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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
HAHA! *deleted!*
see ya, i'm gonna watch powerpuff girls,dexter and pokemon!
cos it makes me a happy kid. hahahaha.kk.bye!
sometimes i wish i could speak and write in a different language. a language only i understand and a language which enables me to express myself fully. but this would defeat the very prupose or speaking and writing. wouldn't it? maybe what i need is an inner voice who is wise enough to keep me on the right path.
the human mind works in a way such that within the few seconds which u have met a new person, u have already decided on whether u would want that person to be in ur circle of friends. of course it would be great if both parties feels the same way and welcomes each other. but what if one person just doesnt like the other person on first instinct or in a more humane way, first impression? well. i strongly feel that the other party should stop trying to be close friends with the other. haha coz it gets really irritating especially since the mind has long been made up.
to say that time has been passing super slowly is wrong. yet, it seems that it hasn't been flying pass either. maybe it's because as the hours pass, we soon arrive into a new day, a new month and even a new year. yet, our mind is constantly on the move and there is no exact way to calculate the amount of thoughts which has been processed and the amount of experience of a person. i don't expect anyone to understand what im talkin about cos i too don't. this is why i need another language. i think i've got a problem with expression. but really who cares, im flawed and so are you.
it's odd how everytime i mention about A level results, people tend to tell me not to worry. the thing is, i''m not exactly worried. im not worried not because i think i'll do well but i think i just do not feel extreme emotions which others feel. i tend to just feel for things at moderation. is there something wrong with me then? i really don't know. it just feels odd. i hate (one extreme emotion at least) it when people tell me not to worry coz i'll do well. firstly, im not worried and secondly, i know myself better than u guys know me. plus it's always better to be a little bit more pessimistic when it comes to such stuff. disappointments just sucks! sucks real bad!
the human mind works in a way such that within the few seconds which u have met a new person, u have already decided on whether u would want that person to be in ur circle of friends. of course it would be great if both parties feels the same way and welcomes each other. but what if one person just doesnt like the other person on first instinct or in a more humane way, first impression? well. i strongly feel that the other party should stop trying to be close friends with the other. haha coz it gets really irritating especially since the mind has long been made up.
to say that time has been passing super slowly is wrong. yet, it seems that it hasn't been flying pass either. maybe it's because as the hours pass, we soon arrive into a new day, a new month and even a new year. yet, our mind is constantly on the move and there is no exact way to calculate the amount of thoughts which has been processed and the amount of experience of a person. i don't expect anyone to understand what im talkin about cos i too don't. this is why i need another language. i think i've got a problem with expression. but really who cares, im flawed and so are you.
it's odd how everytime i mention about A level results, people tend to tell me not to worry. the thing is, i''m not exactly worried. im not worried not because i think i'll do well but i think i just do not feel extreme emotions which others feel. i tend to just feel for things at moderation. is there something wrong with me then? i really don't know. it just feels odd. i hate (one extreme emotion at least) it when people tell me not to worry coz i'll do well. firstly, im not worried and secondly, i know myself better than u guys know me. plus it's always better to be a little bit more pessimistic when it comes to such stuff. disappointments just sucks! sucks real bad!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
This place is warm without a care
Just when i was daaaaamn irritated with my teevee remote, my aunt and her family came! ((: I was so touched actually, cos it has been quite a long time since they last came. Anw, thank god we're not going bkk on the 15th cos my cousin will be getting married on the 15th of march. i just found out from my aunt. heh.yadayada.
ahsh!t. i think I'll be irritated/pissed with my TV remote again! okok..here's the story, yesterday i bought two Korean movies cos haha wanted to buy this movie called, seducing Mr perfect. so....we decided to buy 4 Cd's at $20! means 1 CD cost $5! cheap right..and i didn't mind spending my savings just for those Korean movies! -_- then, as soon as i got home i decided to watch the movie and guess what? there's like 2 voices in it laa. there's a Chinese and Korean version. so whenever there's any dialogue, I'll be irritated cos i can hear both language.. -_____- get what i mean? and to make things worst, i tried EVERY single method to get the Chinese version out and its STILL not working at all! plus my teevee remote is being such a toot! of all time lehh.. why must you stop working when I'm soo free now...?!??!? eeediiottt.. now i got nothing to do.. wanna watch movies? kay, lets see what i WANT to do.. see, i noe i know its a want, not a need. so I'll just say la.OK. heh.
1. Benjamin Button!
2. Slumdog millionaire.
3. He's just not that into you.
4. watch my KOREAN movies! hopefully.hah!
5. cycling
6. Zoo! (wahh.. I've been saying this over and over again. kkklah)
7. get hp pouch and mp3 cover
8. buy something... anything. hahahahaha.
9. eat roti john! heh
10. SAVE MONEYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
i think for now, i should just focus on no. 10! right.. and i need to STOP buying alot of food!
noe what..the most shocking thing i heard just now was, my aunt said i look fatter than my mum. whutttt..-_____- hahahahaha
eh, my mum face came out in manja magazine! small section abt food. cheyyyy.. da la kluar majalah, ada orang puji pulak.. kembang la dierr.. HAHAHAHAHA!
haiyaaa, i still have one last paper on friday. spoiler. haha.
now i forgot what i want to say. nvm..
12.1234.
i've taken a new liking to walking. it's fun really. i walked from paya lebar mrt to home just now. hahaha it's super duper near. i would love to walk from places to places if only the weather wasn't so humid and hot. i'll walk walk walk walk walk! wooohooo! sooo fun! whatever la im bored!
my march roster for work is like packed! im working like everyday!!! luckily i didn't take up another job! anyway, i think my phone bil for febis gonna cost a bomb! cos i accidently log onto gprs for god knows how many HOURS!!! mad yer know. like at ard 7am just now, i realised and so i called them but they only had saturdays records which by itself cost $20 when all i did was log onto msn for a tinny winny while and went to 2 websites!!! like kns! im dead! im gonna refuse to pay my bill man! i mean its not as if i really used it! im not gonna pay for something i did not use. buttt if they insist, im gonna boycot M1 forever and forever! THIS SUCKS!!! it always happens when i want to save money!! when i don't have intentions to save money, money just keeps flowing in from god knows where. bleah!
my march roster for work is like packed! im working like everyday!!! luckily i didn't take up another job! anyway, i think my phone bil for febis gonna cost a bomb! cos i accidently log onto gprs for god knows how many HOURS!!! mad yer know. like at ard 7am just now, i realised and so i called them but they only had saturdays records which by itself cost $20 when all i did was log onto msn for a tinny winny while and went to 2 websites!!! like kns! im dead! im gonna refuse to pay my bill man! i mean its not as if i really used it! im not gonna pay for something i did not use. buttt if they insist, im gonna boycot M1 forever and forever! THIS SUCKS!!! it always happens when i want to save money!! when i don't have intentions to save money, money just keeps flowing in from god knows where. bleah!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
I want to study but i cant.. aaarrrrghh.this sucks. can i just sleep and wake up on Friday..??!?! ha! idk what I'm talking about. neverrrrmind. have a great week ahead!
fcuk lah.isit a stupid idea if..nvm. i hate my ______.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
i think i've decided NOT to go kampung later.. ):
i dont know..!! i want to go but.. i know if i go, i wont be able to study there.
plus i thought of, what IF i do badly for my test..?! how how how..?
sorry mak posu and cik ros. i promise i'll balik after my common test.
I PROMISE k. ((:
for now, i'll study damn damn hard!
Library/airport.. here i come! HAHAHAHA.
kk bye!
i dont know..!! i want to go but.. i know if i go, i wont be able to study there.
plus i thought of, what IF i do badly for my test..?! how how how..?
sorry mak posu and cik ros. i promise i'll balik after my common test.
I PROMISE k. ((:
for now, i'll study damn damn hard!
Library/airport.. here i come! HAHAHAHA.
kk bye!
Friday, February 20, 2009
i got this from charms blog. it's funny and scary at the same time!! imagine what we've been taught as a child!!!! lucky im not the fairytale type!! hahahaha
Thursday, February 19, 2009
I'm supposed to be studying! like for real study-study.and that's the reason why i don't want to go online, or actually appearing offline. but!!! i dont know why i just loveeeeeee to distract myself! even if i got nothing to do, i will think of stuff that will make me not study. -_- oh god!! help.help. this is the most 'chill-est' exam mood I've been so far. i feel like knocking my head or someone please just knock my head.hah! common test is like this mondayeeeee!! wake up!! see la, i think its better if i gt advanced than promoted.then... i will take this common test seriously cos i wont want to get retain.haizz.. okok.bersyukur laa. and noe what, i did something stoooopid to my RIGHT thumb just now.daaaaamn... pain ehh.haaaa..! kklah, I'm just whinning here.sorry ehh.. hahaha.
.sometimes, its best to just keep quiet and pretend
.but then again.. sometimes you just need to let it out
.and then back to keeping quiet.. hahahaha.crap.
.saya suka simpan dalam-dalam, buat JERUK! sodaaap.. HAHAHA.
.sometimes, its best to just keep quiet and pretend
.but then again.. sometimes you just need to let it out
.and then back to keeping quiet.. hahahaha.crap.
.saya suka simpan dalam-dalam, buat JERUK! sodaaap.. HAHAHA.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
eyyy..i think I'm in a dilemma. i think? idk.. my grandma in Malaysia has been sick for quite some time already and my mum wants me to go kampung with her this saturday.. its NOT that i dont want to go or what..and since when i mind going kampung.. But the thing is, my common test starts this Monday! how...?? i just thought of using the weekends to study2. haiz.. i think i'll just have study hard this week.means i have 3 more days left. ahsh!t. and i'll be going batam next week! -_- for me to know, for you to find out. hahahahahahahaha. kklah.. bye.
Monday, February 16, 2009
ohhmy all the cop are freaking low. as in u'll need ultra good grades!!
http://www.smu.edu.sg/admissions/downloads/pdf/Samp%20Notif%20(SMU)%20COP%20FINAL%20with%20FAQs.pdf
http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/oad2/pdfs/COP.pdf
http://admissions.nus.edu.sg/sprogramme-igp.html
http://www.smu.edu.sg/admissions/downloads/pdf/Samp%20Notif%20(SMU)%20COP%20FINAL%20with%20FAQs.pdf
http://www3.ntu.edu.sg/oad2/pdfs/COP.pdf
http://admissions.nus.edu.sg/sprogramme-igp.html
Sunday, February 15, 2009
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
waiting on the world to change
sometimes, i just dont understand p.e.o.p.l.e. IF only we have superpowers, i think i would want to read people's mind. but then again, i dont think i would want to bother so much about people's life when i got so many things to think of.right. maaaaaybe, i would prefer to have... time travel superpower.then i can just go back in time whenever i feel like runnning away. easy. haha. but then again, why would i want to run away? thats not the way yo! naaah. haha.nvm.
never an honest word
i HATE it when people make assumptions about my family and friends without knowing anything first.i dont mind if they/you wanna talk about me, but not my family escpecially. what or who gives you the right to talk about my family and friends.and please stop making comparisons or whatever shit. just because you lead a better life than mine, (which i dont think so at all) it doesnt give you the right to look down on others.what are you trying to prove huh? no one is perfect.so you jolly well stop thinking you are better off than anyone in this world. my family may not be as well of as yours, but we do still have dignity. so,please dont talk bad about my family and friends cos u'll never know when karma will hit back on you. enough said.
oh God..im sorry.
sorry for complaining and posting it here.i will tell one day.maybe. haha.
goodnight(:
sometimes, i just dont understand p.e.o.p.l.e. IF only we have superpowers, i think i would want to read people's mind. but then again, i dont think i would want to bother so much about people's life when i got so many things to think of.right. maaaaaybe, i would prefer to have... time travel superpower.then i can just go back in time whenever i feel like runnning away. easy. haha. but then again, why would i want to run away? thats not the way yo! naaah. haha.nvm.
never an honest word
i HATE it when people make assumptions about my family and friends without knowing anything first.i dont mind if they/you wanna talk about me, but not my family escpecially. what or who gives you the right to talk about my family and friends.and please stop making comparisons or whatever shit. just because you lead a better life than mine, (which i dont think so at all) it doesnt give you the right to look down on others.what are you trying to prove huh? no one is perfect.so you jolly well stop thinking you are better off than anyone in this world. my family may not be as well of as yours, but we do still have dignity. so,please dont talk bad about my family and friends cos u'll never know when karma will hit back on you. enough said.
oh God..im sorry.
sorry for complaining and posting it here.i will tell one day.maybe. haha.
goodnight(:
Saturday, February 14, 2009
i'm feeling emotionless. weird coz the photos and some stuff i saved in the phone means alot to me. i would love to pray for a miracle but... not so long ago, i realised that maybe miracles do not exist. i would love to curse whoever who has taken my phone and has no intention of returning it but im afraid it would be like cursing my own family. 'so i guess i'll just have to live with it. everything supposedly happens for a reason right? that i've learnt too.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
eh ria if i don't get into uni, i might try applying for ur childhood dream!!! like cool or what! haha orrrr i can go become a childcare or kindergarten teacher! terrorize them! heh! joking only la! im not evil.
well, talking about childhood dreams, i had always wanted to become a doc i think. childhood seems so far away when u think of it now. like too far and blurry....though some memories are still very much vivid. those that are remembered are either the scary, sad or happy moments. the way the human mind works, how weird.
19 years of my life has passed, i wonder how much more there is installed for me. another 19? 50? 70? or maybe not even one. life as said is unpredictable. lets just live life to the fullest i'd say. don't plan too much into the future coz you know it'll never turned out as planned. no point scrimping and saving too much for the future coz u'll nvr know what will happen the next time u move or breathe. im not against the idea of saving, really, it's an asian virtue afterall but to save to the extend of depriving urself and others of joy and satisfaction or even hope, then maybe u should reconsider ur savings plan. give while you can to make others happy. that seems like a reasonable reason to spend money right? well this is just my one sided view. i don't need anyone to side with me. we are diff afterall.
we'll lets talk about the things/types of people i dislike since im sooo bored (tis not in order)
1. people screwing up my plans
2. people who speaks with double meanings (they think they're so smart and cool, NOT)
3. people who ask me things about myself i don't wanna tell (u can try asking once but nvr twice coz if i don't tell you the first time, chances are, u'll piss me off the second time u ask)
4. people who befriend you due to ulterior motives
5. irresponsible people (this has variations, i don't hate all) haha
6. spend money unnecessarily (haha, i just get irritated after spending)
7. screwing up my own plans (it's worst then people screwing u mine)
8. people who act like they know me soooo well but actually don't
okkk can't think of anymore.... hahaha little right?.. maybe there's more. cant remember
well, talking about childhood dreams, i had always wanted to become a doc i think. childhood seems so far away when u think of it now. like too far and blurry....though some memories are still very much vivid. those that are remembered are either the scary, sad or happy moments. the way the human mind works, how weird.
19 years of my life has passed, i wonder how much more there is installed for me. another 19? 50? 70? or maybe not even one. life as said is unpredictable. lets just live life to the fullest i'd say. don't plan too much into the future coz you know it'll never turned out as planned. no point scrimping and saving too much for the future coz u'll nvr know what will happen the next time u move or breathe. im not against the idea of saving, really, it's an asian virtue afterall but to save to the extend of depriving urself and others of joy and satisfaction or even hope, then maybe u should reconsider ur savings plan. give while you can to make others happy. that seems like a reasonable reason to spend money right? well this is just my one sided view. i don't need anyone to side with me. we are diff afterall.
we'll lets talk about the things/types of people i dislike since im sooo bored (tis not in order)
1. people screwing up my plans
2. people who speaks with double meanings (they think they're so smart and cool, NOT)
3. people who ask me things about myself i don't wanna tell (u can try asking once but nvr twice coz if i don't tell you the first time, chances are, u'll piss me off the second time u ask)
4. people who befriend you due to ulterior motives
5. irresponsible people (this has variations, i don't hate all) haha
6. spend money unnecessarily (haha, i just get irritated after spending)
7. screwing up my own plans (it's worst then people screwing u mine)
8. people who act like they know me soooo well but actually don't
okkk can't think of anymore.... hahaha little right?.. maybe there's more. cant remember
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
wet-ness-dey! heh.
for the first time in school, i slept in management class like nobody's business! i thought i could just pretend listening to my teacher, but, after he gave us 5mins break, dush! i slept all the way.ok,bedek. i woke up only when we had to do some group discussion.heh. after that my teacher came towards me and he thought something happened to me.oh god.. he actually saw me sleeping in class but didn't say anything.so paiseh..haha. After management, we had ht period and i realised that i don't even know what i want to be..!! in the end, i wrote this:
1.Entrepreneur (got to do with babies or childcare stuff??)
2.Landscape architecture!(ha! art dapat C6 pun nak draw2 lagi! hahaha.)
3.Penulis novel! (cheh!)
4. _______. (i shall not mention it here.i think some of you all know what it is laa..it has been my childhood dream u noe.. but!! nah..idk.perasan jela ehh..hahaha)
Yadayada. noe what, just now i gt cheated by the bubble tea auntie! ): i wanted ice honeydew sago. and in the end i got.... SANTAN/SUSU ICE BLENDED WITH SAGO AND PEARLS! wtfish. i think she forgot to put the honeydew essence or whatever it is la. cheat my feelings only.. haha.
reached home at 3.45pm and then Rann called.met her at suntec.walk2 around and we ate at PASTAMANIA! SODAAAAAP sekali. hahahahahahaha. reached home abt 9plus and no one's at home-again. but...!i was a happy kid cos my mum bought for me a bas. BASIKAL! LOL. ((: after that my sister and her family came.i just love my nephew so much.heh. (da besar, jangan jadi playboy okaaay.hahahaha!) anw..my mother brought home this butterkist microwave popcorn. ??? after microwaving it, i was like so jakun cos the popcorn was popping so loudly.ha! then.... i accidentally touched the paper bag, and blooodyediot.. it was so freaking hottttt! my wrist got burnt/heated for a while.i swear I'm not gonna touch any micowave popcorn anymore! hahahahahahahaha! and I'm supposed to study for mob test tmr!!! but my wrist still pedih.eeeyurr.. I'm sleepy but i cant sleep. oh no, i have 2.4 tmr! run like you never run before! run forest run! hahaha.lame. -_- kkk..i talk alot arr.stop complaining laaaa.ha! okaybye.
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for the first time in school, i slept in management class like nobody's business! i thought i could just pretend listening to my teacher, but, after he gave us 5mins break, dush! i slept all the way.ok,bedek. i woke up only when we had to do some group discussion.heh. after that my teacher came towards me and he thought something happened to me.oh god.. he actually saw me sleeping in class but didn't say anything.so paiseh..haha. After management, we had ht period and i realised that i don't even know what i want to be..!! in the end, i wrote this:
1.Entrepreneur (got to do with babies or childcare stuff??)
2.Landscape architecture!(ha! art dapat C6 pun nak draw2 lagi! hahaha.)
3.Penulis novel! (cheh!)
4. _______. (i shall not mention it here.i think some of you all know what it is laa..it has been my childhood dream u noe.. but!! nah..idk.perasan jela ehh..hahaha)
Yadayada. noe what, just now i gt cheated by the bubble tea auntie! ): i wanted ice honeydew sago. and in the end i got.... SANTAN/SUSU ICE BLENDED WITH SAGO AND PEARLS! wtfish. i think she forgot to put the honeydew essence or whatever it is la. cheat my feelings only.. haha.
reached home at 3.45pm and then Rann called.met her at suntec.walk2 around and we ate at PASTAMANIA! SODAAAAAP sekali. hahahahahahaha. reached home abt 9plus and no one's at home-again. but...!i was a happy kid cos my mum bought for me a bas. BASIKAL! LOL. ((: after that my sister and her family came.i just love my nephew so much.heh. (da besar, jangan jadi playboy okaaay.hahahaha!) anw..my mother brought home this butterkist microwave popcorn. ??? after microwaving it, i was like so jakun cos the popcorn was popping so loudly.ha! then.... i accidentally touched the paper bag, and blooodyediot.. it was so freaking hottttt! my wrist got burnt/heated for a while.i swear I'm not gonna touch any micowave popcorn anymore! hahahahahahahaha! and I'm supposed to study for mob test tmr!!! but my wrist still pedih.eeeyurr.. I'm sleepy but i cant sleep. oh no, i have 2.4 tmr! run like you never run before! run forest run! hahaha.lame. -_- kkk..i talk alot arr.stop complaining laaaa.ha! okaybye.
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Tuesday, February 10, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAYEE JUNE LIO SHU XIN!*sorry, abit late arr.heh*
iloveyouuuu..and the rest- two, three four
there's only ONE thing TWO do
those THREE words FOUR youuuuuuu..
ILOVEYOU!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (((:
"XOXO" TUNKU
Sunday, February 8, 2009
rashes sucks!!! ria now i feel you! damn it ar! i must have gotten it from yesterday!!! the unlucky but funny day! hahaha arhhhhhhhhhhh (screaming!!) hahahahaha funny ar and itchy! wth!
i've got work from 9 to 7 tmr!!! wth right?? like 10 hrs! hahahaha itchy! hmmmm and i got outbreak sia like break break break and rash rash rash = super bad mood! hahahaha actually not really.. im still quite happy and itchy! panthat itchy!!! hahahahahha anyhow! omg i need to sleep eh but cant! darn it! maybe it's seafood! anyhow la wth! maybe im allergic to colimix or brufen cos i was trying to figure out the difference between the two drugs just now! lalala watver la! it'll either just go away or rann will... hahahahaha itchy
itchy itchy scratch scratch itchy itchy scratch scratch!
im lying im not scratching cos it might spread! hahaaa
i've got work from 9 to 7 tmr!!! wth right?? like 10 hrs! hahahaha itchy! hmmmm and i got outbreak sia like break break break and rash rash rash = super bad mood! hahahaha actually not really.. im still quite happy and itchy! panthat itchy!!! hahahahahha anyhow! omg i need to sleep eh but cant! darn it! maybe it's seafood! anyhow la wth! maybe im allergic to colimix or brufen cos i was trying to figure out the difference between the two drugs just now! lalala watver la! it'll either just go away or rann will... hahahahaha itchy
itchy itchy scratch scratch itchy itchy scratch scratch!
im lying im not scratching cos it might spread! hahaaa
Saturday, February 7, 2009
i only crave mee pok from one stall! hahaha the one at the market near my house! hahaha
and june u're right!!!! a afternoon person will nvr understand! hahahahahhahah but i wanna wake up early too!!! but won't if i have nothing to do! heh!
so while june and ria has probably met up or are on their way to meeting up, im here at home typing away cozzzzz ive got direct bus to vivo and after the termination of our student concession, ive become super kiam when it comes to taking public transport! well i finally understand why ppl take taxi!! it's faster, more convenient and cheaper too when the cabfare is shared among a few ppl
hmmm what should i do now??? if i leave now, i'll probably have to walk around vivo alone, whicccchhhh isn't that bad an idea. i loveeeeeeeee walking alone! hahahahahahah fun i tell you! i'd rather spend time alone then to find a substitute or a second good to walk with me. hahahahaha im not a utilitarian, thus i do not use second goods!
ok another topic. haha im tying to kill time which well makes me a sinner. im no angel cos my names r a n n e s s a t a n.
anyway though this may not be exactly linked to ria's previous post but ive got something to say about how we might hurt others if we make things clear.
i hate it when i try to hint about something to save the person from feeling hurt and yet the person don't seem to understand. it's irritating.. like irritate the hell out of me!
ok i think i shall make a move nw! take a stroll! just hope vivo's not crowded! but saturday?? i doubt it'll be empty! another thing i hate??? ok la dislike! CROWDS! tis a reason why i nvr really like going for countdowns unless i like the company! hahahahahahaha
see ya!
and june u're right!!!! a afternoon person will nvr understand! hahahahahhahah but i wanna wake up early too!!! but won't if i have nothing to do! heh!
so while june and ria has probably met up or are on their way to meeting up, im here at home typing away cozzzzz ive got direct bus to vivo and after the termination of our student concession, ive become super kiam when it comes to taking public transport! well i finally understand why ppl take taxi!! it's faster, more convenient and cheaper too when the cabfare is shared among a few ppl
hmmm what should i do now??? if i leave now, i'll probably have to walk around vivo alone, whicccchhhh isn't that bad an idea. i loveeeeeeeee walking alone! hahahahahahah fun i tell you! i'd rather spend time alone then to find a substitute or a second good to walk with me. hahahahaha im not a utilitarian, thus i do not use second goods!
ok another topic. haha im tying to kill time which well makes me a sinner. im no angel cos my names r a n n e s s a t a n.
anyway though this may not be exactly linked to ria's previous post but ive got something to say about how we might hurt others if we make things clear.
i hate it when i try to hint about something to save the person from feeling hurt and yet the person don't seem to understand. it's irritating.. like irritate the hell out of me!
ok i think i shall make a move nw! take a stroll! just hope vivo's not crowded! but saturday?? i doubt it'll be empty! another thing i hate??? ok la dislike! CROWDS! tis a reason why i nvr really like going for countdowns unless i like the company! hahahahahahaha
see ya!
Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
i wonder why some people have the heart to do something that can be so hurtful and worst still, they don't even realised it.why..? is it that difficult to spare a thought for others..? or are you just being selfish?or, are you just being an ass? sorry. but i cant help it. sometimes i just feel like walking away when all these shit things happen but i noe i cant, no matter what. i just want a listening ear, but i know I'll end up not saying anything.cos, its just not right to tell people..right? and why would i want to bother people about all these things. ahshit.should i just keep my mouth shut?cos i know if i open up, things will only get worse.idk. crap. oh God..I'm sorry for finding YOU only when I'm in need.i promise to be a better person. They say bad things happen for a reason..and i wouldn't want to know the reason.
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
i wonder why some people have the heart to do something that can be so hurtful and worst still, they don't even realised it.why..? is it that difficult to spare a thought for others..? or are you just being selfish?or, are you just being an ass? sorry. but i cant help it. sometimes i just feel like walking away when all these shit things happen but i noe i cant, no matter what. i just want a listening ear, but i know I'll end up not saying anything.cos, its just not right to tell people..right? and why would i want to bother people about all these things. ahshit.should i just keep my mouth shut?cos i know if i open up, things will only get worse.idk. crap. oh God..I'm sorry for finding YOU only when I'm in need.i promise to be a better person. They say bad things happen for a reason..and i wouldn't want to know the reason.
hahaha typing our password always make me giggle because (HAHAHAH) i'm thinking how on earth would anyone guess of anything remotely like this. haha
anyway, i decided to blog because after everyone's post i had a "YA, OMG OMG ME TOO" response and i wanted to say smth. but i cant tag n tag n tagg the tag board right? or tada. anyway. RIA! I WALK INT HE MORNIGNT OO AND IT MAKES ME WANNA GO TO WK EVERYDAY. ITS SO FR4EAKING BEAUTIFUL! no person who wke up in the noon will ever experience quite the same thing. the mroning breeze, the leaves against the sky, you braving the chill but being very happy. the gravel on the road, with the trees make singapore feel diffeerent, the music or the lack or music sets the mood for the morning. walking back home is quite the same thing except its more serene and settled in the night.
and rann and her meepok, hahaha so familiar. hahahhaha
yea, thats about it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZARIFAH and world peace yo!
anyway, i decided to blog because after everyone's post i had a "YA, OMG OMG ME TOO" response and i wanted to say smth. but i cant tag n tag n tagg the tag board right? or tada. anyway. RIA! I WALK INT HE MORNIGNT OO AND IT MAKES ME WANNA GO TO WK EVERYDAY. ITS SO FR4EAKING BEAUTIFUL! no person who wke up in the noon will ever experience quite the same thing. the mroning breeze, the leaves against the sky, you braving the chill but being very happy. the gravel on the road, with the trees make singapore feel diffeerent, the music or the lack or music sets the mood for the morning. walking back home is quite the same thing except its more serene and settled in the night.
and rann and her meepok, hahaha so familiar. hahahhaha
yea, thats about it. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZARIFAH and world peace yo!
Friday, February 6, 2009
GOOOOOODMORNINGGGG!!!! lalala
haha
should i go downstairs to buy mee pok? haha cravings la!!
im tired of looking for jobs! cos for most interviews i go for, the pay is either too low or they aren't flexible with the timing which means that i can't take up that job along with my clinic job. sooooo too bad lor!!! i don't wanna quit my clinic job cos it's just not right taking up a job and quitting soo quickly. get what i mean?? it's not as if anyone at the clinic is being nasty to me so really there's no valid reason as to why i would wanna quit the job.
there was suppose to be the training for the *** tv sales promoter today but they somehow postponed it to next monday. lucky i msged the guy to double check cos if i didn't, i would have gone all the way to tiong bahru today! a wasted trip! sooo really lucky! well what pissed me off is that they didn't have the slightest courtesy to inform me! im fine la really coz at least they didn't screw up my plans. i'm really flexible with these last min changing of timing but just don't screw up my plans. so back to monday. i've got work on tht day. so how??? how to go for training? they just wanna piss me off but im fine coz im not soo soo into that job! haha they say they may reschedule another training day but ohwells, i shall be prepared to look for another job.
i need to save money! i have no idea how my phone bill went up to $80 this month! it's crazy! plus the bangkok trip and all! haiyoo maybe i should not have my mee pok. lalala... it's mee pok not mee pork! hahahahahah.boo! boo! boo! scared? haha anyhow .. going crazy
i've got a bruise on my feet!!! pain ar! blady hell! not leg but feet. u know that one tht wears the shoes and socks and slippers and sandals and and and yah la that one!
haha
should i go downstairs to buy mee pok? haha cravings la!!
im tired of looking for jobs! cos for most interviews i go for, the pay is either too low or they aren't flexible with the timing which means that i can't take up that job along with my clinic job. sooooo too bad lor!!! i don't wanna quit my clinic job cos it's just not right taking up a job and quitting soo quickly. get what i mean?? it's not as if anyone at the clinic is being nasty to me so really there's no valid reason as to why i would wanna quit the job.
there was suppose to be the training for the *** tv sales promoter today but they somehow postponed it to next monday. lucky i msged the guy to double check cos if i didn't, i would have gone all the way to tiong bahru today! a wasted trip! sooo really lucky! well what pissed me off is that they didn't have the slightest courtesy to inform me! im fine la really coz at least they didn't screw up my plans. i'm really flexible with these last min changing of timing but just don't screw up my plans. so back to monday. i've got work on tht day. so how??? how to go for training? they just wanna piss me off but im fine coz im not soo soo into that job! haha they say they may reschedule another training day but ohwells, i shall be prepared to look for another job.
i need to save money! i have no idea how my phone bill went up to $80 this month! it's crazy! plus the bangkok trip and all! haiyoo maybe i should not have my mee pok. lalala... it's mee pok not mee pork! hahahahahah.boo! boo! boo! scared? haha anyhow .. going crazy
i've got a bruise on my feet!!! pain ar! blady hell! not leg but feet. u know that one tht wears the shoes and socks and slippers and sandals and and and yah la that one!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
you know what,yesterday i lost my mirror that I've been carrying around with me since.. sec4?!
so sad laa. and just now only, i lost my handphone pouch! ahshit.in two days straight, i lost two things! sorry if this post is about me complaining so much, cos its not about having to buy the stuff again, its more of the sentimental value and stuff.. worst still, its not even mine! i bought that hp pouch for my mother and she didn't even get to use it cos my tangan gatal decided to borrow it first.she didn't mind me using it cos i actually lost my hp pouch earlier.ha! sape suruh dengar music tak habis2..abeh tak tahu jaga barang! dumbdumb. and that day also, i mean this week!! i forgot to take my hp in class! i left it on my friend's table and happily walked out of the class ehh..
Aini: Ria, where's your hp?
Me: Dalam bag arr.. wait..
Aini: abes ni ape? *shows my wonderful hp!*
Me: HEH! *malu-malu meow already..*
HAHAHAHAHAHA. why am i so clumsy and forgetful?? i think i need a P.A! as in pa. hahahahahahaha. lame.
anywayss.. i watched bride wars at JP just nw! i was so damn scared to smuggle in outside food! jakun ehh. heh.the movie's not bad though.. but lets watch the curious case of benjamin button!! kkk..(: and im in love with the stuff at JP2 or whatever u call that place.haha. there's sooo many nice notebooks and notebooks and files and stickers and luggage tag and many many more.hahahahaha. one day I'll bring you all there okay. Welcome to the west side and I'll be ur happy tour guide.cheh! hahaha. stooooooop it ehh.. LOL. oklah.I'm lazy to type already. no, actually I'm hungry.yadayada.
Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop'
Cause it's too much
so sad laa. and just now only, i lost my handphone pouch! ahshit.in two days straight, i lost two things! sorry if this post is about me complaining so much, cos its not about having to buy the stuff again, its more of the sentimental value and stuff.. worst still, its not even mine! i bought that hp pouch for my mother and she didn't even get to use it cos my tangan gatal decided to borrow it first.she didn't mind me using it cos i actually lost my hp pouch earlier.ha! sape suruh dengar music tak habis2..abeh tak tahu jaga barang! dumbdumb. and that day also, i mean this week!! i forgot to take my hp in class! i left it on my friend's table and happily walked out of the class ehh..
Aini: Ria, where's your hp?
Me: Dalam bag arr.. wait..
Aini: abes ni ape? *shows my wonderful hp!*
Me: HEH! *malu-malu meow already..*
HAHAHAHAHAHA. why am i so clumsy and forgetful?? i think i need a P.A! as in pa. hahahahahahaha. lame.
anywayss.. i watched bride wars at JP just nw! i was so damn scared to smuggle in outside food! jakun ehh. heh.the movie's not bad though.. but lets watch the curious case of benjamin button!! kkk..(: and im in love with the stuff at JP2 or whatever u call that place.haha. there's sooo many nice notebooks and notebooks and files and stickers and luggage tag and many many more.hahahahaha. one day I'll bring you all there okay. Welcome to the west side and I'll be ur happy tour guide.cheh! hahaha. stooooooop it ehh.. LOL. oklah.I'm lazy to type already. no, actually I'm hungry.yadayada.
Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop'
Cause it's too much
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
omgggg i've been going out the whole week la.... it's not going out going out but leave the house go out! wah irritating la.... tmr i still have to go out then on fri also and sat too.. i wanna stay home!!! all these leaving the house, taking the bus and train and meeting ppl and walking through crowds is driving me crazieeeee!!! i need time alone! well i think im secretly a loner!!! like the super loner type who can just be alone forever!!!! arhhhh... im not crazy, im just a little unwell! hahaha matchbox 20 songs are actually quite nice! blah blah blah!
im talking nonsense again!!!! well to whoever who reads this!!!! except to the chillak-ass! i hate it when ppl invade into my private space!!!! so pls dont even try to do so coz it'll only piss me off even more! i can tolerate nonsense and craps and practically anything on earth except this and rude behaviors coz they come in a pack! invading into my space= blady RUDE! .. kns! piss me off!!!! hate it sia! you see! this is another reason why i think im a loner!!!! lalala (btw im not acting cute arh!) hahahaha...
just when i was beginning to treat you as a friend, you had to piss me off! too bad for you then... sorry for the bluntness! that's just me!
im talking nonsense again!!!! well to whoever who reads this!!!! except to the chillak-ass! i hate it when ppl invade into my private space!!!! so pls dont even try to do so coz it'll only piss me off even more! i can tolerate nonsense and craps and practically anything on earth except this and rude behaviors coz they come in a pack! invading into my space= blady RUDE! .. kns! piss me off!!!! hate it sia! you see! this is another reason why i think im a loner!!!! lalala (btw im not acting cute arh!) hahahaha...
just when i was beginning to treat you as a friend, you had to piss me off! too bad for you then... sorry for the bluntness! that's just me!
i think from today onwards, I'll try my very best to sleep early! before 12am..? hopefully.. i cant possibly be sleeping around 1 or 2am every single day right.. i realised it gets very very tiring especially when I'm gg back home, cos I'll fall asleep in the train, even when I'm standing up!
*u noe its like u're awake, but u're not aware of your surroundings..its like you're in your own world* get what i mean.yadayada. actually, i hate falling asleep in the train cossss.. either I'll be in my 'trance/head banging' state or I'll miss my stop! -_- and after that I'll feel so cranky cos i still have to wait for my bus before i'll reach home. its not good to go home feeling grouchy u noe, like some pms woman.naaah.. Sooooo, the moral of the story is: Sleep early and start your day right! cheh. hahahahahaha.
AND AND.. i discovered a way for me to look forward to schl.. that is, to walk to school every morning instead of taking the bus! yay..! it feels freaking gooooood u noe.. i just love the sound of birds chirping and the cold wind blowing plus listening to my playlist-using my cacat phone.heh. hahahahahahaha. kkk..enough with my story.
sometimes, i wonder if I'm a hypocrite..am i?
i hope not.idk..
maybe, I'm just tired of..... alot of things.
maybe, what my brother said about me, is true afterall.
i don't have to bother about people's feeling all the time.
i don't have to bother about what people think about me.
i think, i just cant be bothered anymore..
so, please tell me if my words or actions ever hurt any of you all..
okk..
crap.don't bother lah.hahahaha.
Pagi itu indah seperti biasa
Tidur yang lena terhenti di sana
Layap kuyu masih tak terdaya
Bukalah tingkap mu curahkan cahaya
Siapa yang sangka
Bila tiba masa kita untuk pergi selamanya
Takkan terduga
Jika saat ini tuhan tentukan aku lah orangnya
Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu
Mungkin itu sementara..
*u noe its like u're awake, but u're not aware of your surroundings..its like you're in your own world* get what i mean.yadayada. actually, i hate falling asleep in the train cossss.. either I'll be in my 'trance/head banging' state or I'll miss my stop! -_- and after that I'll feel so cranky cos i still have to wait for my bus before i'll reach home. its not good to go home feeling grouchy u noe, like some pms woman.naaah.. Sooooo, the moral of the story is: Sleep early and start your day right! cheh. hahahahahaha.
AND AND.. i discovered a way for me to look forward to schl.. that is, to walk to school every morning instead of taking the bus! yay..! it feels freaking gooooood u noe.. i just love the sound of birds chirping and the cold wind blowing plus listening to my playlist-using my cacat phone.heh. hahahahahahaha. kkk..enough with my story.
sometimes, i wonder if I'm a hypocrite..am i?
i hope not.idk..
maybe, I'm just tired of..... alot of things.
maybe, what my brother said about me, is true afterall.
i don't have to bother about people's feeling all the time.
i don't have to bother about what people think about me.
i think, i just cant be bothered anymore..
so, please tell me if my words or actions ever hurt any of you all..
okk..
crap.don't bother lah.hahahaha.
Pagi itu indah seperti biasa
Tidur yang lena terhenti di sana
Layap kuyu masih tak terdaya
Bukalah tingkap mu curahkan cahaya
Siapa yang sangka
Bila tiba masa kita untuk pergi selamanya
Takkan terduga
Jika saat ini tuhan tentukan aku lah orangnya
Bila, aku sudah tiada
Simpan semua lagu ku
Jangan di tangis selalu
Mungkin itu sementara..
Monday, February 2, 2009
im suppose to be sleeping now cos i have to wake up early tmr but who cares la. im not sleepy so if i were to go to bed now, i would be tossing and turning like an egg in a pan! hungry sia. ohhhh lalala.
well i don't think this trust trust thing is the first we had in this blog. haha we did talk about it in some previous posts before but who cares! it's a new year new us, a new everything.hahaha anyhow sia.. like whatever (BIMBO)
i shall not not think so much cos that'll make me a bee aye am bee oh!
the trust post before this was well written. haha cos i feel you. any post that can touch it's audience is well written. hahahahah it touched me and so i feel it... im talkin crap man. like whatever! hahahah.. there's something wrong with me now. like keep laughing arh. i problematic. damn!
im just trying to kill time. it's like killing something precious..hmmmm does that make me a sinner? ohhnooo it's like killing an endangered species!!!! something which will soon be extinct! bleah! talking rubbish again.
booo!
well i don't think this trust trust thing is the first we had in this blog. haha we did talk about it in some previous posts before but who cares! it's a new year new us, a new everything.hahaha anyhow sia.. like whatever (BIMBO)
i shall not not think so much cos that'll make me a bee aye am bee oh!
the trust post before this was well written. haha cos i feel you. any post that can touch it's audience is well written. hahahahah it touched me and so i feel it... im talkin crap man. like whatever! hahahah.. there's something wrong with me now. like keep laughing arh. i problematic. damn!
im just trying to kill time. it's like killing something precious..hmmmm does that make me a sinner? ohhnooo it's like killing an endangered species!!!! something which will soon be extinct! bleah! talking rubbish again.
booo!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
I've been thinking alot these past few days, i think.there's just so many things left unsaid and i dont think i ever want to tell people what i've been thinking about.idk. i guess some things are better left unsaid right.
some strings are better left undone.Some hearts are better left unbroken.Some lives are better left untouched.Some lies are better off believed.Some words are better left unspoken.
but then again, guessing games don’t take you anywhere, it just adds to your confusion.and isnt it honesty is good.. so im not being honest with myself,my family and everyone around me? no. idk. and isnt it when we say some things are better left unsaid, it just shows that we dont trust the people around us, even our own family..?
By definition, trust means you are entrusting someone with a secret, a favor, a wish, a job, etc. Basically, you are giving up a little piece of yourself, a part of the control you have over your life, because when someone gets in that "circle of trust," they're also in a position to hurt you. They can expose you, or use that trust to rob, blackmail, con, or even clip you. So why would you be stupid enough to trust anyone to the point where their betrayal can cause some serious damage?
Ha! please dont get the wrong idea.im not saying that i dont trust anyone at all.i do trust a few people.(: this is just random.isit?heh!
anw my mother always remind me to remember this peribahasa:
jangan jadi macam ayam, bertelur sebiji, kecoh sekampung..
there's more actually, but this will be it for now. heh.
and if you all listen to malay song, listen to Hujan & meet uncle hussein.niceee..(:
Bila aku sudah tiada and lagu untukmu.
kaylah.have a good weak ahead! (:
some strings are better left undone.Some hearts are better left unbroken.Some lives are better left untouched.Some lies are better off believed.Some words are better left unspoken.
but then again, guessing games don’t take you anywhere, it just adds to your confusion.and isnt it honesty is good.. so im not being honest with myself,my family and everyone around me? no. idk. and isnt it when we say some things are better left unsaid, it just shows that we dont trust the people around us, even our own family..?
By definition, trust means you are entrusting someone with a secret, a favor, a wish, a job, etc. Basically, you are giving up a little piece of yourself, a part of the control you have over your life, because when someone gets in that "circle of trust," they're also in a position to hurt you. They can expose you, or use that trust to rob, blackmail, con, or even clip you. So why would you be stupid enough to trust anyone to the point where their betrayal can cause some serious damage?
Ha! please dont get the wrong idea.im not saying that i dont trust anyone at all.i do trust a few people.(: this is just random.isit?heh!
anw my mother always remind me to remember this peribahasa:
jangan jadi macam ayam, bertelur sebiji, kecoh sekampung..
there's more actually, but this will be it for now. heh.
and if you all listen to malay song, listen to Hujan & meet uncle hussein.niceee..(:
Bila aku sudah tiada and lagu untukmu.
kaylah.have a good weak ahead! (: