((: and bring my parents cos when i was a kid, they always say they'll bring me there one day but its okaye, i'll bring them there instead.haha
.
.
.
the list goes on but thats all i want for now.haha
sigh,i just make myself more sad cos i noe its kinda impossible for me to achieve all those unless i work reaaalllllyyy hard till i die of exhaustion or just marry some rich old man! NAH.i wont want to marry a rich person or someone old-old.hahaha.oh wells..
i should stop talking.
kbye.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
HEHEHEEEEEEEEEEEE :p
i got NEWSSSS!!
but i dont think i should jinx myself yet.
wont say till its cnfirmed.
but if all goes well..
I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO WEAR MAKEUP!!
HAHAHAHA
lovelove, fatsoill
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
i got NEWSSSS!!
but i dont think i should jinx myself yet.
wont say till its cnfirmed.
but if all goes well..
I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO WEAR MAKEUP!!
HAHAHAHA
lovelove, fatsoill
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
HEY GUYS!!! WANNA BREAK FAST(THOUGH NOT ALL OF US ARE FASTING) AT LAGOON THIS FRIDAY? I SAY EARLIER FIRST SO I CAN BOOK YOUR FRIDAY EVENING. WHAT SAY YA'LLLLLLLLL?????
=D
=D
Sunday, August 8, 2010
I think i need a sunrise,
I'm tired of the sunset.
.
Sometimes i think there's something wrong with me.I can be so fine at one time and the next second, i can feel totally otherwise - and for.no.apparent.reason.(or so i thought)
sometimes also, i just dont feel like talking to anyone or opening up my lazy mouth.Like just when i was about to say something, this annoying head of mine will start thinking of all the second thoughts i could possibly think of and i'll end up not saying anything at all or just give my all time favourite answer - nothing (when u actually have so many things to say but, nevermindddd) haha.its pms.its pms.i swear its the bloody pms.how i wish im not a girl sometimes,then i wouldnt be so sensitive like this every mth.haha.its crazy,cos ive been blocking/hiding alot of ppl (frens.heh) frm my fb and msn.it feels retarded.bt i just need to breatheeee and not see things that i dont wish to see or hear.they say what you dont know wont hurt you, at least to me.haha.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
random but i need to rant.
i tried making Gougeres yesterday.
basically just creampuffs de puff, but with cheese. no custard.
and i shouldddddddddddddd have known!!
those puffs "puff because of the structure in them.
the structure is made up of gluten n egg protein!
so just because i wanted to achieve a fluffy n not so dry puff,
i opted to sub 2 TB of norm flour with cake flour.
STUPIDSTUPID!!
WROOOOONG MOVE.
cake flour has less gluten. its bleached that's why its whiter n finer.
thats why cakes do not have the same texture as like bread n buns.
because of my stupid move, my puffs didnt puff!
grr.
wad a waste of eggs i tell u.
suuuuper waste of eggs.
but wdv.
This weekend is gnna be Project Gougere untill thosedamn dear puffs really puff.
bleaghhh.
the annoying thing is det i got the taste down.
it has a good soft almost souffle-like kind of softness to it..
light buttery taste that's not overwhelming..
with the shadow of cheddar cheese. abit, then it fills ur mouth and u noe its cheese.
)):
but they dont' puff.
and the bottoms burn n stick.
and i cannot grease the pan cos then it would further make the puffs not puff.
i was soooo frustrated last night man.
**can u imagine? 1130 pm, i was slaving in the kitchen quarelling with eggs n flour? bleagh!**
almost threw them all out.
):
but nahh.. i just cup off the tops n threw the burnt bottoms.
so i hv butt-less puffs in my kitchen~! hahaha
tonight is gnna be another round.
i think i better restock the eggs too.
n butter. need more butter.
n piping bags too.
n couplers.
thank God i restocked cheese redi so wheee! savesave.
i'm gnna research n experiment till i get perfect puffy golden brown Gougere.
than i'll happily let ya'll taste them ok?
u can be my witness from absolute failure of flat puffs with burnt bottoms to pretty golden brown success.
ok thanks for readin bye!!
hahahaha
oh just in case.. this is what they are SUPPOSED to look like.
so damn gooooood!
):
i tried making Gougeres yesterday.
basically just creampuffs de puff, but with cheese. no custard.
and i shouldddddddddddddd have known!!
those puffs "puff because of the structure in them.
the structure is made up of gluten n egg protein!
so just because i wanted to achieve a fluffy n not so dry puff,
i opted to sub 2 TB of norm flour with cake flour.
STUPIDSTUPID!!
WROOOOONG MOVE.
cake flour has less gluten. its bleached that's why its whiter n finer.
thats why cakes do not have the same texture as like bread n buns.
because of my stupid move, my puffs didnt puff!
grr.
wad a waste of eggs i tell u.
suuuuper waste of eggs.
but wdv.
This weekend is gnna be Project Gougere untill those
bleaghhh.
the annoying thing is det i got the taste down.
it has a good soft almost souffle-like kind of softness to it..
light buttery taste that's not overwhelming..
with the shadow of cheddar cheese. abit, then it fills ur mouth and u noe its cheese.
)):
but they dont' puff.
and the bottoms burn n stick.
and i cannot grease the pan cos then it would further make the puffs not puff.
i was soooo frustrated last night man.
**can u imagine? 1130 pm, i was slaving in the kitchen quarelling with eggs n flour? bleagh!**
almost threw them all out.
):
but nahh.. i just cup off the tops n threw the burnt bottoms.
so i hv butt-less puffs in my kitchen~! hahaha
tonight is gnna be another round.
i think i better restock the eggs too.
n butter. need more butter.
n piping bags too.
n couplers.
thank God i restocked cheese redi so wheee! savesave.
i'm gnna research n experiment till i get perfect puffy golden brown Gougere.
than i'll happily let ya'll taste them ok?
u can be my witness from absolute failure of flat puffs with burnt bottoms to pretty golden brown success.
ok thanks for readin bye!!
hahahaha
oh just in case.. this is what they are SUPPOSED to look like.
so damn gooooood!
):
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
i want to go somewhere far away,
some where only we know...
.
some where only we know...
.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
no words can explain the boredom im experiencing now. I've got too many things to do. what an irony.
Its 3 in the morning and i suddenly thought of my my nieces and nephew.i kinda miss them..no,i miss them alot ): its been long since i last met them and its not my fault that i never get to visit them now.its really not my fault.askjdfhaksjhfkhjd.idk.maybe its my choice not to visit them for now or maybe im just too ego to..nvm.bt then again,i dun think i am,as compared to last time.my heart's abit 'softer' now.soft as in not lembik.haha.aiyaa,what rubbish im talking.i dun even think u all understand what im talking abt.itsokayeee.dun bother.hahaha.
anw,just wondering, have u all been in a dream where u noe ure not in the real world and u just play along with it? and then when u really noe its just a dream and u dun really like it or feels frightened,u force urself out of the dream? i dun really noe how to explain this but yea,i always get that.sometimes it can be those good dreams until u can feel that its too good to be true so u force urself out of it.idk,as much as i like to live in my own world and get my head stuck in the clouds, i just dun really like that feeling of disappointment when u wake up and realised that its just another dream.how sad right.nehminddd.i think im lazy to think and type already.or maybe
hahaha.i think before the emo monster come into me i better get out of here.haha.act cute only.k goodnight (:
anw,just wondering, have u all been in a dream where u noe ure not in the real world and u just play along with it? and then when u really noe its just a dream and u dun really like it or feels frightened,u force urself out of the dream? i dun really noe how to explain this but yea,i always get that.sometimes it can be those good dreams until u can feel that its too good to be true so u force urself out of it.idk,as much as i like to live in my own world and get my head stuck in the clouds, i just dun really like that feeling of disappointment when u wake up and realised that its just another dream.how sad right.nehminddd.i think im lazy to think and type already.or maybe
hahaha.i think before the emo monster come into me i better get out of here.haha.act cute only.k goodnight (: