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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
im so bored that im playing restaurant city! so much for 'im gonna ignore restaurant city request!!' hehh.. Diaaaan and Saraah!! i made the both of you and my gp teacher my chef,waiter and cleaner! but most of the time u all are my cleaners! ma'm,very good! HAHAHAHAHA. but its kinda irritating cos must wait so longgg to earn money and upgrade my restaurant.. -__- im getting tired of waitinggg so im gonna go downstairs and borrow dvds, buy bubble tea and chokolat and maybe go ecp.haha. andandandd my next paper wil only be on next tuesday!! so im freeeee-at least for a while. anw, i think i made a stupid and rude remark just now.my friends and me were about to eat at syiok when i saw this pakcik and i called him michael jackson cos of his _____ errr..daaamnn.im sorryyy.i wasnt thinking when i said that.hehhh. and u noe i wanted to laugh so badly in the train cos my friend reminded me of that stupid thing i said.but duh, i cant be laughing to myself cos i was aloneee.kns.haaaaaaaa... a lesson learned. next time remind me to think before i say anything ok.haha. ok bye!
Monday, June 29, 2009
gosh... i'm soooo bored!!!! there is so many things that i'm suppose to do but simply refuse to. the thought of having so many things to do just makes me wanna do nothing at all. i'd rather just sit infront of this laptop and do nothing then to do things like clearing the room, hanging the clothes, washing the clothes, mopping the floor. washing the dishes, ironing the clothes.. yes basically.. housework! dam i seriously have to change this BAD habit of mine! its 29th July 2009 (2354hrs) now. i shall change this bad habit on 30th July 2009 (0000hrs).
i've got driving tmr and my test is next month but i've got this very bad feeling and i don't know if i'd pass. oh goshh i hate going for test when it matters and im not confident that i'd pass. sucks big time.
i've got driving tmr and my test is next month but i've got this very bad feeling and i don't know if i'd pass. oh goshh i hate going for test when it matters and im not confident that i'd pass. sucks big time.
where the hell is our tagboard ah?
haha.
dianloveyoumanymany(:
haha.
dianloveyoumanymany(:
Sunday, June 28, 2009
i.am.s.c.a.r.e.d.... and I'm not kidding.
i should stop thinking so much and stop thinking about others. i think,i shouldn't bother so much about sensitivity cos i realised, not everyone is like me. sometimes,its okay to tell the truth even though the truth will hurt.righhtttt...but then again,sometimes,its better to just leave the truth hidden.or maybe I'm just used to it. anw,someone irritate the shit out of me just now.so much for trying to be nice.haha! and it makes me more conscious of the people around me and who i can trust.im sorry if i dont trust alot of people,its bcos of.....some things that is better left unsaid.haha.
i'd rather run the other way than stay and see
i should stop thinking so much and stop thinking about others. i think,i shouldn't bother so much about sensitivity cos i realised, not everyone is like me. sometimes,its okay to tell the truth even though the truth will hurt.righhtttt...but then again,sometimes,its better to just leave the truth hidden.or maybe I'm just used to it. anw,someone irritate the shit out of me just now.so much for trying to be nice.haha! and it makes me more conscious of the people around me and who i can trust.im sorry if i dont trust alot of people,its bcos of.....some things that is better left unsaid.haha.
i'd rather run the other way than stay and see
Saturday, June 27, 2009
time is running out
anw...
The total number of confirmed cases now stands at 365!!
This includes a new cluster of three cases at Pulau Tekong Camp, all of whom are full-time national servicemen.
*seeeee..all those who have their matair in tekong, (which i bet there's alot of them.right saraaah.heh) will be a sadsad matair and they will be affected too..! *
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
oh god..please knock some sense into MOE's head and let them extend the school holidaysss..pretty pleaseeeee.. I'm saying this for the welfare of the society. ((: hehh.. and for for those dodo's like meeee who don't want to go back to school cos they have yet to studyyyy for their exams! hahahahaha. kaybye!
Friday, June 26, 2009
i'm throwing away the pieces,
bits of what you left behind.
i'm finally putting it away,
but is this what i really want?
tell me this is not the only choice,
and i'll gladly put everything back.
fix the pieces together,
make it whole again.
i never knew that the junks in my room can fill up 6 garbage bags. hahaha and trust me, there's more to clear. i dismantled the whole toy cupboard and threw majority of the things inside. i still need to clear the shelfs. gosh i'm gonna take another day! darn!!!!!
bits of what you left behind.
i'm finally putting it away,
but is this what i really want?
tell me this is not the only choice,
and i'll gladly put everything back.
fix the pieces together,
make it whole again.
i never knew that the junks in my room can fill up 6 garbage bags. hahaha and trust me, there's more to clear. i dismantled the whole toy cupboard and threw majority of the things inside. i still need to clear the shelfs. gosh i'm gonna take another day! darn!!!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
patience..i need to have more patience.pls tell me how am i supposed to face this? sometimes, it feels like we're living in a world of denial.fcuk it lah.i dont want to think about it. but, for how long can i pretend?i feel like a freaking hypocrite or a pretender, maybe im just used to it.haa.. i always wonder why life is so unfair?its not my choice right.. why my ___ is like this? why must __ caused ___ so much pain? why am i so damn emotional sometimes?? i noe im not supposed to ask or question god.im sry. but sometimes, i hate myself for forgetting God whenever im angry or feels that life is unfair. i need to have more faith.i will.. anw thanks kecik for reminding me.i love you and im gonna say this, i love you all too.and idk how to say this to face to face or even thru the fone..hehh.but, thanks so much for being there for me and sorry if i always complain to you all abt my stuff.thank you for just listening(: haha.breatheee deep2 and smile!
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
patience..i need to have more patience.pls tell me how am i supposed to face this? sometimes, it feels like we're living in a world of denial.fcuk it lah.i dont want to think about it. but, for how long can i pretend?i feel like a freaking hypocrite or a pretender, maybe im just used to it.haa.. i always wonder why life is so unfair?its not my choice right.. why my ___ is like this? why must __ caused ___ so much pain? why am i so damn emotional sometimes?? i noe im not supposed to ask or question god.im sry. but sometimes, i hate myself for forgetting God whenever im angry or feels that life is unfair. i need to have more faith.i will.. anw thanks kecik for reminding me.i love you and im gonna say this, i love you all too.and idk how to say this to face to face or even thru the fone..hehh.but, thanks so much for being there for me and sorry if i always complain to you all abt my stuff.thank you for just listening(: haha.breatheee deep2 and smile!
life is a crazy thing
goodnight.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
dian will so love this. haha!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
With certain people, you just can't keep high hopes for. So I'm not crestfallen or disappointed, just used to it. :) No hard feelings whatsoever.
25 minutes till clock out.
my house is in a total mess and i seriously need to do some clearing up!!!! i live in a junkyard!!!! im serious! shit la!!! why why whyyyyy!!!???!!??? eeee!!! okay i shall clear up tmr! think positive!!! :) :) I LOVEEEEE CLEANING TH HOUSE!! i do okay! just don't like it messy after that and then having to start off again! haha madness in the house!! arhhhh!!
bleah!
bleah!
i just dont know who you are
Semalam I call you, you tak answer.
HAHAHA.thanks to SOMEONE i'm stuck with this song.
ediotttt.... hahahaha.kns.
Monday, June 22, 2009
sumtimes ppl should just watch the words they say.
stop taking forgranted the close knit ties u have wif a person as though
it gives u the right to hurl shitload of sarcasm at her.
friends aside, EVERYONE has feelings, u noe.
**************************************************
must be de hormones, but i mean it.
think back n recall those times u conveniently let ur tongue slip..
and unknowingly hurt others with ur words.
once or twice.. sure, u can say its a joke, or mere teasing.
but enough's enough la.
next time, look in the mirror first before u speak aite?
**angstyangsty. but a girl has to vent went she needs to((:**
dianloveyoumanymany(:
stop taking forgranted the close knit ties u have wif a person as though
it gives u the right to hurl shitload of sarcasm at her.
friends aside, EVERYONE has feelings, u noe.
**************************************************
must be de hormones, but i mean it.
think back n recall those times u conveniently let ur tongue slip..
and unknowingly hurt others with ur words.
once or twice.. sure, u can say its a joke, or mere teasing.
but enough's enough la.
next time, look in the mirror first before u speak aite?
**angstyangsty. but a girl has to vent went she needs to((:**
dianloveyoumanymany(:
Sunday, June 21, 2009
moveeee along
i want to eat ice-creaaaaaamm... ):
haaaaaaaaaaa...
.
.
should i overnight at airport tonight?idk..
anw,its father's day.
isit wrong to hate someone u love?
or once loved?
i noe we should forgive and forget, but i guess im a bloody sensitive person.
its easy for me to pretend, but its hard for me to forget everything.ah whatever.
fathers day. HAHA!!
hate? love?
why is it so difficult to differentiate the two? it is so easy to say that you once loved a person so does it mean that you don't love that person anymore? what has the person done to change it from love------the in between-------hate? i'm stucked and we probably all are cos we are people brought up to be incapable of hating... no matter how much we say we hate a certain person. we know deep down inside that we don't know how to hate. not even the slightest clue... this puts us in pain because we know that for what he has done... he is not to be forgiven, much more loved! we end up being stuck and lost until one day.. maybe one day...
hate? love?
why is it so difficult to differentiate the two? it is so easy to say that you once loved a person so does it mean that you don't love that person anymore? what has the person done to change it from love------the in between-------hate? i'm stucked and we probably all are cos we are people brought up to be incapable of hating... no matter how much we say we hate a certain person. we know deep down inside that we don't know how to hate. not even the slightest clue... this puts us in pain because we know that for what he has done... he is not to be forgiven, much more loved! we end up being stuck and lost until one day.. maybe one day...
Theres a lot of things I understand,
And theres a lot of things that I dont want to know..
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away..
And theres a lot of things that I dont want to know..
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away..
its so easy to say tht u hate a person, only to realise afterwards that u are incapable of hating.
why is it that despite a person repeatedly hurting you, u just don't seem to be able to hate them? it becomes harder when there is familiar links because no matter what, there is no way you can break off ties with the person or at least avoid them..
it's a different story when that person is not related to you at all because there is a choice and when you realise that you are not treated the way you should be treated, you either tell the person and make sure it gets into his head or break off from him!! never ever tolerate a user or a manipulator. YOU WILL REGRET IT IN THE FUTURE! such people should never be tolerated, really... i don't know how to put this in words but i guess different people just have different experiences in life and certain things or people just gets on their nerves more than it does on others.
i know it's difficult. yes of course it is to break off or avoid someone you love. this is a reason why many would advice that you learn to love yourself first before loving another. the reason is not so that you would know how to love others but to know the limits of your love for another. if the person doesn't appreciate or treasure you the way u should be loved, then he is not worth it!! NOT AT ALL!!! such things are easier said then done because again, others say love is blind. you see... it is easier said than done but that does not mean that it is impossible to do... a blind can never see but he can find his way of surviving. nothing is impossible...
why let a person manipulate you when you can avoid it?
this is all i've got to say now although there's a whole lot more i just can't put to words...
why is it that despite a person repeatedly hurting you, u just don't seem to be able to hate them? it becomes harder when there is familiar links because no matter what, there is no way you can break off ties with the person or at least avoid them..
it's a different story when that person is not related to you at all because there is a choice and when you realise that you are not treated the way you should be treated, you either tell the person and make sure it gets into his head or break off from him!! never ever tolerate a user or a manipulator. YOU WILL REGRET IT IN THE FUTURE! such people should never be tolerated, really... i don't know how to put this in words but i guess different people just have different experiences in life and certain things or people just gets on their nerves more than it does on others.
i know it's difficult. yes of course it is to break off or avoid someone you love. this is a reason why many would advice that you learn to love yourself first before loving another. the reason is not so that you would know how to love others but to know the limits of your love for another. if the person doesn't appreciate or treasure you the way u should be loved, then he is not worth it!! NOT AT ALL!!! such things are easier said then done because again, others say love is blind. you see... it is easier said than done but that does not mean that it is impossible to do... a blind can never see but he can find his way of surviving. nothing is impossible...
why let a person manipulate you when you can avoid it?
this is all i've got to say now although there's a whole lot more i just can't put to words...
when everything seems like the movies
Diaaan's bdae (overdue) pics.haha.
i didn't want to upload all these pics on fb cos...
i think the whole world will be able to see what we did!
errrr..i think u all get what i mean also.
hahahahahahaha.
juneee! i wont upload all ur 'glam' pics here laah.
don't worry. (:
you want, you ask me online.heh.ok.
i think the whole world will be able to see what we did!
errrr..i think u all get what i mean also.
hahahahahahaha.
juneee! i wont upload all ur 'glam' pics here laah.
don't worry. (:
you want, you ask me online.heh.ok.
.
.
.
HAHAHAHAHA!
meet my ex-boyfriend, Mr Meng.
i 'sumpah' him after we broke off and he became an ugly AH MENG!
heh heh heh.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
we'll play jacks and uno cards
i think my brother should stop bringing home new movies(dvds) every single day cossss... I'll end up watching them! you noe,almost every night I'll check my dvd player if there's any interesting movies and I'll secretly watch them.ok.not so secret anymore.hahahaha! anw,if you guys have the time, go watch 'a moment to remember.' k. its some korean movie though.hehh. don't blame me lah, I'm a sucker for sappy movies.especially korean movies.hahahahahaha! and you all still owe me one korean movieeee!!!!!! rememberrr...since sec 4??! ): i promise i'll love anyone who'll bring me to the cinema to watch korean movies.HAHAHAHA.kiddingggg! anw,i watched that movie last night cos i thought the movie will make me fall asleep,but nooo..! i ended up crying like a baaaabyyy! hahahahahahaha.kiddingg.but reallyyy,it feels like i cry myself to sleeep! -_- haha. go wiki the synopsis lah.cos im lazy and tired. kklah.im supposed to just talk abt the movie cos im watching seven pounds now.hehh.goodnight.goodnight. (:
Juneee,pls remember to wake me up!!!terimakasih mak june.hahaha.
OHHHHH!!
Juneee,pls remember to wake me up!!!terimakasih mak june.hahaha.
OHHHHH!!
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY VANESSA CHOOPSS ((:
Don't be naughty naughty k.
iloveyouchoobeng!
hahahahahaha.
Don't be naughty naughty k.
iloveyouchoobeng!
hahahahahaha.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Everybody's changing
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
this is a better title and post.i guess.hahahahahaha. wahh.im so bored,i can just carry on blogging till morning! haha.maybe i should create my own blog.but then again..naah. i dont and wouldnt want to tell people everythingg.i noe i can make it private and all, but nvm.. anw,speaking of change..i agree with diyy!!hahaha.and another thing is, i just dont understand why some people can hurt others so easily..? like, why are there 'bastards' who love taking advantage over someone's weaknesses?? im referring to both guys and girls.ha! and I'm not saying this to defend myself,but for the people i love. i guess.hahaha.haizz..
lets just leave this hanging.we're not living in a fairytale.HAHAHAHA.
rubbish.kbye!
lets just leave this hanging.we're not living in a fairytale.HAHAHAHA.
rubbish.kbye!
My First Post
oh goodness.this is my veerrry first post and yes, I'm kind of quite excited about the this firstt entry of mine.oh wells, I've gt nothing in mind to rant about. like seriously. my mind is as blank as a piece of paper and my stomach the making a whole lot of funny noises. it sounded the trumpets blowing the off tunes.i'm super hungry :(
oh yea, i came across something today and i felt that it was rather disturbing to me. I know that i shouldnt be bothered about it but still something just makes me want to know why. Why do people get confused about their identity and who they are? why cant people stay the same all the time and remain the same person for who they used to be? why do changes have to come around? why do people change due to the influence of others? i don't really like the changes made and i guess i would prefer the old you and i feel that people should remain strong for who they are and shall not follow the direction of the wind at any point of their life. anyway, my opinion wouldn't matter and make a difference to any amendments.
Random.
I know.
Its just something this empty brain wants to share.
Afterall, its not that empty.
oh yea, i came across something today and i felt that it was rather disturbing to me. I know that i shouldnt be bothered about it but still something just makes me want to know why. Why do people get confused about their identity and who they are? why cant people stay the same all the time and remain the same person for who they used to be? why do changes have to come around? why do people change due to the influence of others? i don't really like the changes made and i guess i would prefer the old you and i feel that people should remain strong for who they are and shall not follow the direction of the wind at any point of their life. anyway, my opinion wouldn't matter and make a difference to any amendments.
Random.
I know.
Its just something this empty brain wants to share.
Afterall, its not that empty.
f.c.u.k
hahahahahahahaha.what a title! sorry, but i just feel like saying that.ah fcuk laaahh.i need to start studying properly but i have no freaking idea why i cant seem to even open my book! haaaaaaaa.fcuk.fcuk.haaaaa.omg.i should stop cursing.why sooo vulgarr..?? this is baaad.real bad..hahaha.but I'm not cursing at anyone or anything.im just saying fcuk to the whole situation I'm in now.and i noe that by saying fcuk 17384769 times also,it wont change the whole situation or make me feel any better.maybe i should just change the word fcuk to.....fish! -_- lame.haha. sometimes i dont know whats wrong with me.maybe i should see a shrink!anyone wanna follow??hahahahahahaha.
you noe i was thinking, i dont want to dream anymore, cos it will.....hurt.ah shutup.but then again, i cant stop myself from dreaming.tell me why am i so fickle...? on second thought, don't tell me cos the truth hurts. HAHAHAHAHA! omg.I'm talking nonsense..
ohhhhh...!! my fren just said maybe school holidays will be extended 1 more week!! idk if he's just making fun of me.but who cares. oh god, pleaseeee...extend the school holiday for another week.. that will be my only wish-for nowww. ): please.please.please. lets all pray for that k.. and lets pray for all those suspected cases. world peaceee. hahaha.
so close,so far.
you noe i was thinking, i dont want to dream anymore, cos it will.....hurt.ah shutup.but then again, i cant stop myself from dreaming.tell me why am i so fickle...? on second thought, don't tell me cos the truth hurts. HAHAHAHAHA! omg.I'm talking nonsense..
ohhhhh...!! my fren just said maybe school holidays will be extended 1 more week!! idk if he's just making fun of me.but who cares. oh god, pleaseeee...extend the school holiday for another week.. that will be my only wish-for nowww. ): please.please.please. lets all pray for that k.. and lets pray for all those suspected cases. world peaceee. hahaha.
i forgot!
ANYONE, PLEASE GIVE ME A WAKE UP CALL FROM TMR ONWARDS!
I PROMISE I WONT REJECT.
I'LL JUST IGNORE IF I REALLY CAN'T WAKE UP.HAHAHA.
ANYONE, PLEASE GIVE ME A WAKE UP CALL FROM TMR ONWARDS!
I PROMISE I WONT REJECT.
I'LL JUST IGNORE IF I REALLY CAN'T WAKE UP.HAHAHA.
so close,so far.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
it feels like yesterday when u were still here.
telling me what to do, giving me directions.
a blink of an eye and u're gone forever.
gone like the wind, blowing away from me.
never coming back, never gonna return.
dispersed in all directions, disappearing.
telling me what to do, giving me directions.
a blink of an eye and u're gone forever.
gone like the wind, blowing away from me.
never coming back, never gonna return.
dispersed in all directions, disappearing.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
my ear piercing hurts. ): thanks to my beloved brother. -_-
he wanted to wake me up, cos i kept snoozing my alarm on a Sunday morning.
its not my fault that i cant wake up right..
i just need alot of ppl to keep calling me till i get tired of it.haaa.
but NOT like the way how my brother ALWAYSSS wake me upp!
he threw my pillow on my face!! where my piercing is! you noe i wouldnt get angry if there wasnt any piercing there,cos thats how i wake him up also.hahh
i swear one day i'll take all my pillow and throw it right to his face.HAAA...!
i feel so childish.but who cares. hahahahahaaha.
and the pain got worst cos i tripped and bang my ear against a pole just now.
whats new right..wahhhhhh.paaaaaainn...! fuggerrrr.
i wanna sleeep but i cant.i'll tryyyy to wake up early tmr and go to the LIBRARY!
I NOE I CAN..! haaaaaaaaa.
he wanted to wake me up, cos i kept snoozing my alarm on a Sunday morning.
its not my fault that i cant wake up right..
i just need alot of ppl to keep calling me till i get tired of it.haaa.
but NOT like the way how my brother ALWAYSSS wake me upp!
he threw my pillow on my face!! where my piercing is! you noe i wouldnt get angry if there wasnt any piercing there,cos thats how i wake him up also.hahh
i swear one day i'll take all my pillow and throw it right to his face.HAAA...!
i feel so childish.but who cares. hahahahahaaha.
and the pain got worst cos i tripped and bang my ear against a pole just now.
whats new right..wahhhhhh.paaaaaainn...! fuggerrrr.
i wanna sleeep but i cant.i'll tryyyy to wake up early tmr and go to the LIBRARY!
I NOE I CAN..! haaaaaaaaa.
Monday, June 15, 2009
im so bored.... all i can think of is eating... i had 3 donuts, a slice of cheesecake, a slice of pizza, 2 spicy drumlets, some random nohiang thing and fish cake and weird things and of course my dinner and lunch.. didnt wake up early enough for breakfast! hahaha and the thing is.. i'm still craving for pizza... he lavacrust one... and and and omggg a good yummy steak! darnn i feel like ransacking my kitchennnn!!! but too lazy la..... i still want donuts too..eeee ... ohohoh i gained 2kg since err last month? hahahahaa ok u seeeee im bored!! and getting super random....
ahhh lalala.... hello and bye bye
to add on to the list... just ate an apple pie, nuggets and a mcfluffy... hahaha
ahhh lalala.... hello and bye bye
to add on to the list... just ate an apple pie, nuggets and a mcfluffy... hahaha
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it
2weeks left before June hols end.2weeks left before...
I'm scared.idk.idk and i don't want to knoww.crap.
sometimes i feel like running away.but i noe that wont solve anything.
sometimes i feel like a loser cos i don't want to face my own responsibilities.
its not that i don't dare.its just, nvm... and i noe I've told u all a billion times already,
sometimes i just feel like getting married and be a housewife! ha!
i noe u all will say get a good bf first! -__-
but then again..i don't think its that easy.i wouldn't want to bring someone into unnecessary problems and cheat their feelings unless I'm really sure of the person and myself first.it really takes a lot of time to earn that trust,i think. there's alot more to this,but I'm just too lazy to say.lets just don't bother..ha.
gooday.
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it
2weeks left before June hols end.2weeks left before...
I'm scared.idk.idk and i don't want to knoww.crap.
sometimes i feel like running away.but i noe that wont solve anything.
sometimes i feel like a loser cos i don't want to face my own responsibilities.
its not that i don't dare.its just, nvm... and i noe I've told u all a billion times already,
sometimes i just feel like getting married and be a housewife! ha!
i noe u all will say get a good bf first! -__-
but then again..i don't think its that easy.i wouldn't want to bring someone into unnecessary problems and cheat their feelings unless I'm really sure of the person and myself first.it really takes a lot of time to earn that trust,i think. there's alot more to this,but I'm just too lazy to say.lets just don't bother..ha.
gooday.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
i figured, after today's lil swing a swing session and every thing that has been thrown in occurrence, its about time to let go.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
sleep is now no longer a want... it's a need. if i could choose, i wouldn't want to sleep. if i could, i would wonder the roads alone at night. if it is possible, i would travel the world ALONE. no one to stop me. no one to hold me back. no one to hold me down. no one to restrict me. that is the life i want. i need to be free. it's not a want. i need to and have to be. FREEEEEEEEE.............. life without freedom is no longer livable. it's just wrong. the idea of someone controlling me is unimaginable. i just can't seem to buy that idea... i have to break freeeee... no cage to trap me. no hands to hold me down. no one to say NO!
the idea of someone controlling my life is repulsive... i'm saying this now.. not knowing if one dayyy i'd be a trapped bird. but i do know one thing for sure.. i will try to break free.. i've seen te torture of being trapped and i don't want to experience it. no not me.. never!! or so i hope...
goodnight
the idea of someone controlling my life is repulsive... i'm saying this now.. not knowing if one dayyy i'd be a trapped bird. but i do know one thing for sure.. i will try to break free.. i've seen te torture of being trapped and i don't want to experience it. no not me.. never!! or so i hope...
goodnight
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
our hopes and expectations, black holes and revelations
first of all, its such a waste of my time.
just now during malay lit, i was practically doing nothing but doodling on my paper and playing games on my fone.ok.abit. and half of the time, i was dreaaaming awayy. my teacher talks about things that we already noeee since year one! im not trying to say that im smart or what..but reallyy..its killingg me..and whats the point of going to class when some of my 'smart' classmates just want to show people and my teacher that they have actually studied and they just keep rebutting each other's point.i come to school not to listen to discussions or whattt.shit lah.i rather wake up early and go to the lib rightt.at least i'll be more focus and i noe i'll studyy.i need to start studying properlyyy.u noe im daaamn scared actually but i just pretend im not.fcuklah.sometimes im so angry with myself. i keep distracting myself with idk what also.and im not saying u guys are my source of distraction.nt at all.haha. its just that sometimes when im so motivated to study and all, my mind will just wander off for a moment and i'll start thinking of stuff that i should not even be thinking of or hate thinking about.u noe this really suckss.idklaaah.dun bother. anw, its almost 1am and im still up. i have econs class at 9am tmr. its from 9-1am. and from 1-4pm i have malay lit! fishhhhhhhhh..and i got some stuff to settle alsooo.can i just cabut?! i just want to see my nephew and niece!!! i noe there's no link.but i realllyyyy miss them.. haizzz.shutuplah.
goodnight blue moon(:
Monday, June 8, 2009
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
i said im sorry... sorry i wasn't careful enough.. i said i would be more careful next time... yeah more careful of people around me!!!!
i've mentioned this before. humans are selfish creatures... they just wanna save their own assess!! but well... i vote for world peace! at times like these... i'd rather just take the blame than get involved in a brawl... just sucks to argue..
i'll just take it as a lesson learnt. the ugliness of human nature... goshhh sucks doesn't it?? humans are ugly... and june... yes it's the act!! hahaha none of us are ugly... just the act...
i didn't rebut or try to defend myself because i saw no point in doing sooo... clear instructions weren't given to me... but what's the point in arguing to tht??? it's not a strong argument.. soo really i'll just let it slip and "u can put the blame on me"....
the stupid msg woke me up and spoilt my mood to sleep! hahaha but im glad it did cos i intended to wake up early to do some chores.... and yes enjoy the day without feeling like it's ending wayyyyy toooo sooon...
okkk gtg! im gonna eat my beeeehooon!!! hahaha
i've mentioned this before. humans are selfish creatures... they just wanna save their own assess!! but well... i vote for world peace! at times like these... i'd rather just take the blame than get involved in a brawl... just sucks to argue..
i'll just take it as a lesson learnt. the ugliness of human nature... goshhh sucks doesn't it?? humans are ugly... and june... yes it's the act!! hahaha none of us are ugly... just the act...
i didn't rebut or try to defend myself because i saw no point in doing sooo... clear instructions weren't given to me... but what's the point in arguing to tht??? it's not a strong argument.. soo really i'll just let it slip and "u can put the blame on me"....
the stupid msg woke me up and spoilt my mood to sleep! hahaha but im glad it did cos i intended to wake up early to do some chores.... and yes enjoy the day without feeling like it's ending wayyyyy toooo sooon...
okkk gtg! im gonna eat my beeeehooon!!! hahaha
Saturday, June 6, 2009
check this out man. issssir miracle!!!!!!!!!!!!! hopeee is on the horizon!
Friday, June 5, 2009
and the sky is full of dreams
freaaaakingg c.o.l.d......
i just bathe cos my body felt hot.
as in hot-heaty.NOT that hot-hot.whateverr.
i think im falliinggggggg........
sick ):
and i have class at 9am tmr.sucks.
i dont know if i should go.its 4hours of econs. -_-
idk.idk.idk.idk.
i wanna sleep and hope my stupid sickbug will be gone.be gone!
haaaaaa...
goodnight.
i just bathe cos my body felt hot.
as in hot-heaty.NOT that hot-hot.whateverr.
i think im falliinggggggg........
sick ):
and i have class at 9am tmr.sucks.
i dont know if i should go.its 4hours of econs. -_-
idk.idk.idk.idk.
i wanna sleep and hope my stupid sickbug will be gone.be gone!
haaaaaa...
goodnight.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
no one knows who you are
i hate myself for going back to sleep............
firstly cos, i'll dreaaaaam of all sorts of nonsense things..
some are reallly nice dreams, but whenever i wake up,
i'll feel sooooooo cheated! hahahaha.
secondly, i'll miss my breakfast!
i've been wanting to have macs hotcakes or kfc's PORRIDGE! ): eeeeeeee..
thirdly, i'll be wasting my time!!
i need to be in the library early so that i'll have a place to studyyy
ahshit. I NEED TO START WAKING UP EARLYYY!
kklaaah.
have a good day(:
firstly cos, i'll dreaaaaam of all sorts of nonsense things..
some are reallly nice dreams, but whenever i wake up,
i'll feel sooooooo cheated! hahahaha.
secondly, i'll miss my breakfast!
i've been wanting to have macs hotcakes or kfc's PORRIDGE! ): eeeeeeee..
thirdly, i'll be wasting my time!!
i need to be in the library early so that i'll have a place to studyyy
ahshit. I NEED TO START WAKING UP EARLYYY!
kklaaah.
have a good day(: