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Monday, October 25, 2010

it feels so odd seeing the post about not wanting to smile blah blah blah cos it's exactly what i felt the other day and it was exactly what i wanted to post  but decided not to spread that bad feeling.

but yes. i get that feeling time to time. sometimes i wonder if im smiling for others. maybe im a person who don't like smiling. smiling only because it makes living in this world a whole lot easier.

imagine if one day, i just stop smiling, stop talking, stop trying to be lame, stop acting lame. it would be odd wouldn't it? i mean people would start talking about it.

"what's wrong with her" "is she experiencing some problem?" "she never used to be like that""i think she's depressed""she's behaving so oddly"

but who knows the real me? maybe i am like that. maybe it is you who dont know me.

yea i wish to detach myself from the world

but i will not.

cos drama is not my thing