always.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

hello.my butt hurts.haha.it really hurts.i dont even noe what i did for it to hurt this much.i cant even sit down properly.i have to lie down or sit in a very uncomfortable way and that sucks BIG time.i noe i loveeee to laze around and sleep,but this is just too much..aaaaaahhh!! and some stupid eApplication thing aint helping me either.somebody,helppppp! what more they want?! i typed everything correctly and checked a thousand times already,k exaggerate.but still...the closing date is this friday and if i cant get this done by today or tmr,i might as well live in this bleaghness f.o.r.e.v.e.r. hahahahahaha. ya,next time procrastinate somemore laaah-.- akjdfhsjkfalsafhj. you noe,i think i talk to myself so much these days that it scares me sometimes.hahahaha.oh wells..

P.S: I MISS YOU ALL! When was the last time we meet and just chill?? ): can everybody not get so busy pleaseee? I noe im the most FREE-est person on earth,haha.but can we just spare ONE day and meet?

Monday, September 27, 2010

500 days of summer (:

Friday, September 24, 2010

I'm so happy cause today
I found my friends
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, that's okay
Cause so are you
Broke our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday
For all I care
And I'm not scared
Light my candles, in a daze
Cause I've found God

I'm so lonely, that's ok

...

~~i need to find a new job.~~

~~i need to find more money.~~

~~i need to help my parents.~~

~~i need & want to go to school again. ):~~

~~i need to change my already screwed up bodyclock.~~

~~i need to get up early and see the sunrise.haha~~

~~i need to eat more icecream :D~~

~~i need to stop procrastinating.~~

~~i need to stop being so judgemental.~~

~~i need to stop being so emotional when it comes to sensitive issues.~~
~~i need to stop doing stupid stuff.~~
~~i need to stop taking cough syrup.haha~~

~~i need to broaden my perspectives.errr?nvm.~~

~~i need to get out of this never-ending BLEAGHNESS!~~

I need to have more FAITH & TRUST.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

katy perry's on sesame street?! hahaha

i was just bored at home.so i youtubED everything that could be youtube.haha

i miss listening to this song everyday last time

she's the BEST! haha (:

Sunday, September 19, 2010

halo......first of all,sry if i nvr reply any of ur msges, fb msges/tags, hanging msges, late replies or sound-like-i-cant-bothered replies.haha.i really do wanna reply sincerely bt sometimes i just dun feel like it or cant bring myself to it.its damn annoying cos when i get the bleagh mood(which i tend to have alot nowadays), i just procrastinate and push everything aside.its amazing how now i can even live without my fone.nt that i cannot live-live without it.its just that i think my life wont be of any diff with or without my fone.ok,maybe abit cos i still need my fone for games and music.haha.and of course for YOU ALL to msg/call me and make my life more meaningful.cheesycorny.hahahahaha. klah truth is, ive been daaaaaamn daaamn tired for the past few days.so many things i did and STILL yet to do.its so tiring that i dun even need my cough syrup to make me fall asleep anymore.HA! maybe for nw only.heh *cheers,dun get angry k* hahaha.klah, i wanna get off frm the comp and lie down cos im just lazy to sit up.and duh,im nt using a laptop.i wish arr.haha.kbyeee!

ohh ohh! for the past days, i went to Melaka's water world, underwaterworld (this time sentosa one.haha) and USS! i saw shrek and the castle!! so niceeeee.but sadly i didnt get to go in ): so many things to talk abt bt i very lazy nw.haha.next time lah.or LETS MEET UP SOON K! goodnight! (:

Friday, September 17, 2010

i need to be in school tmr at 8am to watch carpenter bees!!! like ohmannn!! i wanna sleep.. can't i watch them in my dream? darn it!! arhhhhhhhhh i can't sleep cos ive been waking up too late the past few days bahhhhhhhhhh

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

its been long since i was awake at 6am, n getting ready to get out of the house man..
and here i am, half dressed..blogging.. cos i cant believe this is how the next 2 years of my life is suppose to be.
scared nervous excited.
GAHHHHH!!

wish me luck man..
oh and please pray my face dont seriously get destroyed by makeup.
i mean i know la ya'll hv been wearing for a loong time n u'll say i'll get used to it..
hahaha
but right now it feels like my face kena cement.
hehhh :)

lovvyyalll! ((:

"At the end of the day,when it comes to it all, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them."

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Listen to this.NICEEE! make me wanna moveeee.hahaha

and no,im not in a mood for clubbing or somewhere along those line.heh

Sunday, September 12, 2010

there are days where i just don't want to fall alseep

I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

I want to go back kampung.should have just stayed there.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

i don't mean to be a spoiler
BUT......

i had never believed in fairytales.

hahahahahahaha!!!!!!

Monday, September 6, 2010

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales,that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress,prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill.You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith.Santa Claus,the Tooth Fairy,Prince Charming,they were so close you could taste them,but eventually you grow up,one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust.But the thing is,its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope,of faith,that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.."

hi.if there's one thing i could really do nw is that, i srsly need to go somewhere far and take a breather.and i guess it'll help alot too if there's someone, anyone, who would just listen.and no,its not that i can't/dont wanna tell you guys.its just that whatever mid-life crisis(haha)/feelings that im having now,it feels,kinda petty and i dont wanna bother ppl so much.you noe,lately,ive been putting alot of things off and just live in the moment.yea,i know it feels really good livin life like this.no school,no work(a proper kind), no worrying abt assignments or things ure supposed to do but didnt do,no having trouble waking up in the morning,no parents to constantly tell u whats right and whats wrong,no boy/girl problems,no strings attached(HAHA) and bla bla blaa..but at some point of time,u cant help but ask urself, how long will all these last? I noe that whatever actions/steps that we choose to take now sort of determine our lives and our future.isnt it scary?just the thought of it can make me put things off.haha.oh well,maybe the thing thats been making me to put all these things off is,fear. Fear of failure,fear of rejection,fear of just making a decision because,what if you're wrong? what if you're making a mistake you cant undo? what if? what if? it sucks and i suck for fearing so much.haha.u see,i dun even noe what exactly im complaining abt.i'll just leave it all to fate and faith (: and of course my rational mind,sometimes.haha

baaaaahhhh..this is what happens when i think and talk(type) too much! k,im gg back to my own dvd slumber party! hahahahaha

Sunday, September 5, 2010

can i marry him? (in my dreams!) hahahaha

oh wells.we all can live in our own fairy tales right..?