always.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

i hate it whenever we talk about LIFE!
as in not that i hate-hate talking about it,
but I'm just scared and freaking uncertain over the future.
there's soooooooo many damn things to think about.
maybe not 'damn' things but... I REALLY DON'T KNOW.
sometimes, when u really think deeply about your life-back then and now, about your surroundings, about money and wealth, about your loved ones and about your future, it really makes me think that whatever shit problems i have now is actually NOTHING. i think partly that's the reason why i try to avoid having problems as much as i could.why?!?! dont we all have enough problems? cant people just live in peace and love one another.isit that difficult? its not as if im asking for money or attention from everyone. i noe its difficult when it comes to this kind of things.cos like what we always say "different people, different" yaa. i noe.. sometimes i really don't want to grow up. all those commitments, responsibilities and wise decision making..i don't think I'm prepared for all those-yet.idk. i wouldn't want to commit something and end up braking my commitments.just imagine you were the one in that situation.. idk. people always tell me not to bother so much about other people's feelings..cos it might hurt me. I'm TRYING. heh! *erm.i don't like to use the word hurt.ha! * eeeeeeee...idk laa.
lets just thank God for everything. (: okay.
Ehhh.. this post is going to timbaktu already!!!! hahahahahahaha.nvmm...
don't bother okaykay.i just want to let it out.cheh. hahahaha.

my throat hurts fcuking badly!!! and some ppl can just ROT. HAHAHAHAHA!
sape makan babi dier memang macam babi! hahaha!
see ya! i got class nw. (:

Monday, March 30, 2009

i went to mad jack and island creamery with the kiddos today... hahaha..
i dont know if i made a right choice choosing science. what if i regret it after i get accepted? or what if i regret it after im months or years into the course? what should i do then? maybe i should do really well and then try to get into gms or maybe do another major in say, psychology or business. hmmm fickle fickle me. irritating piece of shit. haha being fickle sucks... i wonder how i can be fickle and stubborn at the same time....

so TGIF on friday??????? yeah? yeah??? okay?? okay??hahahaha im FREEEE and AVAILABLE!!!! hahahahahaha

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Berakhir sudah Awang Belanga Bingkisan Lama.. ):
I'm kinda sad that its over but I'm daaamn happy that i don't need to stay back in school till 9pm everyday! ((: hoooray!
thank you my friends for everything!
especially to Hahahahahayati, Tabung Ajie, Zahidah bluetooth and Fafaaaa for all their nonsense and merepekness. *merepek=nonsense right?? -_- *
thank you to my backstage crew, Azie, Zahidah, Zul, Suhaimi, Hafiz Y, Hafiz R, adik Hafiz Y, Handry and Kamal for all your help. (:
thank you MCS people who helped me in one way or another throughout this whole week.
thank you Sarah Adnan and Taufiq for the HAPPY MEAL!
*i got a spiderman leh* lol.
thank you Juntot, Sgt Zaki and Najibadak for the supper! it feels goood to have a good company with good food when u're tired and sleepy! cheh..hahahaha.
thank you Fahmy and Syukri for helping me to get back home safely when i was stuck at BB with no bus and train left.sry ehh..hahahahaha.
yadayadayada..
THANK YOU TO ALL! (:
sry if i didn't mention ur names here, you guys are in still in my heartt..
cheyyyy.. hahahahahahaha. *shuttuplah*
okaaaaayee. enough with my thank you post.. -__- hahahahaha.
haiz, i got to start doing my homework nowww.. ): *yarright..*
FOCUS FOCUS!
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cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

You've got this new head filled up with smoke

hello.i just came back home.and I'm damn tired and smelly and sleepy and for the first time, I'm NOT feeling hungry! haha. this week, I've been going home late and its really really very tiring..its like,straight away after school, i have awang belanga training all the way till 9+pm and by the time i reach home, it'll be almost 11 and i'll be too tired to even do my homework.this sucks so badly cos i have tons and tons of homework to do by this week! and I'm lagging behind in class.i think. they always say don't worry cos the best is yet to come but naaah.. idk. my grandma just got admitted to hospital cos she's suspected to have blood _____. idk..... ): everything's gonna be alright..okay. and some bugger passed to me his/her cough. -__- greaaaatt..
anw, i left school earlier cos i wanted to visit her and i didn't regret visiting her.i noe I'm not really close to my father's side and didn't/don't really like them, but after all, she's still my grandma and they're still my family.i noe..
Dear god, please give my family,my grandma,my friends and me the strength and courage to make it through each day. please help the lonely people in the world that they may be comforted when they need comfort. Let them be loved when they need love, and let them be helped when they need help.and please help me to take time out to spend quality time with the people who are most important to me so that they will know that they are special in my life. i promise I'll pray for my grandma and those around me and I'm sorry if i ever contradicted my words especially when I'm in school. i cant help it. i just wonder why some people behave a certain way.i wonder why some people want to create more problems in their life. please, spare a thought for others.thank you.
haiz, i really don't want to complain so much here..but,nvm laa.. please don't think that I'm a sappy or emokid nw.cos I'm not. hahahaha. i just want to.......... LAUGH IT OUT! hurrrr..-_- kiddinggg... (:

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

i wanna tgif this fri butttt ive got work!!!!!!
gross!
work from thurs to sunday.....
we can go out on sunday night!!! coz my work is in the morning on sunday......

heyo june! remember that we have the freestyle drill championship thing on sat morning alright. hahaha...u forgot about it right???? hahaha

should i commit myself to the clinic work after uni starts? i have to decide soon cos the doc said he'd increase my pay if i can but of course, more pay comes with a greater scope of work such as stock taking etc. from about $5 to about $8 or the very least $ 7 i think. hmmmm i should right??? but what if i decide to quit halfway? i hate to make choices! hahaha omg what if i dont even get into uni???? wah siao! hahaha

alaaaaaaaaa..i'm so BORED.
bleaghhh.

i went down to get butter but knn de shop damn rippoff loh!
$4.50 for butter?!?!?!
siow.
whose milk they use oso duno.
haha.

ANYWHOOOO~
i feel like making those scone/biscuit thingies u get at Popeye or KFC.
just a trial n error thing.
we'll see how well dis goes.
(:

actually dis kind of stuff, by right shud be on my blog la..
BUT THIS BLOG IS DYING.
so dian saves de day.
((((:

Friday night.. DINNER ANYONE??
coscoscos..

i miss fri night dinner. i think we missed abt 2-3 weeks redi!
i miss youuuuuuuu~
i wanna get some chillaka lovin' b4 i fly off la.

hahahah.
aiyah. i hvnt eat breakfast la.
figues de grumbling drum.

ok loveliess~
take care k?
MUACKS!!

dianloveyoumanymany(:

Sunday, March 22, 2009

RATCHATEVIIIIIIIIIII...

I AM HAVING WITHDRAWAL SYNDROME.

i think. haaaaaaaaa..

I MISS BANKCOCK! ):

i wanna say more but I'm sleepy and tired and sad.

maaaaa!!! can i marry a Thai boy and live there?

but please no tuktuk uncle though. i say NO NO NO..hahahahaha.

I'm gonna sleep and dream of tuktuk and those Thais who keTUK us!

hahahahahahahahahaha.

goodnight people. (:

It's not a bird, not a plane

It's my heart and it's going gone away..

hahaha

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

SMILE (:

tomorrow will be a better daye!

see yaaaaaaa!!!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

14th March - 15/16th March : Im going kampung. (:
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18th March - 21st March : WE ARE GOING BANGKOK BABY!!! ((:
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pray that we'll be save..ok.
hooray hooray bergembira...
HA HA HA HA.. LA LA LA LA LA..
BERGEMBIRA..

Some people just LOVE making a mountain out of a molehill.

HAHAHAHAHA!

My mum always remind me to do good to people and treat others as how you would like to be treated. ((:

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"Life is very short.And there's no time for fighting and fussing my friends."
-The Beatles

Friday, March 13, 2009

i got scolded by a patient today!!! hahaha can't blame her really cos well firstly, she's sick! and secondly another patient did kinda jump Q. heres the story, the clinic today was kinda very busy and so there was a patient who left without telling and when i called for her name, another patient went in instead. thus the confusion which led to that girl scolding me. it was kinda partly my fault too so i cant fully put the blame on her but she has no right to scold me too! thus, i was angry! hahaha sounds comical now. im at peace now cos im between the line of blaming myself and the line of hating her. lalala this is just a very short and edited version of the story. there was more to it but lazy t type la! hahahaha

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Love each other or perish (:

Would i regret the secret i had kept hidden?

We're so wrapped up with egotistical things, career, having enough money, meeting the mortage, getting a new car, fixing the radiator when it breaks-we're involved in trillions of little acts just to keep going. So we don't get into the habit of standing back and looking at our lives and saying, Is this all i want? Is something missing?

You need someone to probe you in that direction. It just wont happen automatically.

Money is not for tenderness, and power is not a substitute for tenderness. You cant substitute material things for love or for gentleness or for tenderness or for a sense of comradeship.

If you hold back on your emotions- if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them-you can never get to being detached, you're too busy afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.

Forgive ourselves for all the things we didn't do. All the things we should have done. You cant get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened.

Make peace. You need to make peace with yourself and everyone around you.

How we feel lonely,sometimes to the point of tears, but we don't let those tears come because we're not supposed to cry. Or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we don't say anything because we're frozen with the fear of what those words might do to the relationship.

-Tuesdays with Morrie

now i feel goooood.. don't you? hahaha.

ok. I'm supposed to go polyclinic in the morning, but I'm scared of the doctor! fish laa. haaaa.

kkk. just go luhh.. good luck to me! hahaha.

if any of you will be around pp or lib, just msg or call me OK. (:

while that post seems like something i'd say, it's not written by me. hahaha but i do agree that problems are self created. like really! think of all the prolems u've encountered in the past, aren't they all self made? or at least exaggerated by ones ownself.

lalala

im settled on taking science in uni! hahahaha like finally made a decision. i wanna do forensic! hahaha

Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now, as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my ~~friend~~, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

Face down in the dirt!
She said "This doesn't hurt!"
She said "I finally had enough!"
One day she will tell you that she has had enough

fcuk.fcuk.fcuk.fcuk.fcuk.im such a fcuker for calling u a fcuker.
but i cant help it already.god has greater plans.iknow. ufcuker.

Hello!!
quick fast update.

dian will be working at

IT Fair, 12 - 15th.
Apple booth lvl 4.

SOOOOO...
if anyone wanna get some apple products, come to MEEEEE!!!
hahahaha..
chillak-a or anyone of u kind souls who reads dis space.
(:

large part of pay is by commision, u see..
so hehh(:
do ure part for de Dian Association hokay?
(((:

i'll treat u to a nice cup of unpretentious kopi or teh k?
hahaha.

so go! tell ure friends!
wanna get apple products??
COME FIND KECIK!!!
hahahahahaha.

okbye.
ngantuk laaaaaaaaaaaa.

dianloveyoumanymany(:

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

We make lots of unnecessary mistakes in life. Are we stupid? Or are we immature?
Or are we actually right but the people around us are just making a fuss about it till we think that we are the ones making a mistake?
Sometimes, we may feel overwhelmed and it is as though we have no one and no where to turn to. But that doesn't mean our lives sucks and it can be really irritating when people think that they are the only ones having a problem. please spare a thought for others. do you know that there are so many people in this world who are worst off but they just don't show it? i think most of the time, our problems are actually self-create. our life is already complex as it is.so why must people make life more complicated? and why do we tend to compare our lives with others lives? so many questions left unanswered. They say everything happens for a reason but do we really want to know the reason if its a bad reason? as hard and painful as it is, everything will pass by sooner or later. Faith is all we need.

dear god, I'm sorry if these days, i forgot the power and comfort of prayers.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Listen to your voice...............

Well, above all, the hottest has got to be my boyfriend, Muhammad Taufiq bin Zulkefly! Hahaha! Together, we make a great team at annoying people aka the chillak-a. :)

Ok ok, I'm kinda enjoying the holidays, being so damn free to come and go anywhere and everywhere! In about 15hrs time, I'll be at Jurong Point. The land of the free people with nothing better to do! And oh, you know the new mall at Tampines, Tampines 1? In all it's bloody awesomeness, there'll be a Topshop/Topman and Dorothy Perkins and those high-end retail shops, as well as a Cold Storage. Wahaha. How do I know all these? Wikipedia, dok! Heh! Whee-ooh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holidays~ Tralalallaalla~ HOLIDAYS!

Robert Buckley is...

NOT my imaginary friend.
He is alive and kicking and very REAL hokay!
HOT LIKE MADMAMDMAD!!

great wardrobe aside, he's my main reason why i'm addicted to LipstickJungle.
**shows like these.. cnnot watch during fasting month. **
iman tergugat u noe!
hahahaha.

anywayyyyy..
this is the very hothothothot Robert Buckley.
NO ONE tissue papers him ahhh..
((:

HEEEEEEEE((((:

u tell me det body's not hot. tell me? tell me? HAH! lol

and all decently covered up?? LAGI HOT.
hahaha.

and my favourite?

my FIRST crush...and ahem! Princess ~~Dian~~ Jasmine.
**still crushing, btw((:**

HAHAHAHAHAH.
its very nice to dream.
some dreams do come true u noe..
though not entirely.
(:

i grew up head over heels in love with Aladdin.
and i madly wanted to be Princess Jasmine.
petite..independant..SEXAYYYY!!
hahah.

and Aladdin is like the prince i read in my fairytale books.
tall dark handsome..
saves damsel in distress..

bonus??
got magic carpet n genie summore!
**and hv u ever looked at the Sultan??? like teapot!!**
SO CUTE!!

so yes.
i'm STILL in love with Aladdin..
and one day, i want to be Princess Jasmine.

terimakasih.

dianloveyoumanymany.

(((((((:

Monday, March 9, 2009

THIS POST WILL BE A VERY PERASAN/ BERANGAN / DREAM ON POST.
heh.. i think i am maaaad these few days.. i thought of getting married at this age! hahahahahahahaha. kan senang..live a happy life with ur loved ones..hahahaha. that's if u find the correct partner.heh! Its okay to dream as long as you know where to draw the line.i think. hurrrr..yadayada. haha.
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FIRST NOMINATION: TI!

"This is TI and his SON! ((: " Ria Raziany Razak thinks he's not damn hot but thinks that he's attractive and has nice eyesssss..! hahahahahahahahaha. ilovemelaTI! and Sarah can have him cos i have his hearrrtttt.... aaauuuuwwww.. *go and die la ria!* LOL. ((:

SECOND NOMINATION: PASHA-Ungu

This is PASHA from Ungu. Ria thinks he's HOT! hahahahahaha. and when he sings, wheeeeeee...((: BUT.. he's married. and i don't want to ganggu rumahtangga orang. cheh! -_-
and bad point: he beat his wife i think.. Dayus. NOoooot gooood.. ): HAHAHAHA.
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THIRD NOMINATION: MEN IN UNIFORM

HAHAHAHAHAHA. this is crap.. i just like to look at men in uniform.not like-like.. but get what i mean.idk. i bet I'm not the only one here.. right june! hahahaha.

ehhhh.. where's my jason mraaaaaz?? HAHA.
okokokokok. enough laaa.. i got nothing better to do isit...dream dream dream. heh.
there's greater things in life. for now.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

This is TI. Sarah Adnan thinks he's damn hot. First. Before Ria Raziany Razak. Yay! Hahahah!

:D :D :D

Friday, March 6, 2009

I'm feeling so fcuking RESTLESS and i don't know why..
i have to be at RP by 10am tmr??
i think i should just get some sleep and forget everything.
good idea? ok.
so long.goodnight. (:

I'd rather run the other way than stay and see

Thursday, March 5, 2009

We're just one big family (:

for the FIRST time in my entire education life,

.......

I SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAYYY.

hahahahahahahahahaha.

( LOOOOONG ENTRY.heh! )

I was late by a FEW SECONDS!!! *not even one minute lehhh..*

damn 941.. no.thanks to the stooopid idiotic inconsiderate tak berhati perut bus driver!

*memang takde perut pun.cos i saw him putting minyak angin when i boarded the bus! ??! HAHA!*

IF only he could just open the daaaaammmn door... we wouldnt be late!

the bus behind 941 opened the door even when the bus stop is like much more further away..

so those people who boarded the bus behind 941 ran to the school gate and they were on time

while we were still stuck inside the bus!

even after someone rang the bell continuously,

he still REFUSED to open the door until we reach the bus stop! kns.

okokokokaaaay.. cant blame the bus driver entirely also.. my fault for waking up late.

anw, thank god i saw my p.e. friend in the same bus and she convinced me not to go to school!

*diaaaan..u're right. i have an easily influenced mind! ): *

so no matter what excuses we give, we will still have to go for detention till 6pm.

CANNOT... hahahahahaha

i don't want to have any detention record for this year.. not anymore.

I'll try my best.heh!

so, the both of us went back to the bus stop and boarded the first bus that came

macam faham je.. i don't even noe where the bus was going..

we wanted to go to the poly clinic at jurong west but ended up at jurong east!

hahahahahaha. so my smart friend said we could take the train to boon lay.

but we took the train all the way to JOON KOON!??!?!

Joon Koon is a short form for JAKUN people in school uniform. hahahahahaha!

and know what..

she actually doesn't know where's the poly clinic and jurong point. *dush..*

ended up it was me who brought her around jp.. -__-

i think i was being so paranoid cos every woman who looked at us,

i keep thinking that they're mi teachers.hahahahaha.

then we had KFC breakfast. waffle and egg meal. SODAAAAP..! haha.

ilovebreakfast in the morning. *duh..takkan petang*

it feels gooooood having sedaaaap breakfast while all the year3's are having p.e and busy running like mad dogs in school.

*ok, not mad dogs laa.so mean.cos I'm part of the schl also.HAHAHA*

oooohhhhhh...please come to jurong point one day..the new one. its so nice.

i mean the notebooks and all.go to the basement and you can see alot of stuff.ok,maybe for me.

i bought a mini organiser from artbox.cos i need to constantly remind myself! hahaha.

we left JP around 12plus

noe what..i leaned on one cikopek apek in the train!!! haaaaaaaaa..

i woke up and he looked at me with that disgusted/cheeky face.

eeeeediottt..i swear i wont sleep in the train anymore.. ok, not swear.I'LL TRY!

kklaaah.. i gtg. meeting junaidah soon!! ((:

sorry ehh.. if i could i want to bring all of my friends..

who ask you all not to meet me..?? hurrr..hahahahahahaha.

rann: we meet u later k! you stay so near.. heh.

there's no combination of words..

it's thursday 5th March!!!! hahahahah guess what tht means??? eeyur i got goosebumps! hahahaha.... i've got no work tmr!!!!
HOORAY FOR ME! come on...... tht's not the point btw.
then it'll be 6th March! i've got no work too!!!!! coz i got someone to take over my shift! haha. what's on on 6th March??? omg!!!! im feeling all quessy! lalala! trying to avoid the topic but then again trying not too!! hahahaha crazyyyyy!

am i sleepy??? i don't know cos once i lie in bed, i won't sleep until 3 plus or sometimes even worse. irritating, tht's what i'd call it. screwed up body! darn darn damn!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

So live your life..........

I'm living my life as a bum right now.
Korean drama serials, Heroes, Gossip Girl, Grey's Anatomy..... and so many many more!
Hehe HAHA HAOOOAHAHAOHAOHAOHAOA!!!

ok dah Bye! :)))

Why don't we sleep all, sleep all day, sleep all, we sleep all day over..

And it takes no time to fall in love

But it takes you years to know what love is

It takes some fears to make you trust

It takes those tears to make it rust

It takes the dust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la la life is wonderful

*really?? haha*

Maybe someday, someway, somehow, sometime..

migraines sucks! firstly, coz it makes my already heavy head heavy. second, it makes my face look spastic and cramped and third coz it hurts bad! bleah migraines! why do they even exist? they cramp up my head and numb it at the same time! get wat i mean? i feel like removing that part of my head. irritating!

this week is a packed but empty week. it's happening yet not. don't bother to understand what im saying cos i don't!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Your destiny may keep you warm.

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you've never been
But all the things that you've seen
They slowly fade away

So I'll start a revolution from my bed'
cause you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

*put your hands up and sing along..! hahahaha*

And so, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a rock and roll band
Who'll throw it all away..

this is crap.i got nothing better to do,i think.
haaaaaaaaaaaaa..i wanna go somewhere and screaaaaaamm my lungs and eyeballs out..!
not that I'm angry or sad.idk. i just need to screaaaam.cos i don't feel like complaining and complaining. but its stupid to scream at the breakwater or cover my mouth with a pillow! i need a .......... ROAD!with lots of speeding cars at night. right rann?? hahahahahahahahahahaha.
maaaaaaaaa....!!!!!!!!!
OK! enough.
BREATHE IN........ and HOLD! HAHAHAHA.
anw, i think alot of random things have been happening lately..
this morning while i was otw to school, i sat beside one year 1 or year2 mi boy. i was actually reading my book but after a few pages i fell asleep.standard.haha. halfway through my sleep, suddenly i felt that my right shoulder was heavy.i woke up and realised that the guy who was sitting next me was leaning on my shoulder cos he was sleeping like a pig. -_- hahahahahahaha. his head starts to creep towards my shoulder.closer and closer he gets until he jerks back to the starting position.its like a cycle! i didn't want to embarass him so i pretended to sleep also.*actually not pretend cos i really went back to sleep.* heh. so when we reached jurong east, i had to sloooowly move my right arm so he'll get the hint to GET UP and its time to GET OFF THE TRAIN YOU PIG. LOL. after that, we avoided each other cos i think he was embarrassed. hahahahaha. stooopid boy.i know how he felt cos i always lean on people's shoulder too! hahahahahaha.
anw, the next thing was, i fell asleep-AGAIN in the school library.
AND I WAS SLEEP TALKING!!!! omggg.. so paiseh..! first thing, we were in the library and duh, it was daaamn quiet. second thing, my friends heard what nonsense i was talking about. i wasn't talking, i was just making stupid noises i think! HAHAHAHAHA. LOL.
yadayadayada..

I should get some sleep
because tomorrow might be good for something..

Monday, March 2, 2009

A level Results will be released on Friday 6 March! hahahaha. pardon me for being kan chiong.
http://news.asiaone.com/News/Education/Story/A1Story20090302-125500.html

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Menarilah dan terus tertawa
Walau dunia tak seindah surga
Bersukurlah pada yang kuasa
Cinta kita di dunia (: