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Hello! We are the Chillak-a

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

i know since its CNY, Spore is ghost town here there everywhere.
but must it be de case here oso??
tsktsk...

hahaha.

anyhooo~
slowly but surely but i swear to God damn slowwwwly..
i feel like hving facebook.
for the sole purpose of the pictures.
HAAAAAAH

OMG LA.
KORG FRENSTER ALL DIE REDI.
PB OSO NVR UPDATE.
AND SAYA SEORANG YANG TIDAK ADA CAMERA.
KALAU ADA PON HAPRAK PUNYA CAMERA...

booooo.
):

i love u rann n june. but for translation, u go ask the 2 minahs k?
MUACKS!

actually i feel a tad bit giddy.
cos i just finished 2 proposals today, plus a CDS blogpost.
and i need the beach.
NOWWWWWWWWW.

ok. i miss u all la.
hahaha

dianloveyoumanymany(:

Saturday, January 24, 2009

CNY is in 2 days time but im not at all excited. or lets put it this way, i was nvr excited for cny. why?well, i don't know. just not a cny person i guess. even the snacks don't really tempt me. haha i'm not a snack person! hahaha well then what am i? i don't really like cny cookies, i don't like muffins, not really a fan of ice cream except for maybe those at IC and also not a big fan of chips and chocs. ok who am i kidding? i eat different snacks depending on my mood but most of the time, i like sour. hmmmm does tht make me a sour person? well i dont know, really. hahaha

im falling ill i think but then again maybe not coz i always think tht im gonna fall ill and the next day, im perfectly fine. well i like it this way. seriously, who likes to fall ill? none tht i know of.

i've been thinking on the course i should take IF i get to Uni and i've decided that i'll either take psychology or accountings. hahaha weird to suddenly decide on accountings since i've nvr really thought of tht as an option. i think it's quite difficult to get into accountings though. how i'd wished i had thught hard about the course i would want to take before i sat for As. This way, i would have worked harder. but since what's done is done, i'll just have to accept whatever the outcome is right? i guess so. lalala

maybe i should really see a shrink regarding my punctuality prob..hahahaahahha. right Ria? haha

work again tmr morning! SHIT! hahahah nah it's ok la but must wake up early la.. eeyurrr

Daddy-O, you got the swagger of champion

heylo.its saturday and im feeling super bored at home): should i meet my parents later?? they're in town nw!they'll be meeting my auntie for some adult talk,i think.ha. but i dont want to kaypoh with whatever they're doing lehh. haiyaaa.. hahahaha. maybe i'll just meet them after they're done.idk. yadayada.
Anywaaaay, i'll be going to malaysia/kampung tmr. so see ya! happy holidays. don't miss me hor.. cheh! siapelah aku ini.. Hahahahaha.
So long, goodbye... (:

oh, before i forgot,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE!!
balik kampung oooii.. hahahaha. kk,merepek.


Matters of heart are hard to address

Thursday, January 22, 2009

TwentysecondJANUARYtwothousandandnine. oh mann..In a few days time, it will be February!! it feels like im still stuck in 2008, in my holiday mood! i need to start psychoing myself that i love going to school!! -_- and i've been feeling sleepy and forever sleeping in classes! in the bus.in the train.while standing-in the train.during breaks.and especially in malay lit class.this is what i said just now.."kita perlu ade sifat ade sifat keHUMANan..." wth was i thinking man..*smacksforehead* hahaha. anyway..after school, i met my parents at mustaffa and i hate it whenever they 'lock' my bag using that hard2 string..thank god they didn't put my bag in a plastic bag and lock it! common laa, not as if i will steal anything rightt.. irritating. and those banglas will forever push u around. da la bag skolah berat..haiyoo. and by the time i gt home..my kaki want to patah already.haha.bedek.


That your heart don't want to feel

Wednesday, January 21, 2009
when you were young

*random*


I feel the heat
From these 4 candles burning
As I'm staring out the window
In solitude I look at life
From different angles
Thoughts strangled
My mind is suffocatin'
In this truth quest
A greed law
That we abide by is ruthless
Enough will never satisfy
Until we toothless
Filthy millionaires
Are gamblin' until they muflis
A sad fact of life
But mankind approved this
I gotta call Him
Sajadah is where the booth is
I'll make it clear that
I ain't even tryin' to preach ya
By sharing thoughts I hope
To find a little peace here
...

Too Phat(:


thank you guys for always being around (not there but around) me all these while! u guys are the best! im serious!

it was only 2 days back when dk asked me how i actually managed to stay in the clique for so long despite our obvious differences that i realised how it was nvr where we went that mattered but who the company was that was really important! it's true that sometimes i would love to go to probably non halal places to eat but i'd really rather just eat at a road side with these bunch of goons then to eat at a posh restaurant with someone else. lets just say i pick company over ambience. i pick these bunch of friends who've been through thick and thin with me! i pick these people who may judge me but will never abandon me! i pick these bunch of people who taught me that best friends do exist and there can definitely be more than one. i pick these bunch of dingdongs to be my friends! i pick them because they picked me up! hahaha
i choose YOU! Chillak-asses and Tofu Clan to be my friends! hahaha ILOVEYOUUUUUGUYSSSSS!!!! AHHHH DO U FEEEL THE LOVE??? I DO

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


HAPPAYE BIRTHDEY RANN rambu-TAN!!!!!
kiddddinnnggg.. ((:
now that you're 9teen, no more hanky panky horr. HAHAHA.
and..since you can't have dinner with us tmr.....
RiaRazianyRazak will merajuk! heh. naaaaah..


I HOPE YOU'LL HAVE A BUNCIT 9TEEN! HA!
I LOVE YOU RANNY PANNY((:


Monday, January 19, 2009

I just feel too lazy to go for lecture. Haha! Supposed to start at 12 but I'm still lazing around at home.. Heh.. Guess I'll go for the next one, I think.. :D Right..! Aiya, frankly Im just too bored of school lah. Holidays come quick! Anyway, they are coming!

7 weeks of pure freedom before my major project commences. No more lectures, but it's project all the way from 8.30 in the morning till 5.30pm. Seriously, no life. :/

I want this week to fly by cos cos cos i have another family chalet up this weekend. :) Yeah, I guess my family from both sides are close, and I'm really thankful for that. And maaaybe I'm going to KL on the 7th-8th of Feb. With family, again. Heh. Cool lahhhhh......!!!!!!!!

Oh can you guys tell that I'm bored??!!!

I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

♥ ♥ ♥


Sunday, January 18, 2009
Lolli Lolli let me see you pop that body

hey looo.. my sister and her family came just now and noe what, i think now, i really love my nephew sooooooo much. idk why,but yaa.. i think its because i've always wanted a baby boy in our family and when Hadri Shakir was born, Tadaaa! i was HAPPAYE!! hahahahaha.

and.... I WILL AVOID TAKING ANY OVERHEAD BRIDGE for the time being!
now i know how it feels like to be like those makcik-makcik or nyonya-nyonya yang susah nak naik turun tannga or bus! ha! -__-
sakit oooiii..hahahahaha. kk. gtg!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

i couldn't sleep last night again and i don't think i'll be able to sleep later on too. this sucks!
i think im currently the freeest person among the chillak-asses.. and i don't like it. it's not fun to be too free... pras is right, i should call up more schs tmr.. she blady hell had 3 days of relief teaching last week and another 3 this or next week!!! like u earn 195$$ in 3 days!! i want tht too!!! :(

lalala there are ants on my computer table! i don't know where they come from.... haha random.

gdnight and gdmorning

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Losers make promises they often break. Winners make commitments they always keep.








But then of course everything always happens for a reason


im hungry! yes i am!

today's a random day. i saw hafith and zazzzzz haha at pp today! u know harith?? from 52nd clt course. he works in challenger and i was there to get a new desktop. haha ok this is random nonsense.

i don't have much to say now. i realise tht my mind is only flooded with thoughts just before i sleep and by then, i'm just too lazy to get out from bed to blog. sometimes, it causes insomnia! darn it right?! hate it so much! i should actually take some dhasedyl from the clinic to make myself drowsy. hahaha! do u know drug addicts take them as a substitute to make themself high? welllll now u know! im hungry. this is a random thought. it actually shows tht im really hungry but i just plain lazy to look for food

it's gonna be march really soon and im scared. i want time to pass more quickly but then again, part of me don't want to. it's irritating,really. it's like an inner conflict. just one of the many.

so much has happened last year and i wonder wants install for me this year, so exciting ain't it? how evry decision or move can be a life changing one. i don't know if i've matured, remained the same or became more childish. it's really hard to tell when u don't see urself as who u really are. i wonder if u get what i mean. it's like most of the time, u see urself based on ur own thoughts while others judge u based on yer actions. so we will never exactly see the same person. how odd, same but not the same.

life is confusing isn't it? sometimes u think u know what u're doing but in fact, it's wrong. u're wrong. like a wrong move made in life.

i can't remember if i've blogged this before but here's it.
ever wondered if life is predestined or does every move make a difference in where u're heading?
it's like when someone dies because of u, do u say tht it's just time for that person to go and it has nothing to do with what u've done. it's a irrevocable change. just meant to be. or do u choose to believe that it's ur action which has caused the tragedy to happen? something which can be avoided.
we are suppose to make a choice right? like either believe that life is predestined or believe that our destiny is based on our every action and so everything we do would lead us to whichever path.
yet when we really make this choice, it end s up being a double edged sword. if we were to choose the former, then yes we get a consolation when someone dies. it's meant to be, nothing would have changed the outcome. so then is our life really planned out for us? it would mean tht we can never make a difference. nvr ever.
as usual, this is going nowhere. such a random post with everything randomly scattered, like the proteins on our csm. fluid mosaic. crap this

im hungry

Sunday, January 11, 2009

oooOOoohhhh holy freak sh!t.......
*omg.sorry*
I FORGOT TO DO MY ECONS HOMEWORK!!
oh noooooo..!!!
and i cant remember where i put it.DUSH!
means tmr i have to do it in class..
oh God.
please don't remind my teacher about it.idk how.but yaa.
heh.
HELLO SCHOOL. GOODBYE HOLIDAY! ):

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Shut up and let me go
This hurts, I tell you so
For the last time you will kiss my lips
Now Shut up and let me go
Your jeans were once so clean
I bet you changed your wardrobe since we met

Now oh so easily your over me
Gone is love
It's you that ought to be holding me
I'm not containable
This love now
It's not sustainable

I ain't freaking
I ain't Faking this
I ain't freaking
I ain't Faking this
I ain't freaking
I ain't Faking this
Shut up and let me go
Hey!



Oh hot damn,
this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M
Yall don't understand, make me throw my hands
In the ayer, ay, ayer, ayer, ay, ayer



HAHAHAHAHAHA. I am CRAZEEEEE in loveeee with both songs!! oh mann.. how irritating songs can make you fall in love with them! hahaha. (:
i feel like going for the ting tings..! but..stupid school):

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Heylo!

since someone wants to do something 'irradical' before 12th jan.. Danial suggested night cycling!!! ((: *dont get him wrong, he said he was just suggesting* or go to OCH! but OBVIOUSLY im not in for och luhh. mad arrr..i'd rather stay home and rot! hahahahahaha. so yeaa.. anyone wanna go?? maybe this friday? then maybe we all can have dinner/breakfast together!yaye! HAHAHA.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Take me on a trip, i'd like to go somewhere..

Shut up and let me go
This hurts, I tell you so
For the last time you will kiss my lips
Now Shut up and let me go
HIT IT!

HAHAHAHAHA.


Selamat tinggal sang suria,
semoga dapat kulihat sinarmu keesokan harinya
Hadirlah kepekatan malam,
bersama bintang-bintang dan cahaya bulan,
agar hidup ini tidak ditenggelami kegelapan..


chet!enough.enough.haha. i shall post an entry in malay one day!
Ok, why not now.haha. let's start with some random thoughts.
PERUBAHAN. ha!

Perubahan sering kali berlaku di dalam diri manusia. Tidak kiralah perubahan yang baik mahupun yang buruk. Kadangkala, kita sendiri tidak perasan akan perubahan tersebut sehingga ianya ditegur oleh seseorang. Maka, diri pula mula tertanya-tanya akan perubahan tersebut. "Betulkah aku yang berubah?" atau "Mereka yang telah berubah?" Ada sesetengah orang yang menafikan perubahan tersebut dan ada pula yang sengaja berbuat sedemikian. Kebanyakannya, manusia berubah demi kebaikan sendiri mahupun atas dasar orang yang mereka sayangi. Namun, walaupun perubahan tersebut dilakukan atas dasar orang yang mereka sayangi, tidak kesemuanya boleh dilihat sebagai perubahan demi kebaikan. Ini boleh dilihat dimana seseorang yang mereka sayangi, contohnya, kekasih hati inginkan perubahan dalam diri kekasihnya. Perubahan yang mahu dilakukan kebanyakannya hanya menguntungkan sebelah pihak, iaitu si kekasih hati. Akhirnya, mereka telah menipu diri sendiri semata-mata inginkan perubahan yang diingini sang kekasih. Adakah semua ini sanggup dilakukan oleh seseorang itu demi menjaga perasaan hati atau demi cinta? Hanya mereka dan Tuhan sahaja yang tahu. Memang tidak dapat dinafikan setiap insan mengalami perubahan. Semenjak dilahirkan di bumi sehinggalah dewasa kelak, perubahan sentiasa berlaku. Tidakkah ianya menyeramkan? Kita tidak akan tahu apa yang akan berlaku pada masa hadapan. Seperti kata pepatah 'Kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan'. Takdir manusia telah pun ditetapkan..


ooooooookaaaay..enough said. hahahahahahahaha.
sorry eh, junneh and rano..
what did i just talked about man.. ha!
don't ask me.suddenly i had alot to say about that.
okie dokie! im gonna get some chocolate and ice-cream now.
or should i go ecp? hahahahaha.
ok bye!(:


goodmorning and goodnight! i shall go to bed soon!
i think i do like my clinic job. the only drawback is tht the pay is freaking low and i can definitely find better paying jobs. well but not everything should be determined upon the money factor right? well working in the clinic makes me wanna be a doc again. like what is wrong with me! maybe if i had taken up this job earlier, i would have realised what i really wanted and thus worked real hard for A levels so that i can at least make it to medicine school. well now, it's not possible. i'll probably not get straight A's and i even have the feeling that i might do super badly! mannnn... this really sucks ya know. since there's nothing i can do about it, lets just live life as it is and move on and on and onnnnnn.. lalala

im gonna call up a whole bunch of schools tmr to ask them if they need relief teachers!! hahaha PRIMARY schools to be exact... welll u see.... there's a paedophile in everyone! hahaha

goodbye and goodnight!
i really can't wait for A level results to be out!!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger
I could disengage



I went to pp just now and it felt good walking around aimlessly.. i think i need to spend some time with myself and start doing some reflection. all these while,i guess i never really care about how i feel towards certain stuff cos im too bothered trying to care about people's feelings. im not trying to say im such an angel or a sweet person, but we are supposed to treat others as we would like to be treated. it's really tiring trying to always be considerate of other peoples feelings. what shit, i've been trying to listen to people's problem when i cant even settle my own stuff.i wont say i have a problem cos i hate saying 'i have a problem'. i hate it when people make it seem as if they are the only ones having problem and think that no one will understand their problem cos they are 'not in my shoe'.oh shut up. common la, there's more people who suffer and have bigger problems.its just that they dont show it.you are not alone in this world. No life is a waste. The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone..
Anw, back to my story.. i was at borders just now.reading! heh. i actually read five people you meet in heaven and i stop at lesson two.yaye.. i feel like buying that book.but nah. i need a diary asap.why.why.why. stop whinning la. crap.

"Sacrifice is a part of life. Its not something to regret. When you sacrifice some things, you're not really losing it, you're just passing it to someone else..."


Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when your blind
It's better than I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know


HELLLLOOOOO FRIENDS!!!!
haha this shall be my FIRST POST FOR THE YEAR!!! lalala
hmm so while june is probably on her way to work while the rest might probably be sleeping! haha im here infront of the com typing away.. but i'll go back to sleep soon! heh. cannot tahan la. im darn sleepy!

ohyeah! i need to find another job cos the clinic job is only like 2 or 3 times a week and no no no that's not enough cos i wanna earn more moneh! show me the moneh!!! hahaha kns anyhow!

ohyes Ria! this shall be coming from all directions- time to STUDY REAL HARD!!! and start sleeping early alright or u'll end up like june! cannot sleep! hahaha...

okkk byeeeee

Sunday, January 4, 2009

not only is laughter is contagious, i 've come to the opinion that anger spreads quick like wild fire!

but i am so angryyyyyy for u my friend. and i wanna kickj some ASSS man. and mind u, not the najib ass kicking sort!

HERE IS A F U C K E R aight to the deserving recipient.
and heres a mighty virtual roarrrrrrrrrrrr to u since i'm so nice, kind, gentle and sweet live, too sweet to actually roar in ur face.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE!
PEACE, NO WAR!


FUCKED UPpppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!