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Wednesday, March 31, 2010



Im in my own world ((:


hello. it feels long since i last post anything here and IF it feels long for me already, what abt the rest of u all? Longerrrrrrrrrr...except for rann lor.hahaha. anw,i dun really noe if im enjoying my life now.ha! everyday is just like a passing day for me.i have nothing much to look forward to and i kinda have my own set of routines nw.can we plan on a holidaaaayyyy soon?? i just wanna go somewhere.anywhere.

so this has been my routine for the past week,
-wake up
-get out of the hse by 9.15am
-walk2 arnd the pasar(idk why i have this habit of passing thru the pasar especially every morning,since my mi days! haha.maybe i just like to look at all those auntie2 buying their stuff and i love the 'morning smile' random people give u whenever u look at them. (: haha)
-then 196 will arrive arnd 925am
-sit at my usual seat
-blast the music in my ear
-look out of the window and dream of owning all those BIG BIG houses at Mountbatten rd and the one near pp (one day ria,one day)
-and after Mountbatten, i'll sleep! all the way to esplanade
-get down at oneraffles something, walk to oldchangkee, buy icemilo from the coffeshop and finally make my way to my workplace -.-

in between, i meet alotttttt of people! mostly guys and MEN! i swear this is the first time i talked/communicate to sooo many males! loser.i noe.hahahahaha. i hate it the most when some random angmoh enter the shop and start asking so many questions that i cant even answer.hello..in the first place, i cant even understand u..and sry lah,i just dun really like talking to ppl that i dont really noe. but despite all that, some people are reallyyy really nice..and nice to look at also.HAHA. my manager and accountant keep giving me food and bubble tea.at least that will make happy.heh. and today they gave me two swimming towel. -.- and sometimes after work, IF im not tired, i'll drop by pp and walk arnd.so ya loh.thats my working life,for nw. but usually im so tired that when i get home, i just want to sleep! hahahahaha. yay..this week is a short week! friday is public holiday. (((:
eh i lazy to type and i need to go down.my stomach's making noise.haha.bye!

Monday, March 29, 2010

as a response to June's ques..... i guess we're all too busy! haha well of course with the exception of ppl who have either a 7 day weekend or 5 days weekend 2 days work! hahahaha!!!
the rest of us who have a 7 day weekday or 5 day weekday aren't so freee... dam!!! hahaha i can't believe im looking for more things to occupy my already packed timetabe... sometimes.. well most of the time.. i think i'm psycho. pooft! (i should just disappear- random thought)

lalala!! yes yes lets go to lala land. im only blogging cos i refuse to do what im suppose to do. STUDY!!! DO MY REPORTS!!! DO MY ASSIGNMENTS!!! welll and maybe PLAN FOR TMRS TUITION.. anddddd ohyessss... WASH the DISHES! GO BUY DINNER! FOLD MY BLADY CLOTHES!! and IRON THEIR UNIFORMS!!! what else have i missed out??? probably all which i refuse to remember!

oh and i'm not stressing myself out, mind you... i HATE it when people tell me to not stress myself out... just makes me more irritated cos it makes me feel that im suppose to be stressed out but am not!!!! just sucks! so please please PLEASEEEEEE nvr tell me to not stress myself out. THANKS! anyway i'm kinda over reacting here. peoples words don't affect me much. i just like to exaggerate it. HA! one week down the road... i'll probably forget everything others have told me. have i ever wished that i remembered? well... maybe.

lalala... on a lighter note.. i feel no emotions yet again.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

hehhhhhhhh ((:
sry laaah,im bored.im gonna sleeeeep nw.goodnight.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010



(the video is abit too big eh.haha)
Anw,i used to watch her on oprah (alot!) and nw she's popular! i wanna appear on oprah tooooo...but whats my talent?nothing.noone will watch. ): hahahahahahahaha.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

some people in this world should just fcuk off.and i really mean it. i know that may sound harsh but after all the shit and the pain they've put some ppl through, do u think they still deserve to be in our hearts?
Hell no!
I just hope i wont have to encounter or cross path with such people ever again.yea,maybe thats the reason why its hard for me to trust some people.fcuk it lah.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

sometimes i wish i have no feelings at all,
at least i wont have to feel or be affected by anything.
and i dont only mean those lovey dovey kind of feelings.
i mean feelings as in general..
why isit so hard to explain feelings? why isit that most of the time ppl unknowingly hurt our feelings? and why do we hurt our own feelings sometimes?
that slightest bit of feeling in ur heart can either make u feel like shit or make u feel like a princess.or so i thought lah.haha.
i dont even know what kind of feelings im having now.bloody mixed up.usually when im having these kind of crap in my head, i'll just sleep and hope that i'll forget everything by the time i wake up. oh well,how i wish i can sleep easily now.. i need cough syrup.haha!
im not emo.must be the pms! i swear,must be the pms!
actually i dun really believe in pms and all, but now i do!
hahahahahahaha.
i seriously want/need to go on a holiday!!!! ):
or watch movies also can lah,since i got no money.
heh

Thursday, March 11, 2010

i've started bloggging again at my own~!!
which means i dun hv to tompang here with my rantings..
and it also means other things.
things that i'll leave to ur own assumptions
(:

There are 2 types of ignoring.
  1. Ignoring what goes on in the lives of people around you.
  2. Ignoring what is clearly in ure life, but u just dun hv the balls to do something about it.
yep.
OBVIOUSLY i'm gnna adopt the former.
or in other words..
jangan jaga tepi kain orang.
:D

i'm meeting riaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa today (in 30 mins shit!)
so call if anyone else wanna ok?

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

hello nessa.thank god ure online.cos im scared nw.hahahaha! and im still abit scared though u asked me to watch mr bean.haha.u noe what i need to do to let my mind wander off and NOT think abt ghost(hehh)? i need to talk to someone! anyone! but since there's no one that i feel like talking to nw, except nessa,blog also can laaahhh.haha. so next time if there's alot of my post on this blog, its either im scared and there's no one to talk to or im just confused and cant say what i wanna say in person.HAHA. anw, ive been watching alot of mr bean on disney channel, the biggest loser,asia and all those ASTRO shows in malaysia -.- syiokkkkk..everyday i wake up EARLY(cos have to mah), brush teeth, eat, watch tv, eat, sleep, wake up, watch tv, eat, sleep. and other responsibilities in between lah.hahahaha. i can grow fat if i stay on like this.heh.
i wanna say something, but im too lazy and i scared i'll end up deleting this post after that.so dunid lah.im so annoying.haha.


PS: JUNE LIO SHU XIN! IF URE READING THIS, U BETTER GET UR LAZY ASS AND UPDATE US ON UR TRIP AND UR WHEREABOUTS!
(i almost say if ure reading this,get a wifi connection... wth.if she's reading this,obviously she's online alr rightt.dush! hahahaha.dumb)

klah.i want to sleep and have a beautiful dream. i better think of nice nice things nw,cos i realised something,i always dream of the things i thought abt before i go to sleep.oh,that day i thought i was brave enough, so i watched some malay ghost story on tv and noe what? i had a bloody nightmare and i kept walking up in the middle of the night till my aunt had to sleep beside me! hahahaha.oh wow,i just scare myself,again.stupid. hahahahaha.
kbye.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

JUNE LIO!!!!!!!!!!
(:

hope ur hving a miiighty fun time in spain..
sight seeing..
food hunting...
killing ur brain cells..
getting hot spain boys to fall for ur small fren here..haha.JK!

WHEN U COMING BACK HUHH?!?!
am pretty sure u'll cm here the moment u get internent connection..
so update us on ur return flight details ok??

love u juneeeee
keep ur bag infront in crowded places ok!
take care!!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

hello hello? did i see someone wrote 'ria will be the first among us to get married'?
EH! what is this hurrrr? usually those ppl who keep saying they dunwant or they'll marry last, will end up being the first to get married u noeeeee..so u all better nt say u'll marry last.haha. i still want to study leh and its another 3-4 years.where got timeeeee..how sad -.- hahahaha.KIDDING lah! ehh..why are u all still talking abt marriage?who started it again arrr? and dian! that angmoh guy u showed me so nt hot lah pls.nw i noe what kind of boys u like.. NUM boys - chunky, hunky and muscular.like ulat! eww..hahaha! i still like wentworth miller.hehhh.. ((:

anw, i just wanna thank all my frens who were there for me for for the past few days,especially when my head was still stuck in the clouds.haha.im sorry if sometimes i complained too much be it on this blog or whenever i meet u guys.i noe i can be annoying and retarded sometimes.and maybe confuse all the time! hahaha.but from the bottom of my heart,
THANK YOU for just listening and for being patient with me.. ((:
actually most of all im thankful to god and my family.i noe i can never tell this to them,so i'll just say it here,at least i'll feel good.haha.everything happens for a reason.if its meant to be,its meant to be.

oh! JUNE LIO SHU XIN! its only like 2 hours since ure gone and I MISS YOU alreadyyyy!! ): wah, cant imagine 10 days! U BETTER TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND YOUR STUFF! DUN STONE AROUND TOO MUCH.hahahaha. andddd take nice pics of the clouds k! haha.
till we meet again..

goodnight (:


can't believe June's flying all the way to Spain right nowwwwwww.
SPAIN LEH OMG!!
lucky lucky girl.
(:

this is what i saw/discovered/encountered tonight
  • a grp of angmohs was praiiiiiiising SQ for sucha good flight they had, comparing it to another airline.
  • i think i saw a couple HEAVILY making out in a car at the carpark when i was walking home.
    **or mayb all de way redi?? haha.. de car was shaking man!**
  • if i walk daaaaamn fast, i wont perspire. but if i stop... thennn it strts.
  • alot of milk n staring at oily food at the same time makes me wanna puke.
  • i forgot to buy butter
  • no one else watches 7th Heaven -.-"""
    WHYYYY?!??!?!
  • my cuz predicted det i'll only marry or meet my husband at the ripeee old age of 29/28.
  • ria will be the first among us to get married. haha!
(:
oh yes..
more imptly..
  1. Denial - CHECK!
  2. Resentment- CHECK!
  3. Bargaining- CHECK!
  4. Depression- CHECK!
  5. Acceptance - PROCESSING...
((:


Friday, March 5, 2010

HAHAHAHA i'm such a fucking pussy. i realised i've hardly lived my life not seeing ANYONE of you for like ten days? since long long time ago. its always...someonee...somehow... in the middle of the week. and now im gng to tombouctou without ANYONE of you or my family. i know im twenty but im a fecking pussy. hahahahah i brought along picture of everyone in my luggage. hahahahaa talk about lemmmmm. but i think im reallyyyy really gng to miss you guys. especially if i do have fun. the closest to anyone fitting my luggage will be dian. HAHAHAHHA

anyway, tmr is the moment of reckoning. ALL THE BESTTTT RESULTEES. HAHA tillll tmr.... SUCH AN EVENTFUL DAY

AND I LOVE YOU ALL... FOREVAAA AND EVAAAAAAA. AMEN/AMIN. you gt the point.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

today is one of the days i don't feel extreme emotions but feel like blogging.
well well i've got so many assignments, test and presentations piling up and i'm starting to feel the load. but that doesn't mean that i'm starting to work harder. that's the sucky part.

soooo many things to do yet so little time. how often are we stuck in this situation?? all the time? ha
i can be studying or doing my assignment now but yes im not. why?? is that even a ques if everyone know the answer? haha lalala

i think i have lost the motivation to study because im no longer aiming for honours. the more i tell others that i'm not doing my honours, the more convinced i become. i have started uni determined to do my honours. i even wanted first class honours. now..... all i want is to quickly complete this degree and then finding a job. i know anyone who has graduated and is working would think i'm insane and naive but this is the how i feel right now. when u have lost your motivation.... this is what you get.

i know very well what my motivation was in the past. or rather, who motivated me to study. now im as lost as a sheep. hahaha! bahhhhhh! no more motivator means no more motivation. i know i managed to pull through a levels without my motivator but that was different. i didn't want to disappoint. now that i'm just me alone and with a whole lot of stuff on my shoulder and mind, i don't know if this is all that important. yea you might think i'm crazy... how can getting a degree or rather completing my studies be unimportant?

having said all these, i wonder if this is just a passing phase of thought. maybe one day i'd realise that i'm actually suppose to be doing science. maybe one day. but now i just feel like this is not my thing. dumb? yea maybe?? i've said this before. memory work is not my forte. i have no talent in memorising things. i need to understand them. maybe i was wrong maybe i am right. can someone give me an answer? i think im psycho. like seriously.


everything's gonna be alright.
everything's gonna be alright.
everything's gonna be alright.
....
help,i dont know what to do.if i have the power,i'd pause everything right now and..maybe run away to somewhere far.aaaahhhh..i noe that's just nonsense,cos no one can ever pause the time and i noe its stupid to run away.but how?? damn it,im just being childish.i noe i'll have to face it no matter how hard it is. tmr will be the judgement day.the day i'll start to wonder why i stupidly or gladly chose this path.the day that will determine my future and also the day that my father has been waiting for, for the past 51years..i dont even noe if im feeling nervous or happy. happy cos ive fulfilled his dream and nervous cos i dont even noe if that'll make him or me happy.there's so many things going on in my mind.i just dont know what to do or feel.
i need to go somewhere windy and eat alot of ice cream.at least that'll make me happy for now.ha!
fcuk it lah.




sometimes its hard to keep on running..

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

AYE DIAN I BRING A HOT SPANIARD BACK FOR YOU. hahahahahaha nicolette ask me to bring a hot spainard underwear home. tsk....teenagersss....i think the closest i'll get is if i see a super super hot spainish boy, i'll stop him in his tracks n errr. take hsi photo
? HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA


Drafts my loves (:

n btw..

RIA RAZIANY RAZAK N JUNE LIO N WHOEVER ELSE WHO'S GOING SHOPPING TODAY.
I'VE HAD LUNCH AND BREAKFAST N LUNCH ROUND 2.
AND MY LUNCH ROUND 3 IS COOKING.
WAD TIME WE MEETING AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


HELLO FRIENDS!

i'm so angry that i'm going to burst. NOW!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

duh. i'm carine

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

hey ho! i found these pictures in our photobucket! i forgot it existed.hahahaha.


RED COLOUR! hahahahaha.

when tab and zach were still so small and soooo shy..

hahahahaha.cacatttt. what were we cooking arr?

i actually forgot how u looked like with long hair.and then i found this!

miss chai and miss soo. hahahahaha.

wow..and now we're 20! diyyy! dun mia pls.. -_-

all scared got double chin! hahaha.

anw,true2! why is everyone talking abt marriage now huh? my frens were talking abt it also. hurrrrrr... -.- as much as i always say i wanna marry young,go to weird places for my honeymoon and have kids, (HAHA) im not soooo crazy about it. eee,pity that poor boy.hahaha. and they always say the more u say, the more it wont happen. so u seeeeee..haha.

ohhh,i watched my name is khan( KHHHAN, not HAN) thats what shah rukh khan always say in the movie.hahahahaha. guess where i watched it? BOMBAY TALKIES! -.-
it all began when my fren called me when i was still sleeping and asked if wanna match hindustan movie. so i just said ok cos i was still very sleepy.hahaha. the place is soooo weirdddd. and noe whats the funny thing?? they had INTERMISSION halfway thru the movie!! HAHAHAHA. wth.
but gooood also ar, cos i was getting damn restless.3hours lehhh...
anw lets watch ONE hindustan movie one day, okay?


Monday, March 1, 2010

eh wahlao eh!!
top bottom left right centre EVER RY WHEREEEEE
ppl are talking abt marriage.
we're 20 man!
the night is still young hunnehhhh
(:


heyyyyy!

Jetstar Bali airfare from 25th may-1st june is only $143 now!
with tax and the 2okg baggage. ahhhhh..so cheap.butttt..means hotel will be damn ex la.
Bangkok same date will be $158! wth.why now more ex..? haha.
then Phuket is the cheapest! its only $128. maybe cos alot of ppl scared tsunami might hit!haha.
if only i got alot of money,i'll just PACK MY BAG and go everywhere and anywhere i want!
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
not busted,chill uh..