giler girls XOXO

2011-09-17T02:23:00.000+08:00

Heyloooooooo!!! lets get this blog alive and kickin!! hahahaha ((:

2011-04-07T01:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm, i feel strange.

in the day, i am a bubble of energy , buzzing around, sending smile and in the night, i sit here and literally, i can almost see/ feel the metaphoric grey cloud overhead. i hate being whiny but i REALLY am whiny in my head in the night. i feel like giving up trying and in the day, i have so many dreams i keep running. i don't know what i am finding, but it does feel like i am running, running away from things into my head.

it is strange. and i am tired. and i realise i am in some ways getting scared of aloneness.

2011-04-04T12:08:00.001+08:00

i removed the tag board. hahahahaahah!!!!!!

2011-03-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

u guys are mad missed.
but i'm scared to even say meet " soon" cos i dunno when i'll ever be able to make it for that "soon"
haha.
k not funny i know.
pfft.

its true what ppl said when i was a poly student.
once ure working, that's basically what ure life's about.
haiyo..

2011-03-23T13:03:00.002+08:00

why no updates????

hahahaha!!!

2011-02-28T00:44:00.003+08:00

somthing nice about guy singing country. i don't know what

2011-02-15T01:25:00.001+08:00

i hope you guys like this song

i love you guys and blog posts here always make me sooooooooo hapy

ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD!

2011-02-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

Marion St. Claire: Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you will find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding. But there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.
-Bride Wars

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY <3 <3 <3

2010-12-27T19:12:00.001+08:00

if lykke li ever comes to singapore i willl most defffffffffffff go!!!!!!!!

2010-12-25T14:58:00.001+08:00

Since this blog has been DEAD for donkey years,k bedek.hahahahaha.lets make it alive and kickin by wishing everyone who reads *yearight.i think only hantu reads our blog now.haha* a MARRY CHRISTMAS!! MERRY CHRISTMAS i mean.hahaha.pls tell me why am i so lame?dang! Here's a dedication from me to ya'll (((:

Working on a christmas eve yesterday felt so niceee.its as if i could feel all the love that was in the air.aaaaahhh..so nice.but u noe,i think i need to shoot myself in the head. sometimes i have no idea wth am i doing.wake up wake upppp! anwsss..its 6more days to NEW YEAR.haaaaaaaa! lets bid an advance farewell to ~~bloody~~ 2010.you've served me ~~not~~ well.baaaaah.bye

oh ya!bloody spammer.wanna spam also must use my name hur.kns.can we just get rid of the tagboard and get a new one instead.its also because of these spammers that i dont feel like visiting this blog sometimes.

2010-12-16T01:17:00.001+08:00

hear it without earphones and it justs like noisy mess. haha

off to church camp. tooderloo guys, till sunday!

2010-12-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

I'm walking into spiderwebs..
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.
andddd this blog is collecting one too! -.- baaaaaah.the last post was on the 3rd Dec?now is already the 14th.haha.i guess everyone's busy or just plain lazyyyy to update.

2010-12-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt so contented with how your life is going?
Like yea, you know its not perfect.. but as far as it has already gone.. you're actually quite happy with it.
AND THENNNNN.....
u make a mistake.
and the whole optimistic perspective just poof!

Suddenly u wonder why some ppl have areas where they are sooo good at.
and its areas that actually count for something.
You try n try to find something that u're at least above average at.. and realized there's nothing.
You're just mehhhhh~ in every damn thing.

i think that's how ppl get depressed.
From that way on, there's 2 routes to choose.
Downhill - wallow in self pity, envy others nonstop n do practically nothing for ureself.
Pick Up - Find a goal, put an aim, work your asssss out for it.
At least if u fail n get depressed again, you have the privilege of saying u tried.
Someone who tries and someone who merely wants.. its clear to see who's the loser between the 2.

(:
Just a passing thought.

2010-12-01T01:59:00.001+08:00

I think she ate ''mushroom'' soaked in alcohol! funny shitzzz.i was literally LAUGHING OUT LOUD to my comp when i saw this.thanks for making my day/night and lets welcome DECEMBER with a happy heart! Let's hope December this time will be a good month(:

2010-11-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

Back from VIETNAMMMMM!!!

the land where you can find the ULTIMATTTTEEEEE best lane changers.
serious not kidding.
anw, know what i loove most there??
BREAD!!!

daddy say it must hv been the fact that they were colonized by France before, thus the strong influence..
i tell you... i can just stay there n live a happy woman!
baguette n cheese..
yummmmmy soft croissants..
that damnnnn syiok custard pastry thingy...
suuuuper soft chocolate pastry ring thing. super big too!

plus! shopping's not bad too la.
**though to be frank, BKK's wayyyy better la**
so with $100 worth.. i got..

10 tank tops & racers
1 berms
**which btw is kinda small. i think my butt grew la :/ **
1 sleeveless formal top
2 abercrombie basics
1 MNG tee
1 pair of sandals
6 pairs of pearl earings
2 box of gummy bears
**1 spongecake mix; just cos i make it a point to buy a cake mix from evry country i go ;)**
a coupla bags of chips
6 boxes of cheese

hahahahah
I LIKE!
and that 6 boxes of cheese will finish SUPAAA fast ok!
its a bread & cheese family i live with, u see..

anw, my point is..
VISIT VIETNAM!!!

they got a pretty cool backpackers area too!
De Tham (:
and got alot of 1/2 day or 1 day tours.
cheapcheap too!
for like $6usd for a 1/2 day tour..

i should be sleeeeeping.
but shift work is taking a toll on me la.
body clock wonky..
face..aiya no need say la.

gnight!
loovelove(:

2010-11-26T03:20:00.001+08:00

she's so pretty. i don't know why the heck but i'm hooked on this song. ahahahahhaa~!

2010-11-23T00:23:00.003+08:00

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh.....!! I think im such a pain in the ass sometimes.maybe i purposely act like one or maybe i am one.i don't even know why.sometimes i give people the cold shoulder,cos i rather be seen as anti-social than feel so, fake inside.maybe its the fear of rejection?no link.anw its just so weird,as we (i) grow older,the less friends i wanna make and the less friendly i become.(am i even that friendly to begin with?? baaah) i don't really like this whole social network thing, though i think im part of it.ha.its so annoying when everyone has their own hidden agenda and no matter what,its always about the image.suddenly we become the person we're not.i.a.m. annoyed with myself also.askdjhfskdhksdh.aiyah,actually this post has no point and i SIDETRACK!haha.i just needed to let out,cos keeping it inside for too long can keeeeeel me.hahahaahaha

2010-11-21T17:38:00.003+08:00

i can't wait to go CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!!!!!! i wanna buy so many so many things! sooooooo exciting!!! heh heh

i predict sleepless nights after exams too cos i'd be busy thinking of what to buy. bahahaha

2010-11-21T00:37:00.001+08:00

haha this looks so nice. but its not out yet. anyway, anyone wanna follow me to pciture house on 1st december to watch son of babylon??? :) two weeks till end of exams. whoopieedowee

Where no one knows my name

2010-11-16T04:30:00.001+08:00

Hey,its crazy.im still awake at this hour and i have to wake up for work later at 0530am.oh God, help me.
Just now i fell asleep straight away when i reached home.didn't even changed out of my clothes,i just lay down and dush.i woke up, its already 3am.ha! start packing my bag cosssss, i'm gonna elope to Thailand tmr and live happily ever after.spore's just too sad.baaahaha. nah,i'll never do that.i'm gg kampung tmr (alone. ): cos my parents will be working and my brother,idc) this is prolly the first time that im gonna celebrate raya at my mum's side first.it has always been my father side all these years and i'm really not a big fan of my spore side.bleagh.anw i don't really know when i'll be back.haha.maybe fri?sat?sun? i'll see how it goes k.anything just msg,i'll tryyyy to reply.heh.seeya'll soon.happy raya haji dian! and happy public holiday to the rest! haha (:

2010-11-15T00:53:00.003+08:00

I posted this on my tumblr but i just had to share it here (:

SOCIALLY AWKWARD

You check your phone, because you have nothing to contribute to the conversation.
Wait for the right time to say something, you get interrupted. Twice
Someone you vaguely know is walking in front of you. You maintain distance.
Hold the door for some. They’re slightly too far away.
Someone comes online, you say “hey”, they go offline.
You go in for the high-five. Other person isn’t looking.
Accidentally look someone in the eye. Pretend to look past them.
You say something stupid. You play it down, but everyone sees your face going red.
You say “hi” to someone. It comes out as a whisper.
Your friends formed a circle while you were gone. You can’t fit and end up standing slightly askew.
Waiting by yourself for friends. Pretend you’re texting.
You tell a hilarious joke. Nobody laughs.
You’re in class and you want to cough. Some other person just coughed, now you have to wait.
Walk into the restrooms and the stalls are full; pretend you only came here to wash your hands then leave.
The person in front is walking slightly slower than you are. You walk at an uncomfortable speed to get past them.

So damn true! especially no. 1,3,7,14 & 15! HAHAHAHA.
oh i just realised that soooo many people( i mean our friends) have a twitter acct! -.- i've been living in my own world.haha.no offense to anyone but don't they get tired by the constant need to update and update? i just read a few pages of some ppl's tweet?twitter? and i got tired.the more i read,the more bleagh i get cos it can make me change my perspective of the person.so i decided not to read any of it.being oblivious is good sometimes.baaaah

2010-11-14T16:00:00.007+08:00

I had the weirdest dream yesterday.it was so weird that for a moment, i knew it was just a dream but i continued playing along with it.it felt so good that i didn't want to wake up.i just love it when i fall into a deep deep sleep and it feels so damn hard to wake up.or maybe cos i took cs before i sleep.ha.but still,it felt so good.oh!and i dreamt that i was running around playing with the SNOW! aaaaaahhhh.snow you know..i know it sounds stupid but i was truly happy.and then i woke up..sigh.it was raining.at least its not so bad.don't you just love it when it rains? i do. (:
oh i just reminded myself that i ~~need~~/want to buy a volcom hoodie.its so niceee.but i got no money now.how?i cho chaad ): hahahaha

So you sailed away,
into a grey sky morning
now i'm here to stay

2010-11-13T21:07:00.001+08:00

2010-11-12T18:35:00.003+08:00

hahahaha

this pic reminded me of us la.

Princess in our own ways..

but if take picturee, face all cnfirm cnnt make it.

LIKE THEM!

ohoh!!

RIA IS LITTLE MERMAID!!

GUESS WHY!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

2010-11-11T01:03:00.004+08:00

wah cheyy..someone's having clubbing/house mood ayee.wonder who.obviously not me.hahaha. Im so tired and hungry, i just got back frm work and i have work at 7am later.idk whats wrong with me.act workaholic only.haha.maybe i just don't like to stay at home and do nothing,unless im watching greys.u noe,there's so many things i wanna do but end up not doing anything.i suck. i've been wanting to watch so many movies(even before some of it came out ok) but guess what? i've not even step into the cinema for like 2-3mths? sigh. and im just too shy to ask people if they wanna watch movie with me.i cho chad ): hahahahahaha.nahh.kidding. maybe i should just buy the pirated cds from jb and have my own movie marathon right? anw, wanna go out this sat?oh wait.there's something on on sun! right? ok,we shall not talk here.msg k.eh damnit.i should stop talking to myself.as in reeeaaally stop talking to myself. just now while working, it didnt occur to me that i was literally talking to myself till this guest asked if I was talking to her. -___-" haaaaaaa.so embarassing! my workmates has been saying that i live in my own world too much.i cho chad again ): hahahaha. and another thing is that i should stop saying stupid things or do stupid things.i promise to keep my comments to myself next time.k not promise,i'll tryyyy.tsk.im supposed to be sleeping now.see lah,talk so much somemore.k goodnight (:

2010-11-10T23:46:00.002+08:00

2010-11-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

HAHA to the draft!

ANYWAY I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GOOD WEEK! AND IF I WERE TO WORK ON THE COMPUTER, I NEED TO HAVE A SYSTEM IN MY COM TO BAN MANY SITES SO THAT MY STALKING TENDENCIES DON'T WASTE HOURS ON END AND SO MAYBE ALSO THAT I WILL BE LESS FREAKY W ALL THIS STALKING. HAHAHA

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FROM TAMPINES! AND IM SO UNPRODUCTIVE AT HM ITS NOT FUNNY!

ALSO I NEED TO BAN MYSELF FROM BUBBLE TEA. I CONSUME IT LIKE WATER. SO DANGEROUS!

2010-11-05T16:54:00.002+08:00

HAHA its not self invite okay... its called being a bestfriend. HAHAHAHA

2010-11-05T00:24:00.002+08:00

can we plan something and go on a holiday at the end of the year?? pretty pleaseeeee.i don't mind if its just kl,genting or cameron highlands! hahaha.im just so bored staying in sg and every day's like the same routine.siaaan.i need something to look forward to! ):

ooohhhh! just now after work i fell asleep in the bus and slept all the way to vs!thank god i woke up before the bus enter ecp.if not i might as well make a big U turn.hahaha.anw when i woke up it was so embarrassing cos there was this not-so-bad-looking guy(haha!) sitting beside me and i was sleeping like a pig(with my abit of drool) right in front at the entrance seat! call me kiasu,but i just wanted to sleep and the bus was packed like shitz.hahahaha.

and hooraaah! im gonna start on my grey's marathon again!

2010-11-04T00:01:00.003+08:00

Today is my mother's birthday and i feel so bad cos i didn't even get to wish her ): what kind of a daughter i am right? Actually for the past one week i've been counting down to her bdae and even took off today cos i thought of spending time with my parents.but then they decided to go jb after work and i was out at that time.so i thought of 'surprising' her and brought prata hm cos she said she (and my lazy brother) was hungry.and noe what?i rched home and realized that she was already asleep! adkjlsfsakjfhkfsd.how? aaaaaaaaaahh! now i feel so damn bad.
Anw, Happy 52nd Birthday Ma! I know i don't and prolly will never say this to you,but I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU MA! ((: i promise to get you a present when my pay comes in this friday ok! and i promise that i'll be a good daughter AND wife-IN THE FUTURE and IF i ever find a decent boy and get married -.-
p/s: im saying it here cos i noe 101% u will never ever read this.but at least it made me feel better by saying it out.hahahaha!
anddd friday i should be free for dinner IF i don't have dinner with my family. (:

2010-10-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

I'm Missing some CHILL in my life

My Chill ak-as that is

2010-10-30T14:04:00.003+08:00

the vid is so holiday~~~~~

dont know what took me so long to find mike posner but i like his sound, generally~

2010-10-30T14:03:00.001+08:00

2010-10-26T23:59:00.002+08:00

This video is wayyyy better than my ugleh video.haha.
actually cos this song keep getting stuck in my head nowadays.i noe its quite long ago since it came out,but who cares.and ya,i sing this song to myself -.- tak tahu malu.ha!

I can be in love,but i just don't know

hahahaha.oh and he's so sexaaaayyyy.i mean when he dance only.
goodnight.

2010-10-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

poof!

hahahaha.too much of an ol' school and memories.
righttt.haha.bye.

2010-10-26T18:01:00.001+08:00

haha video contribution!

2010-10-25T21:04:00.000+08:00

it feels so odd seeing the post about not wanting to smile blah blah blah cos it's exactly what i felt the other day and it was exactly what i wanted to post but decided not to spread that bad feeling.

but yes. i get that feeling time to time. sometimes i wonder if im smiling for others. maybe im a person who don't like smiling. smiling only because it makes living in this world a whole lot easier.

imagine if one day, i just stop smiling, stop talking, stop trying to be lame, stop acting lame. it would be odd wouldn't it? i mean people would start talking about it.

"what's wrong with her" "is she experiencing some problem?" "she never used to be like that""i think she's depressed""she's behaving so oddly"

but who knows the real me? maybe i am like that. maybe it is you who dont know me.

yea i wish to detach myself from the world

but i will not.

cos drama is not my thing

2010-10-25T01:04:00.005+08:00

This video may contain content that is inappropriate for some users,(as flagged by Youtube's user community) -.-

but i find it so b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l. (: haha

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.
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tmr till fri will be another round of, ''hi good morning,coffee or tea for you?''
sigh.
dear God, i hope it rains everyday so i can wear my sweater/hoodie every single day.and besides,i just love it when it rains.don't you? haha.
have a great week ahead friends.
goodnight.

ps: I agree with the 'its so hard to grip hold of what i know ~~IS and what i know~~ IS BECOMING'
oh wells..

2010-10-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

hahaah people keep springing up with new shock news for me everyday! aiyo, its so hard to grip hold of what i know IS and what i know IS BECOMING. anyway, i love you all shooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo very very very much!

.

2010-10-25T00:31:00.002+08:00

and no,it's not pms either.haha

Take me away,make me a holiday

2010-10-23T17:59:00.004+08:00

It's saturday.and i'm (always) home alone doing nothing.how sad.haha.if it was last time,i think i'll be itching to go out even if there's no where to go to.but now,i'm just plain lazy and there's no one to go out with plus i'll still be a lazy bum in the end. -.- oh well.

This is not random but i really wanna go on a holiday so freakin bad ): anyone wanna pack your bag and go anywhere with me noa noaa noaaa??! i bought a bagpack yesterday ya'know.hahaha.k neverminddd.
oh,i created a tumblr for myself thinking that no one would find it and guess what?my kaypoh brother found it.must be my damn selenger-ness that i forgot to log out and went to sleep straight away.urgh.annoying.

2010-10-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

i think bunned up hair complete with a net.. is making me tensed up.
pfft.

anywayyy~ to drafts.. I KNOW RIGHT!
wad happen to the carefree days man..
when literally we can zone out n think of nothing.
now when we zone out.. we think of our main hassle at the moment.
):

LOVELOVE!

P.S.
thursday, EARLY dinner??
say..5?
yes?
(i got 0530 shift next day la.. so cant stay out late.)

2010-10-20T00:19:00.004+08:00

I'm so angry,ha! frustrated,sad,hurt,pissed and annoyed that i don't even noe what to do now.there's no point in complaining cos not as if it'll help in any way.fug lah.i'm fcuking tired of this.i don't mean to be crude,i just need to vent somewhere.sry
):

2010-10-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

maybe it's time i stop being in denial and really start studying. all this slacking its gonna really kill me for my finals.

last min panic? yea i'm feeling it

2010-10-18T00:38:00.004+08:00

really? neh,i just <3 sleep
i wish i could sleep at night,not when its in the morning ):

2010-10-16T16:37:00.004+08:00

My leg is so tired it feels like its gonna break anytime soon.haaaa..i stood for 5hrs straight at work just nw,no kidding.its freaking t.i.r.i.n.g. and half of the time i was feeling damn sleepy.and since i got nothing to do, after work i watched tv in the locker room.it becomes like a routine after work.anw i was watching channel v and super junior,sorry sorry,came out. -.- and then in less than 2mins,suddenly 2 housekeeping auntie and a china girl was watching the tv with me.hahaha.they were talking abt super junior to me,in chinese.super funny.nt that i understand2 but can still understand abit,u get what i mean la.haha.i guess as sucky as my work can be,the people i work with or may not work with,feels more like a one big family sometimes.i feel loved :D aauuww.shaddup lah.hahaha.

oh! my mum just reminded me that today is my cousin's bdae and that we're supposed to go for some dinner at jurong west after 7.30pm.whuuuutt..i'd rather stay hm and watch tv la pls..and then she said that the date today is 16th October.means i am 20 and 8mths old. oh.wow.i kinda know that cos on the 16th of every mth,i'll feel, different.haha.and i even forgot what i did for my bdae this year.wth. oh!hahahaha.neverminddd.
its 4plus and im gonna sleep nw.goodnight.or maybe i'll end up watching the hindustan movie on vasantham! haha

2010-10-13T23:08:00.005+08:00

"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do..."
but then again, some would say
"I would rather regret the things that I have done than the things that I have not."
so which is better?idk.it depends.
I'm just bored while waiting for my eyes to get sleepy and my body to get tired of waiting for my eyes to get sleepy.huh? makes no sense? no? haha.whatever.
OH! i stumbled upon this on some random person's tumblr.

"When faced with two choices, simply toss a coin.
It works not because it settles the question for you,
But because in that brief moment, when the coin is in the air,
You suddenly know what you are hoping for."

Rann! if i could tag u here, i would.
hahahahaha
Anywaysss..here's one of my favourite song!
(for now.since i have so many fav songs.haha)
idk why but it just makes me happy.

((:

2010-10-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

MY SIS IS GETTING ENGAGED TOMORROW!!!!!

omgnessss the house like tongkang pecah i tell u!
so messy!
messy + nonstop nagging parents + dictating sisters...
STRESS!
haha.
but i escaped to the kitchen most of the time for my brownies.

will tell u guys all about it when we meet!!
or by fb pics.
u noe since pictures tell a thousand things..
OKGNIGHT!

2010-10-09T00:53:00.001+08:00

haha tunku say no one blogs, lookkk!! we're all blogging now. hahaha anyway, this song makes me happyyyy although the vid is a little ra. hahahaha

HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND MATES~!

2010-10-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

i wanna cut my hair again but i wanna grow it long too. i need to find a new hair style where it can grow out properly and is not too short. stupid hair. and i want my old hair colour back!!! eeeeee

How many special people change? How many lives are living strange?

2010-10-04T23:10:00.005+08:00

Hello there.guess what i did today? I got so bored staying at home,doing nothing (except for the fact that i keep making my butt and stomach grow bigger and bigger,day by day.haha) so i decided to go down, rent some new dvds, buy bubble tea + snickers and walk to ecp! u noe, sitting on the beach(bench) and star gazing with food and music by your side is probably the best thing to do! not that there's many stars to gaze at,thanks to the stupid light pollution.haha.oh and i bought macs for my parents too (: it felt so darn gooood! i think the last time i did this was waaaayyy back in 1993(ok.kidding,duh) i think it was last year during my A's period when i got so stressed out over everything that i keep going to ecp.oh wells.how i wish u all stay near here then we can go to the beach everynight. anw the reason i don't go to the beach everynight though its so near my home is cos err, i'm scared to walk through the tunnel especially if there's nobody in it and secondly, i don't want to be seen as an emo kid sitting by the beach at night,alone.what if suddenly u have an unvited guest sitting by your side?!? hahahaahaha

I think i seriously need to make a list of things to do to kick my damn boredom out!right june and dian?haha.but making a list is one thing,to get me doing it is another.hahaha.
and my flu/phlegm/~~chendo~~l is not gettin any better.evrynight i sleep with a box of tissue by my side.annoying like shitz man.

2010-10-03T12:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the ULTIMATE BESTBESTBESTTTTTTEST day i've had in sucha loooong time.
u guys are beyooooooond loved.
(((:

♥dianfatsoilhahahaha

2010-09-29T18:44:00.008+08:00

hello.my butt hurts.haha.it really hurts.i dont even noe what i did for it to hurt this much.i cant even sit down properly.i have to lie down or sit in a very uncomfortable way and that sucks BIG time.i noe i loveeee to laze around and sleep,but this is just too much..aaaaaahhh!! and some stupid eApplication thing aint helping me either.somebody,helppppp! what more they want?! i typed everything correctly and checked a thousand times already,k exaggerate.but still...the closing date is this friday and if i cant get this done by today or tmr,i might as well live in this bleaghness f.o.r.e.v.e.r. hahahahahaha. ya,next time procrastinate somemore laaah-.- akjdfhsjkfalsafhj. you noe,i think i talk to myself so much these days that it scares me sometimes.hahahaha.oh wells..

P.S: I MISS YOU ALL! When was the last time we meet and just chill?? ): can everybody not get so busy pleaseee? I noe im the most FREE-est person on earth,haha.but can we just spare ONE day and meet?

2010-09-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

500 days of summer (:

2010-09-24T01:53:00.012+08:00

I'm so happy cause today
I found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, that's okay
Cause so are you
Broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday
For all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
Cause I've found God

I'm so lonely, that's ok

...

~~i need to find a new job.~~

~~i need to find more money.~~

~~i need to help my parents.~~

~~i need & want to go to school again. ):~~

~~i need to change my already screwed up bodyclock.~~

~~i need to get up early and see the sunrise.haha~~

~~i need to eat more icecream :D~~

~~i need to stop procrastinating.~~

~~i need to stop being so judgemental.~~

~~i need to stop being so emotional when it comes to sensitive issues.~~
~~i need to stop doing stupid stuff.~~
~~i need to stop taking cough syrup.haha~~

~~i need to broaden my perspectives.errr?nvm.~~

~~i need to get out of this never-ending BLEAGHNESS!~~

I need to have more FAITH & TRUST.

2010-09-22T22:49:00.004+08:00

katy perry's on sesame street?! hahaha

i was just bored at home.so i youtubED everything that could be youtube.haha

i miss listening to this song everyday last time

she's the BEST! haha (:

2010-09-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

halo......first of all,sry if i nvr reply any of ur msges, fb msges/tags, hanging msges, late replies or sound-like-i-cant-bothered replies.haha.i really do wanna reply sincerely bt sometimes i just dun feel like it or cant bring myself to it.its damn annoying cos when i get the bleagh mood(which i tend to have alot nowadays), i just procrastinate and push everything aside.its amazing how now i can even live without my fone.nt that i cannot live-live without it.its just that i think my life wont be of any diff with or without my fone.ok,maybe abit cos i still need my fone for games and music.haha.and of course for YOU ALL to msg/call me and make my life more meaningful.cheesycorny.hahahahaha. klah truth is, ive been daaaaaamn daaamn tired for the past few days.so many things i did and STILL yet to do.its so tiring that i dun even need my cough syrup to make me fall asleep anymore.HA! maybe for nw only.heh *cheers,dun get angry k* hahaha.klah, i wanna get off frm the comp and lie down cos im just lazy to sit up.and duh,im nt using a laptop.i wish arr.haha.kbyeee!

ohh ohh! for the past days, i went to Melaka's water world, underwaterworld (this time sentosa one.haha) and USS! i saw shrek and the castle!! so niceeeee.but sadly i didnt get to go in ): so many things to talk abt bt i very lazy nw.haha.next time lah.or LETS MEET UP SOON K! goodnight! (:

2010-09-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

i need to be in school tmr at 8am to watch carpenter bees!!! like ohmannn!! i wanna sleep.. can't i watch them in my dream? darn it!! arhhhhhhhhh i can't sleep cos ive been waking up too late the past few days bahhhhhhhhhh

2010-09-15T06:40:00.003+08:00

its been long since i was awake at 6am, n getting ready to get out of the house man..
and here i am, half dressed..blogging.. cos i cant believe this is how the next 2 years of my life is suppose to be.
scared nervous excited.
GAHHHHH!!

wish me luck man..
oh and please pray my face dont seriously get destroyed by makeup.
i mean i know la ya'll hv been wearing for a loong time n u'll say i'll get used to it..
hahaha
but right now it feels like my face kena cement.
hehhh :)

lovvyyalll! ((:

2010-09-15T00:59:00.001+08:00

"At the end of the day,when it comes to it all, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them."

2010-09-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

Listen to this.NICEEE! make me wanna moveeee.hahaha

and no,im not in a mood for clubbing or somewhere along those line.heh

2010-09-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

there are days where i just don't want to fall alseep

2010-09-12T19:03:00.003+08:00

I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

I want to go back kampung.should have just stayed there.

2010-09-07T23:09:00.001+08:00

i don't mean to be a spoiler
BUT......

i had never believed in fairytales.

hahahahahahaha!!!!!!

2010-09-06T23:55:00.009+08:00

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales,that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress,prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill.You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith.Santa Claus,the Tooth Fairy,Prince Charming,they were so close you could taste them,but eventually you grow up,one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust.But the thing is,its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope,of faith,that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.."

hi.if there's one thing i could really do nw is that, i srsly need to go somewhere far and take a breather.and i guess it'll help alot too if there's someone, anyone, who would just listen.and no,its not that i can't/dont wanna tell you guys.its just that whatever mid-life crisis(haha)/feelings that im having now,it feels,kinda petty and i dont wanna bother ppl so much.you noe,lately,ive been putting alot of things off and just live in the moment.yea,i know it feels really good livin life like this.no school,no work(a proper kind), no worrying abt assignments or things ure supposed to do but didnt do,no having trouble waking up in the morning,no parents to constantly tell u whats right and whats wrong,no boy/girl problems,no strings attached(HAHA) and bla bla blaa..but at some point of time,u cant help but ask urself, how long will all these last? I noe that whatever actions/steps that we choose to take now sort of determine our lives and our future.isnt it scary?just the thought of it can make me put things off.haha.oh well,maybe the thing thats been making me to put all these things off is,fear. Fear of failure,fear of rejection,fear of just making a decision because,what if you're wrong? what if you're making a mistake you cant undo? what if? what if? it sucks and i suck for fearing so much.haha.u see,i dun even noe what exactly im complaining abt.i'll just leave it all to fate and faith (: and of course my rational mind,sometimes.haha

baaaaahhhh..this is what happens when i think and talk(type) too much! k,im gg back to my own dvd slumber party! hahahahaha

2010-09-05T15:22:00.002+08:00

can i marry him? (in my dreams!) hahahaha

oh wells.we all can live in our own fairy tales right..?

2010-08-30T00:11:00.003+08:00

have you ever had a certain urge to cry somedays?
when you suddenly feel an aching in your heart
a pinch which seems to appear and reappear
a need to listen to songs to keep you away from reality
not wanting to remember
but not wanting to forget

maybe it's just pms

2010-08-27T15:50:00.004+08:00

for the shitty art grade we have, my drawings are still nt bad ayee.hahahahaha

and i still love you kecikkk! even if u were to meet ur hang jebat one day (((:

2010-08-27T02:18:00.000+08:00

YAY RIA LOVE ME!!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah

2010-08-26T16:13:00.001+08:00

crap.
this is freaking "OOPS i did it again" scenario.
seriously
shitshitshit

2010-08-26T00:33:00.011+08:00

I dont know what did i get myself into,as usual -.-

someone please tell me what.to.do.naaaooooo! naaaaaooo! naaaaooooo!

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..im stuck,but not stuck.confused,but not confused.follow my heart or follow.. i hate having to plan and plan and end up not sticking with any of the plans.can't everything be more spontaneous? like, say if i were to meet my soulmate tmr,get married,travel the world,have kids and live happily ever after.just likeeee shrek! HAHAHA.kidding laaaah.siao.that will never happen man. oh god,i feel so demanding and irritating.haha.k,i mean i kinda noe what im supposed to do, its just that i need someone to tell me that everything will be alrightttt (wth.i just rolled my eyes to myself as i typed that.hahahaha!) now i dont feel like gg tmr.before i posted this post,i thought of being honest and tell them the truth that i cant __. but now, i just feel like lying.

they say, lying is the most fun thing a girl can have without taking her clothes off! :D hahaha.

k,thats just a song.ah whatever lah.if its meant to be,its meant to be.righttttt..haha

oh! listen to this song k.its nicer if u hear the full version.

You can count on me like 1 2 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it

I can count on you like 4 3 2
And you'll be there
Cause that's what friends are supposed to do

((:

he's so adorable aye.hehh

2010-08-24T12:25:00.001+08:00

i think i have serious trust and intimacy issues.
so serious its actually funny.
u know like being in parents teacher meeting, and your dad gets so serious, you're actually trying quite hard not to laugh?
ya det kind.
so freakin twisted.

2010-08-22T16:47:00.002+08:00

it's just my way little way of protecting myself

2010-08-21T00:58:00.005+08:00

Someone please knock my head.

cos why? i FORGOT that tmr i my father's birthday! ok,technically its today, like NAAOOO!! ah damn,i feel so bad for forgetting.we were having supper/sahur? like 30mins ago then he asked my mum whats the date today.yea right,rhetorical question.haha.then my mum so smart asked me back. -___-" DUSH! luckyyyyyy on the spot i rmb.now i have a problem.what to get for him?!?my father! if i buy for him a present,i think i'll be too shy to even give it to him and birthday card is obviously a no no.maybe i shud just buy him a cake and quickly put it in the fridge once i get home cos thats what i always do to the rest of my family members for their birthdays.haha. oh nooo! cannottttt..i just realized that we have something on tmr night, means i'll only be home after his bdae! and i have work in the morning tmr.daaamn.nvm.when there's a will, there's a way! (: klah, to make myself feel better,here's a dedication to my bapak! hahahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ENCIK RAZAK EDI!

I forgot how old are you and im lazy to count,but i noe u were born in the year 1959.haha.

Eventhough u ALWAYSSSS embarrass me by calling me s___ in front of ppl and forever making fun of my pyjamas collection when i was a kid, ure still my one and only kaPAK! hahahaha.

kbye.

2010-08-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

Cos u guys HAVE to listen to this.
trust me on this man.
TRUST. ME.

2010-08-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

3 iiiiity bittttttty things

i owe my agency $600 cos i'm terminating my contract
i've secured a fulltime job WAEHOOOO
um..i think i should stop getting personal with my customers.

HAHAHAHAHAHA

KBYE.

2010-08-20T13:38:00.002+08:00

today's THE DAYY!!
gahhh 3pm.
this will define the next 2 years of my life.

2 YEARS NOE!
that's enough time to fall in love, get a boyfriend n break up!
the whole works!
hahahahahah ok la not funny.

wishme luckkk!

oh btw my eys are MADMAD itchy n i keep sneeezing.
i think i'm allergic to makeup.
my face itchyla!

lovelove to all!

2010-08-20T00:38:00.013+08:00

Poof! heh

I talked to my mum just now,about life.about my future.about my friends.about my work.about the things thats been bothering me.almost everything, except for some stuff that i'd rather keep it to myself.and for that, i'll try to be a nicer person and not have a heart of a stone,sometimes.haha.

this blog is getting boring and its like where i dump my complaints -.-

lets put some C.O.L.O.U.R.S to it.

2010-08-17T15:43:00.005+08:00

Hello. Today,

i will rot at home and watch grey's till i puke.haha.its my day off, finally, and i dont feel like going anywhere,doing anything or meeting anyone(nt like i have people to meet.ha)

i've got so many things to do, so many things to think about, but i just choose not to do anything abt it.u noe what i really wanna do? i wanna go on a holiday,alone.ha. and when i grow up,(older i mean and prolly married,HAHA) i wanna

take the gondola ride in Venice,

go to Paris and climb up the Eiffel tower all the way to the top,

go to Mauritius or Hawaii and be black (haha),

go to Japan and see all the cherry blossoms,

go to any country where its snowing and just lie down and let the snow fall on my face,

go to Nepal and bring one of the kids back to Sg (just like the picture of this nepalese baby i keep in my wallet.heh)

bag pack to Europe and prolly get lost there,

travel to Egypt and see all the pyramids and then freak myself out,

go to DISNEYLAND in the USA ((((: and bring my parents cos when i was a kid, they always say they'll bring me there one day but its okaye, i'll bring them there instead.haha

the list goes on but thats all i want for now.haha

sigh,i just make myself more sad cos i noe its kinda impossible for me to achieve all those unless i work reaaalllllyyy hard till i die of exhaustion or just marry some rich old man! NAH.i wont want to marry a rich person or someone old-old.hahaha.oh wells..

i should stop talking.

kbye.

2010-08-16T16:45:00.002+08:00

2010-08-13T15:40:00.002+08:00

HEHEHEEEEEEEEEEEE :p

i got NEWSSSS!!
but i dont think i should jinx myself yet.
wont say till its cnfirmed.
but if all goes well..

I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO WEAR MAKEUP!!
HAHAHAHA

lovelove, fatsoill
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

2010-08-10T18:53:00.003+08:00

HEY GUYS!!! WANNA BREAK FAST(THOUGH NOT ALL OF US ARE FASTING) AT LAGOON THIS FRIDAY? I SAY EARLIER FIRST SO I CAN BOOK YOUR FRIDAY EVENING. WHAT SAY YA'LLLLLLLLL?????

=D

2010-08-08T05:05:00.008+08:00

I think i need a sunrise,

I'm tired of the sunset.

Sometimes i think there's something wrong with me.I can be so fine at one time and the next second, i can feel totally otherwise - and for.no.apparent.reason.(or so i thought)

sometimes also, i just dont feel like talking to anyone or opening up my lazy mouth.Like just when i was about to say something, this annoying head of mine will start thinking of all the second thoughts i could possibly think of and i'll end up not saying anything at all or just give my all time favourite answer - nothing (when u actually have so many things to say but, nevermindddd) haha.its pms.its pms.i swear its the bloody pms.how i wish im not a girl sometimes,then i wouldnt be so sensitive like this every mth.haha.its crazy,cos ive been blocking/hiding alot of ppl (frens.heh) frm my fb and msn.it feels retarded.bt i just need to breatheeee and not see things that i dont wish to see or hear.they say what you dont know wont hurt you, at least to me.haha.

2010-08-05T12:07:00.003+08:00

random but i need to rant.

i tried making Gougeres yesterday.
basically just creampuffs de puff, but with cheese. no custard.

and i shouldddddddddddddd have known!!
those puffs "puff because of the structure in them.
the structure is made up of gluten n egg protein!
so just because i wanted to achieve a fluffy n not so dry puff,
i opted to sub 2 TB of norm flour with cake flour.
STUPIDSTUPID!!

WROOOOONG MOVE.
cake flour has less gluten. its bleached that's why its whiter n finer.
thats why cakes do not have the same texture as like bread n buns.

because of my stupid move, my puffs didnt puff!
grr.
wad a waste of eggs i tell u.
suuuuper waste of eggs.

but wdv.
This weekend is gnna be Project Gougere untill those ~~damn~~ dear puffs really puff.
bleaghhh.

the annoying thing is det i got the taste down.
it has a good soft almost souffle-like kind of softness to it..
light buttery taste that's not overwhelming..
with the shadow of cheddar cheese. abit, then it fills ur mouth and u noe its cheese.
)):

but they dont' puff.
and the bottoms burn n stick.
and i cannot grease the pan cos then it would further make the puffs not puff.

i was soooo frustrated last night man.
**can u imagine? 1130 pm, i was slaving in the kitchen quarelling with eggs n flour? bleagh!**
almost threw them all out.
):
but nahh.. i just cup off the tops n threw the burnt bottoms.
so i hv butt-less puffs in my kitchen~! hahaha

tonight is gnna be another round.
i think i better restock the eggs too.
n butter. need more butter.
n piping bags too.
n couplers.
thank God i restocked cheese redi so wheee! savesave.

i'm gnna research n experiment till i get perfect puffy golden brown Gougere.
than i'll happily let ya'll taste them ok?
u can be my witness from absolute failure of flat puffs with burnt bottoms to pretty golden brown success.

ok thanks for readin bye!!
hahahaha

oh just in case.. this is what they are SUPPOSED to look like.
so damn gooooood!
):

2010-08-04T10:28:00.000+08:00

i want to go somewhere far away,
some where only we know...

.

2010-08-03T22:36:00.003+08:00

no words can explain the boredom im experiencing now. I've got too many things to do. what an irony.

2010-08-03T03:24:00.004+08:00

Its 3 in the morning and i suddenly thought of my my nieces and nephew.i kinda miss them..no,i miss them alot ): its been long since i last met them and its not my fault that i never get to visit them now.its really not my fault.askjdfhaksjhfkhjd.idk.maybe its my choice not to visit them for now or maybe im just too ego to..nvm.bt then again,i dun think i am,as compared to last time.my heart's abit 'softer' now.soft as in not lembik.haha.aiyaa,what rubbish im talking.i dun even think u all understand what im talking abt.itsokayeee.dun bother.hahaha.

anw,just wondering, have u all been in a dream where u noe ure not in the real world and u just play along with it? and then when u really noe its just a dream and u dun really like it or feels frightened,u force urself out of the dream? i dun really noe how to explain this but yea,i always get that.sometimes it can be those good dreams until u can feel that its too good to be true so u force urself out of it.idk,as much as i like to live in my own world and get my head stuck in the clouds, i just dun really like that feeling of disappointment when u wake up and realised that its just another dream.how sad right.nehminddd.i think im lazy to think and type already.or maybe

hahaha.i think before the emo monster come into me i better get out of here.haha.act cute only.k goodnight (:

2010-07-30T00:58:00.009+08:00

EHH! WHO POSTED THAT AIRPLANES SONG EY?!?
just for YOUUU somemore..WAHHH, ANNOYINGGG and at the same time its FUNNY LIKE SHIT! HAHAHAHA
irritating,i used to like that song until...SOMEONE HAD to sing it.asdkfjsfsflfhdkjfh.we all need to breathee in deep deep man.hahaha.
........
anw someone at work today (a big botak man) thought i came frm the US.whuuuttttt.. -.-
ok,i was waiting for my banana milk shake order when a big botak man in his blazer stood beside me.so i just smiled and looked away but he started talking.i think he's a malay bt he doesnt sound like one.so i kaypoh and looked at his name tag.still i have no idea if he's a malay or not cos his name is bai something2..hahahaha.k,this is how the convo goes

botak man: hello,how ure doing?
me: erm,fine.thank you. (i noe its just polite to ask him back.bt i just cant be bothered.HAHA)
botak man: so,where are you from?
me: errr,aquamarine? im a part-timer here.
botak man: hmm..where are you from?
me: ....?? (giving the blur face)
botak man: so where are you from? (AGAAAAIN)
me: errr.. (at this point of time,i swear i wanted to just say 'hello,im from home.my home is at mp.u noe where is that place??good. but of course i kept it to myself and just give him the one-side-small-eyes face.hahaha.then i felt that this convo was gg nowhere so the smart me just decide to anwer his stupid question and say SINGAPORE?)
botak man: ohhhh! i thought ure from the US.cos u looked tanned.
me: hehh? :/ oh,no.im from here,singapore.i just came back frm phuket.
botak man: ohh, so do u surf?
me: hurr..oh no,i dont. (wah,nw i can be a surfer girl alr eh.after answering his question i turned my back and was cursing under my breath.askjdfhdkjfhkjd)
botak man: seeyou..
me: *gives a fake smile and walks away*HAHA (OHMYGOD.I SWEAR IF I COULD, I WANTED TO STRANGLE HIM AND HIT HIS BOTAK HEAD WITH MY TRAY.ediottttt..hello abang/pakcik,i may look tanned or dark or hitam but im not a nigger lehhh..saye melayu tau tk.awak pun melayu kan? -.- HAHAHA.klah,it was kinda funny when i think abt it again)

Everday there's stories at work.nvmlah,at least it'll make my day,sometimes.
PS: I should start learning how to forgive and forget.not forgive and remember.as much as i can be angry,merajuk or hurt by people,at the end of it,this tiny heart of mine noes that it'll just give in one fine day.The holy month is coming soon.lets be good ok.no hard feelings (:

2010-07-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

haha i think i have issues. my future bro in law is trying to make jokes/small talk but mmpos i malas nak layan. so i'm replying him in a very blunt naive way nyahahahah.
no actually i think i have issues getting close to anyone right now. dont care. cant be bothered. no time.dontcareeeeeeee. my friend say i need help. rubbish. i think i'm perfectly normal.ok thank you bye!

OH BTW!!

hehehe.
i spent 1/2 hr in CS's toilet. u know why??
cos the song all so nice!!
they have Oasis la.. that superman/i'm not perfect song..
NICEEEE
very you all kind of song hahaha.

2010-07-29T00:09:00.004+08:00

I need to make a confession
:D

I, guess my name, have a habit of blocking ppl on FB so they wont show on her wall.

People who are ALL THE DAMN TIME emoing.
**i feel bad for them sometimes, i do really. but WAHLAO EH!**
People who are addicted to FB, they act as if they hv to report evrything there.
People who publish their loveydoveygooey love all over FB
People who are aware of their beauty, n hv 76375372398 beauty shots popping here there evrywhere.
People who think profile pics is always 35% CLEAVAGE. tsk.
People who are hot, and um..i happen to hv a crush on, so blocking them is a preventive measure b4 i start stalking hehh(:

ok that felt good.
tmr shall be wake up in the morning n bake cookies to top up stock.
frozen cookie dough is AMAZING.

lovelove~

2010-07-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

Just for YOUUUUUUUUUUUU!

HAHAHAHHA

2010-07-28T00:38:00.002+08:00

cute eh..haha (:

2010-07-27T00:49:00.006+08:00

A hungry girl is an angry girl.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

haha.im not angry lah,im just HUNGRY,damn hungry.every night its the same thing for me.im always hungry during work and after work.maybe its the place that im working now that makes me feel moreeeee hungry like e.v.e.r.y s.e.c.o.n.d. -.- and its amazing how now i dont really care that much if i gain weight or become buncit or whatsoever.maybe cos there's nothing or anything to look forward to.sigh.haha.and i realised i havent had a proper meal since ___ i dun even noe when.i think my definition of 'proper' is like one super nice garlic/black pepper steak or rice with all the lauk2 and sambal belacan and then end my meal with a dessert AND ice cream!wahhhh..syokkkk.. *drools* HAHA. damn it,im just making myself feel more miserable now.its alwaysssss fast food or junk food or NO food.before work,fast food.after work,fast food.so sad. ayeee,suddenly i thought of simpang! its been long man.lets all go there one day k!
anw this whole post is just abt me being hungry 24/7 eh.heh.thats cos im waiting for the water to boil so i can make my instant maggie goreng (: ok!set,im gonna make myself a BIG BREAKFAST tmr.no,nt the macs kind.hahaha.
im gonna eat nw,
jemput imagine.

look at this cute little girl ((: hahahaha
actually just look at the background(top left hand side) who would have guessed thats the place im working nw -.- lame.HAHA

2010-07-24T23:29:00.008+08:00

i hate it when i act rashly.
i hate it when i vent my anger at innocent people.
i hate it when my actions are so bloody rude,
especially to the people i keep close to my heart.
i hate it when i deliberately give rude remarks to people,
just to protect myself frm that feeling of,
hurt.
i hate it when my ego is too high to admit or even say something.
i hate it.i hate it.i hate it.
i fcuking hate it.

oh God,
pls help me i need to have more faith.
sometimes i wish i had an imaginary fren that will be by my side 24/7 just so that i can complain and talk to whenever i want without having to worry of anything.haha

2010-07-22T01:31:00.001+08:00

drafts kids..
love, fatsoil.

2010-07-21T02:01:00.002+08:00

I’m setting us in stone
Piece by piece, before I’m alone
Air tight, before we break
Keep it in, keep us safe.

i got hold of the english translation and sniffles...truer words have never been spoken. it had to be my fav peterpan song not without reason. anyway, all live, this goes out to the broken hearted. hahaha! still love peterpan though ariel's somewhat a porn star now.

.

2010-07-20T01:07:00.003+08:00

I noe this is kinda old, but i LOVE this sooo much! ((:
Sometimes i hate watching this kind of movies cos it just makes me live in my own fairytale and that sucks actually.haha.but oh wells,i cant help watching it.at least it makes me feel good.haha

2010-07-17T15:55:00.010+08:00

Their anger hurts my ear..

I guess bottled up feelings run in the family and I'm no exception.Prolly this is the reason why trust is so important to me.Its so hard to accept some changes that you know deep down,it hurts more if you dont accept it.Im becoming sucha pussy.

I need some ice cream lovin.haha

2010-07-17T11:32:00.002+08:00

Booksbooksbooks

A Child called it
The lost boy
A man named Dave

SUPAAA GOOD
(:
its defn not those feel good bimbotic ditzy witty books i always read la.
but its so full of depth.
n depressing. very depressing.
but its daaammmnn good!
so good i know i go to Borders a few days in a row just to finish reading all 3 books.

so gogogo!
(:

2010-07-16T22:31:00.003+08:00

7 Stages of Grief...

1. SHOCK & DENIAL-
You will probably react to learning of the loss with numbed disbelief. You may deny the reality of the loss at some level, in order to avoid the pain. Shock provides emotional protection from being overwhelmed all at once. This may last for weeks.

2. PAIN & GUILT-
As the shock wears off, it is replaced with the suffering of unbelievable pain. Although excruciating and almost unbearable, it is important that you experience the pain fully, and not hide it, avoid it or escape from it with alcohol or drugs.

You may have guilty feelings or remorse over things you did or didn't do with your loved one. Life feels chaotic and scary during this phase.

3. ANGER & BARGAINING-
Frustration gives way to anger, and you may lash out and lay unwarranted blame for the death on someone else. Please try to control this, as permanent damage to your relationships may result. This is a time for the release of bottled up emotion.

You may rail against fate, questioning "Why me?" You may also try to bargain in vain with the powers that be for a way out of your despair ("I will never drink again if you just bring him back")

4. "DEPRESSION", REFLECTION, LONELINESS-
Just when your friends may think you should be getting on with your life, a long period of sad reflection will likely overtake you. This is a normal stage of grief, so do not be "talked out of it" by well-meaning outsiders. Encouragement from others is not helpful to you during this stage of grieving.

During this time, you finally realize the true magnitude of your loss, and it depresses you. You may isolate yourself on purpose, reflect on things you did with your lost one, and focus on memories of the past. You may sense feelings of emptiness or despair.

7 Stages of Grief...

5. THE UPWARD TURN-
As you start to adjust to life without your dear one, your life becomes a little calmer and more organized. Your physical symptoms lessen, and your "depression" begins to lift slightly.

6. RECONSTRUCTION & WORKING THROUGH-
As you become more functional, your mind starts working again, and you will find yourself seeking realistic solutions to problems posed by life without your loved one. You will start to work on practical and financial problems and reconstructing yourself and your life without him or her.

7. ACCEPTANCE & HOPE-
During this, the last of the seven stages in this grief model, you learn to accept and deal with the reality of your situation. Acceptance does not necessarily mean instant happiness. Given the pain and turmoil you have experienced, you can never return to the carefree, untroubled YOU that existed before this tragedy. But you will find a way forward.

7 stages of grief...

You will start to look forward and actually plan things for the future. Eventually, you will be able to think about your lost loved one without pain; sadness, yes, but the wrenching pain will be gone. You will once again anticipate some good times to come, and yes, even find joy again in the experience of living.

one day we will meet again...